Posts by ruggedlynx30

Speaking from my own experience, psychedelics are a total double-edged sword.
Back when I was dealing with some health issues about two years ago, I tried mushrooms and ended up having this incredibly intense trip; it felt like I’d regressed back to being just an animal—before I ever evolved into a human being. There was this primal, wild excitement and a sense of absolute freedom that’s honestly hard to put into words... Then, out of nowhere, I hit this religious epiphany about the creation of the universe, realizing the whole complexity of DNA and the existence of God. After that, I genuinely felt like I died and was reborn... Man, I couldn't pull myself together for days after that one; my ego just completely dissolved. I lost all grip on what was actually real because I felt like I was traveling through some other dimension entirely. It was terrifying, honestly. I know for a fact I haven't been the same since. Reality just doesn't feel quite as "solid" anymore.
Later on, I experimented again with LSD and mushrooms, but the vibe was different; I didn't get those heavy visual hallucinations, just this overwhelming sensation of being pure energy... I totally forgot I even had a body... I didn't necessarily find "answers," but rather realized how much more there is for people to explore over the next few centuries or millennia while searching for truth. When you expand your consciousness, it’s like the doors to the universe and all these deep insights just swing wide open. You can almost relive experiences from the past... The universe is just infinitely massive and constantly in motion—life is basically a dream, and our bodies are just physical manifestations of love and passion. Everything is in constant flux, never stopping... It flows and shifts constantly, kind of like the ocean or clouds drifting by... There’s no beginning and no end; it’s always been this way and always will be. Like some sort of cosmic loop. Lately, I’ve been questioning reality pretty often, and honestly, it feels like a rabbit hole that leads nowhere. I catch myself wondering who I really am and why I’m even here? But hey, I’m finishing up my degree soon, and once I graduate, I’m heading down to South America to see a shaman and try ayahuasca to push my boundaries even further... and maybe write about it... Maybe I'll grab another spiritual breakthrough that helps me see my role in this life more clearly. 😁 Anyway, chasing the wave is an interesting ride. It’s got its ups and downs... It really just depends on where you are, who you're with, and how you handle being alone with yourself.

I’ve been dealing with some seriously weird headspace shifts whenever I try to cut back on the AP. It’s like, one day I’m totally wired—just buzzing with this crazy energy that makes sleep impossible—and then the very next day, I’m just completely wiped out... Like, zero percent battery left. I'm probably gonna have to try tapering off more gradually instead of just going cold turkey.

One single lifetime is more than enough... ☕

Yeah, honestly, these meds are absolute garbage. I can't even function like a normal human being anymore on this antidepressant. It’s like... I’m just totally blocked from feeling any kind of excitement—it's impossible to actually get interested in anything. I’ve been feeling like a literal houseplant for seven months straight now... and on top of that, I’m constantly exhausted and stuck in this depressive rut because of it. No emotions, zero motivation for anything. And sex? Yeah, that's a total zero. When I'm off them, I feel like my actual self again... but since they're prescribed, what am I supposed to do? I'm barely hanging in there, but what's the move? I know deep down this stuff is junk—I can feel it in my bones—but what's the alternative? Probably just quitting this crap altogether...

Kenneth Scott41 said:I initially started on Zoloft, but I found it just wasn't a good fit for my system, so my doctor decided to switch things up. I've transitioned over to Paxil now, which has actually been quite effective and seems to be helping me significantly, though there is this one persistent issue that’s been weighing on my mind. I find myself wondering about it quite often... essentially, it comes down to a complete lack of sexual interest and some issues with impotence.

That loss of libido... yeah, I've been there. I'm just on an SSRI myself... ☕

So, what actually happens if I just stop taking my antipsychotic—specifically Seroquel—after being on it for seven months following a diagnosis of transient acute psychotic disorder? Like, does this stuff actually create a dependency or something? And am I going to run into withdrawal symptoms if I quit cold turkey? Honestly, the drowsiness from this medication is killing me—I can’t get enough sleep, everything feels totally muted and dull, my jaw keeps cramping up, and I feel like my entire personality has shifted... there's just no spark left in life anymore. I basically feel like a houseplant at this point, you know? But man, I just want to feel clear-headed and live my life again. Is there anyone here who actually knows the medical side of this?

I wanted to start a thread for anyone here who actually knows their way around antipsychotics—or better yet, anyone currently navigating life on them.
So, here’s my situation: I’ve been in treatment for over six months now. Basically, after hitting a massive wall of stress and depression, I spiraled into psychosis—specifically an acute transient psychotic disorder (F23). It was pretty intense. First, I couldn't sleep for days, then things got blurry with some delirium, followed by paranoia, sensory issues, hallucinations, and illusions... basically, I ended up in a psychiatrist's office pretty quickly.
My current regimen consists of Saphris and Abilify.
For the first three months, man, I was just... out of it. Totally slowed down, zero motivation, feeling incredibly foggy and numb—just a shell of myself. Then came three months of heavy depression, but finally, after more than half a year, I’m actually starting to feel like myself again.
What I’m really wrestling with is the long game. Am I looking at taking these meds for the rest of my life? Can you actually "cure" a disorder like this, or is it more about management? And honestly, what are the chances of a relapse? It took me a long time—and a lot of mental gymnastics—to finally admit to myself that I was dealing with something real, but once I embraced the treatment and started following my doctor's orders to the letter, things finally began to stabilize.
I'll be honest, there was a period where I was mixing marijuana with my meds, but I realized pretty fast that it was just making my depression worse. I quit, and honestly, I feel way better for it. If anyone else has gone through something similar, or if you're currently on antipsychotics, please jump in... I'd love to hear your perspectives.
I’m especially curious about the science side of things—like, how exactly do these drugs go about rebalancing dopamine levels in the brain? And for those who have done it, what does the tapering process actually look like?