I felt the same way at first, but now it’s actually worse. Enjoy it while you can. Every passing year just adds more complexity and weight to everything.
I struggled with this for years. Every attempt was a failure. Eventually, I just opted for hair removal. It’s local, quick, and the only real pain was the few hours after the anesthesia wore off. Painkillers handled the rest. Believe me—get it over with as soon as possible.
Hanging out with depressed people actually helps. It isn't pleasant, but seeing others suffer provides perspective. Let’s be realistic: only God can help you now. The more you struggle to forget, the more obvious it is that the problem remains. All that advice about him not being worth it? It never works. If it were truly trivial, you wouldn't be hurting. The solution: wait and hope. (Alcohol helps.)