Chloe Hughes6 said:Regarding the post above, I am attaching a psychological testing report from 2009.
Psychological Findings and Opinion
Intelligence test results indicate average intellectual functioning. Thought process examination shows results consistent with the obtained IQ-.
Isolation of memory functions—numerical short-term memory is very good, as is digit span backward. Verbal-logical short-term and long-term memory also show no deviations. Verbal mechanical learning and word memorization indicate a strong capacity and learning curve, along with good short-term and long-term retention of learned material. Visual short-term and long-term memory of complex figures is more significantly impaired (psychogenic).
Visual perception shows no deviations. Visuospatial analysis, synthesis, organization, and visuoconstructive abilities are impaired (also psychogenic).
Psychomotor speed shows no deviations—though the subject is often impatient and superficial, impulsive, and works too quickly at the expense of quality. Grafomotorika shows no deviations. During testing, severe disturbances in attention and concentration were noted, along with pronounced disorganization in work, caused psychogenically.
Personality Examination and Assessment—The profile obtained on the MMPI personality questionnaires indicates somatization and anxious-depressive changes, as well as elevated scores on paranoid scales and Sc behavioral tendencies. On the Cornell personality questionnaire and semi-projective tests, results also indicated anxious-depressive changes, hypersensitivity, and marked social withdrawal, alongside difficulties in social relationships: mistrustfulness, rigidity, impulsivity, and a tendency toward aggressive reactions (significantly elevated scores on latent and manifest aggression scales). Phobic and paranoid elements in behavior and somatization are also present.
CONCLUSION: Mental efficiency is reduced due to disturbances in attention, concentration, and work disorganization, which are primarily psychogenic in origin. Continued psychotherapy is recommended.
So, there it is—that’s the test. Usually, my doctor writes things like "abulic," "low mood," "anergic," and so on in the reports.
I am certainly no psychologist, but looking at this from the outside, it seems most of it boils down to anxiety-depressive symptoms and general difficulties navigating social interactions. Sure, there are mentions of paranoid elements and similar traits, though I honestly can't tell how much those actually manifest in your day-to-day life. For my own part, I found myself being flagged as extremely aggressive during testing—which was absurd—simply because I admitted to struggling with self-harm, having attempted suicide during a certain period, and even mentioned that I enjoy watching thunderstorms. By their clinical standards, I apparently check all the boxes for high aggression, yet in any actual real-world setting, my temperament couldn't be further from that description. 😁 When you look at these specific issues regarding certain types of memory impairment, isn't it glaringly obvious that they are merely secondary symptoms? It seems to me that these glitches are primarily just the fallout from an underlying psychological state rather than being the root cause themselves.
My own psychological testing results came back similarly inconclusive—it was one of those situations where the data suggests everything and nothing all at once. 🤣
What I actually wanted to ask you—and what I’m truly curious about—is how you personally perceive your own condition. For my part, the core issue has always been the depression itself, along with that heavy cluster of symptoms that inevitably tag along when it hits a particularly severe stage. To me, things like perceived emotional numbness or pulling away from social circles aren't even real issues; they feel perfectly normal given the circumstances, so I don't view them as problems at all.