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Andrew Nelson12:37651679 said:]....having faith in something, honestly anything at all, is basically the foundation for anyone to function well....
I totally get that, which is why I’m asking what people generally believe in and how or why they do... maybe some idea will just click for me. Right now, nothing really moves me...
try to think back if you've always been this way or, if you haven't, what was the turning point in how you think...
I really can't remember... I think I've always been like this. If not, I truly don't recall any specific moment where things changed...
Harold Anderson3;37651837 said:
but I don't quite follow.. if you're just drifting like a leaf in the wind, and you're doing fine, what's actually keeping you going?
I'm still living with my parents, so I've got a roof over my head and food to eat. When I can, I work. When I have money, I spend it, and when I don't, I don't...
Kyle Harris7 said:So, how many years have you actually been on this planet?
23
Hey everyone! I'm new here... I've been lurking for a bit reading through everything, so I finally decided to jump in and share what's been weighing on my mind.
I don't really believe in anything. Not love, not truth, not freedom, God, science... I don't know... I just don't have any ideals. There's no "meaning" for me, just the practical value of things.
And people? I don't trust them either. Not even friendship. Honestly, I get along best with people who lie all the time, because then I don't have to believe a single word they say 🤷
I don't have much respect for anything... except maybe nature. I don't really hold strong stances on anything. Like, when there’s some massive national debate about a new policy or a big election cycle... I just can't bring myself to care. It's hard to care when you don't trust the news being fed to us anyway.
My behavior is pretty irresponsible, too. Toward others—like, I'll be great with someone one day, then just change my number and vanish forever because, again, I don't believe in friendship—and toward myself, like with how I handle intimacy. Not to mention daily responsibilities or obligations. I just don't have goals or desires.
So, basically, I could probably check out by tomorrow...
It doesn't bother me much most of the time, except for those moments (maybe this is one of them) where I wash up and think—how am I actually living like this? How long can this go on? Then I just tell myself—whatever, it'll work out somehow. What's the point of "purpose"? It's just an illusion anyway. And I just go back to my old ways.
I mostly just operate on pure impulse or sheer spite.
But I'm not some heartless jerk, if anyone's wondering. I think I'm a decent person. I'd never intentionally exploit or hurt someone just because it's convenient for me.
But I feel like I can't keep going like this forever. I don't want to wake up when I'm old and realize I've spent my whole life with absolutely nothing to show for it.
I wish I had at least one principle, any kind of principle (as long as it isn't destructive), just so I had something to guide me. Something that makes my behavior consistent for more than two days in a row.
I feel like a leaf blowing in the wind. I'm doing okay for now, but it's not really leading anywhere...
Does anyone have any advice? What do you believe in, and why? Do you have some sort of "code" you live by?