goldenotter9 said:There's a massive difference between choosing not to have kids and simply being unable to. I'd love to have a child, but gambling with cancer just isn't an option for me.
I'd love to find some love. Honestly, I think having someone would pull me out of this absolute mess I'm in, because things are pretty bad. Just to have someone to actually talk to. Most of my friends—well, ex-friends now—gave up on me a long time ago. I'm so lonely I feel like I'm losing my grip and going crazy. I really don't know anymore...
It's a little easier now that I know what we're dealing with. I don't technically need a hundred percent guarantee, but I'm still going to wait for that final confirmation. Either way, it's going to wreck me. No way around it. 😬
Staying on Zyprexa is definitely off the table at this point; I have to try something else. The problem is, when I'm on antidepressants, I either get aggressive or they just knock me flat. My doctor mentioned she might eventually put me on a tiny dose of Effexor, maybe 37.5 mg.
To be honest, I totally get how you feel. I've been in that exact same spot (and sometimes I still am), where you need people the most and they just leave you hanging when things get rough.
If you ever need anything, my inbox is always open—whether you want to kill some time, vent and cry, or just talk about whatever. Please don't take this the wrong way; I'm not saying this out of pity. I just want to help however I can, because I know firsthand how much it means to have someone standing by your side no matter what.