Posts by Jeremy Ramos5

Robert Doyle11 said:Now he’s mentioning some allergy and bad weather on Facebook... maybe none of it will actually happen...
...just letting everyone know in case anyone is still planning to go...

Good grief, those are just lyrics!
It was awesome, even if the crowd was way too big. I honestly thought I wouldn't make it out alive.

maxur said:This is where things get truly grim. The second I try to force my eyes open, this buzzing starts—it’s terrifying because it amplifies the fear and feels like an actual electric current surging through my body. It’s more than just a sensation; it’s painful, an intense energy that strains my nerves, and the pain spikes whenever the buzzing gets louder or I struggle to move. There’s this constant, overwhelming dread that if I keep fighting against the paralysis, I’ll cause permanent physical or mental damage to myself. It’s incredibly hard to put into words, but I’m trying to use terms that capture what it actually felt like. Every movement—whether it's twitching a hand or desperately trying to blink—just triggers that electrical pain and that buzzing, leaving me feeling like I'm hurting myself. I want to be clear: I am fully conscious and aware of my surroundings; this isn't a dream. At one point, I think I managed to crack my eyes open just a bit, and that’s when the hallucinations hit. Instead of seeing my ceiling, I see these images—objects, faces—superimposed over the room. They fit perfectly into the visual field, making them even more jarring. Throughout the whole ordeal, I feel this sense of being under siege, almost like a spiritual possession, because the pain comes with this heavy, negative presence trying to take control. I know it sounds like a vivid nightmare, but the crazy part is reading stories online from people all over the world; the descriptions and sensations are identical. The only difference seems to be cultural. In some places, they call it the "old hag"—that entity that sits on your chest and pins you down. Given my background, I can only describe it as something akin to demonic possession, though I don't literally believe that; it's just how the sensation translates to me. 😁
All in all, this can drag on for several minutes, filled with pain, and any attempt to resist only makes it worse. So, how do you break free?!

This sounds exactly like how I used to write.

I've noticed people on forums saying this is a relatively rare condition, which worries me since I used to deal with paralysis several times a week for about a month straight. Things are better now—I basically managed to pull myself out of it—though it still pops up occasionally, usually when I'm stressed, sleep-deprived, or overwhelmed.
Anyway, the sensation and everything you go through during an "attack" is absolutely horrific. It feels like being possessed by a powerful force. I get pinned to the bed, my whole body tingles, and the pressure in my head is unbearable. Just like maxur mentioned, it borders on physical agony. I’ve even had thoughts like, "If this keeps up, my kidneys are going to burst from the pressure..." And that buzzing that intensifies as the attack peaks? It's awful. Also, I have to mention the strangest part: I haven't heard anyone else mention sensory input during paralysis. During my episodes, I'll experience tactile sensations in the dream state—like touching a table and actually feeling the cold surface or smelling things—even though I'm not moving. Sometimes, it feels like I'm moving, like I'm running my hands through my hair, but in reality, I'm completely still. I also think I've opened my eyes a few times while falling asleep with the lights on. By the way, I don't get hallucinations, just dreams that are so intense they feel indistinguishable from reality.
I’ve grown accustomed to it by now, though I wouldn't call it comfortable. It feels strange hearing people discuss it so casually when it has genuinely soured my sleep and my quality of life. But honestly, you just have to accept it and build your own defenses against total paralysis and despair. I wonder how many psychiatric wards I would have ended up in if I hadn't worked through this on my own... I see absolutely no point in seeing a doctor who will just prescribe a pile of useless pills and tell me things I already know.

Anyone else feeling this?

Interpol, Mars Volta, IAMX, and The Prodigy.