On top of everything, there's no Fear
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...sending love....Richard Murphy6🙄
...sending love....Richard Murphy6🙄
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On top of everything, there's no Fear
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... man, screw you Richard Murphy6, you totally trashed me... now I look like some kind of idiot because of you...
Whatever it is that went wrong... Kenny did it... anyway, this guilt is eating me alive right now, and now you're telling me I'm doing everything wrong too... dammit...
First off, gotta say hey to the old crew👋 (even if it's just the bitter one hanging around, though I'm honestly glad they pop in once in a while—sometimes I get hit with this massive wave of nostalgia for those first monitors and all the old-school handles we used to have)... these new kids don't have a clue what anxiety even feels like... and here you guys are, trying so hard to explain it... it's crazy. Honestly, if someone doesn't get it, they should just take a trip, maybe two or three... and imagine they're actually dying... heh... then let's see what real Fear feels like... and having it every single day, 24/7.
...I haven't been around for a while, but Richard Murphy6 can probably explain it better than I can (truth is, I was running away from myself)... so here I am, just saying, let's see what's hiding in my subconscious... taking a little peek online... although Richard Murphy6 is right... I run, I search, I hide... but damn anxiety always finds me... I know, Richard Murphy6, I know, I can't hide from myself... and what am I supposed to do? You soak up everything—the Bible, the Quran, soup, Balasevic... the great Black Stone and Dylan Dog... personally, I'm just over all of it. Honestly. I'm sick of it all, I'm sick of the world (I think I might be going through a depressive phase... spring is coming, hormones are spiking and all... at least that's how my mom used to explain it... and moms always know best when it comes to their kids... if I'd actually listened to her, I'd probably have two kids by now, a car, an apartment, a job... and a wife who couldn't stand me... instead, I'm just wandering around playing the bohemian lifestyle)...
...man, Richard Murphy6, Richard Murphy6... I just don't give a damn about anything anymore.
I'm trying to find my own way... trying to find myself in my own unique style... I've never listened to anyone in my entire life... and now, I just can't deal with authority... not even in writing... I want to be MYSELF!!!!!!... and if I fail, well, that'll be my own failure... I'd love to believe in God... truly, I've looked for Him, He probably exists... but I haven't seen Him clearly, or rather, I haven't seen Him at all. (I mean, I know He exists... He HAS TO EXIST)... yet... I'm scared that He does... am I such a monster that I'll end up in hell... that's what scares me. If God exists, then heaven exists and hell exists too... and I'm terrified of hell😈... though I feel like I'm already there.
...but I'm blindly contradictory, so I'm actually okay with how my life is going... just living it as it comes... even if I can't sleep... and man, I want to sleep like a baby so badly
Anyway... I see the old gang isn't around anymore... I hope they're doing alright... or maybe they're also hiding from their own (un)conscious...
Actually... just so it's understood... I LOVE RICHARD MURPHY6... AND THAT WHOLE COMPLEX... HE IS GOD🙏 ....
Whatever it is that went wrong... Kenny did it... anyway, this guilt is eating me alive right now, and now you're telling me I'm doing everything wrong too... dammit...
First off, gotta say hey to the old crew👋 (even if it's just the bitter one hanging around, though I'm honestly glad they pop in once in a while—sometimes I get hit with this massive wave of nostalgia for those first monitors and all the old-school handles we used to have)... these new kids don't have a clue what anxiety even feels like... and here you guys are, trying so hard to explain it... it's crazy. Honestly, if someone doesn't get it, they should just take a trip, maybe two or three... and imagine they're actually dying... heh... then let's see what real Fear feels like... and having it every single day, 24/7.
...I haven't been around for a while, but Richard Murphy6 can probably explain it better than I can (truth is, I was running away from myself)... so here I am, just saying, let's see what's hiding in my subconscious... taking a little peek online... although Richard Murphy6 is right... I run, I search, I hide... but damn anxiety always finds me... I know, Richard Murphy6, I know, I can't hide from myself... and what am I supposed to do? You soak up everything—the Bible, the Quran, soup, Balasevic... the great Black Stone and Dylan Dog... personally, I'm just over all of it. Honestly. I'm sick of it all, I'm sick of the world (I think I might be going through a depressive phase... spring is coming, hormones are spiking and all... at least that's how my mom used to explain it... and moms always know best when it comes to their kids... if I'd actually listened to her, I'd probably have two kids by now, a car, an apartment, a job... and a wife who couldn't stand me... instead, I'm just wandering around playing the bohemian lifestyle)...
...man, Richard Murphy6, Richard Murphy6... I just don't give a damn about anything anymore.
I'm trying to find my own way... trying to find myself in my own unique style... I've never listened to anyone in my entire life... and now, I just can't deal with authority... not even in writing... I want to be MYSELF!!!!!!... and if I fail, well, that'll be my own failure... I'd love to believe in God... truly, I've looked for Him, He probably exists... but I haven't seen Him clearly, or rather, I haven't seen Him at all. (I mean, I know He exists... He HAS TO EXIST)... yet... I'm scared that He does... am I such a monster that I'll end up in hell... that's what scares me. If God exists, then heaven exists and hell exists too... and I'm terrified of hell😈... though I feel like I'm already there.
...but I'm blindly contradictory, so I'm actually okay with how my life is going... just living it as it comes... even if I can't sleep... and man, I want to sleep like a baby so badly
Anyway... I see the old gang isn't around anymore... I hope they're doing alright... or maybe they're also hiding from their own (un)conscious...
Actually... just so it's understood... I LOVE RICHARD MURPHY6... AND THAT WHOLE COMPLEX... HE IS GOD🙏 ....