Posts by Paul Palmer24

Nothing much. Just checking in to let you know I’m still breathing. Honestly, maybe I shouldn't be. Things actually took a turn for the worse today because my employer finally coughed up some of my back pay from July. Only half of it, though. Toss in a measly 10% bonus—which is basically just a second slap in the face—and I ended up with $383. Hilarious, right?

If you only look at life through the lens of the present, you might think the whole thing is a total disaster. But there are good things waiting for you just around the corner.

That sounds great in theory. The problem is, I don't exactly go looking around corners. I'm too busy staring at how things used to be versus how pathetic they are now. Everyone loves that "the good old days" routine. God, the nostalgia is exhausting.
I guess this will all pass eventually. Maybe if I pull a few tricks out of a hat.

Off to pray to the gods. 🙂

Is there any chance you can move out from your parents' place?

There’s a way, but man, life is expensive. I’ve actually been thinking about it lately. Mary would need to cut back on some spending, but hey, at least I'd have one less headache to deal with.

Lately, I’ve been comparing life to being assaulted in prison... you can't do anything about it. You just grit your teeth and try to think positive thoughts, hoping tomorrow might be better.

Now that’s a vivid comparison. I love it. 👍

It’s funny how when people are in this kind of state, they don't know anything. Every answer I get is always "I don't know," "maybe," or "probably." 😕
It’s also interesting that according to my old lady, I've become an alcoholic. She's like, "Have you watched Oprah? You know who the alcoholics are."
Well, it looks like my mom is going to force me into it, or maybe I'm already there. Does a liter of beer a day make someone an alcoholic? "Interesting."

Heh, I started laughing uncontrollably. Just a random thought pops into my head and I end up laughing through the sadness.

Best,

What’s the term for when someone is completely underwater? On the edge? I can't even wrap my head around it. I'm just done. Everything is piling up—the boss is breathing down my neck, life is hanging by a thread. Seriously.
It reminds me of those Kanye West lyrics: "No loved ones, no friends, my life is just sorrow, no flowers in my field, you're my only joy."
Everyone is talking trash about me and my head is spinning from all the bullshit.
Look, sorry, I just need to vent to someone. I just joined this forum recently and I've been scrolling through the posts—lots of optimists, sure, but mostly just people drowning in misery. While I'm typing this, my mom is hovering over me, nagging away. "You should be doing this," "you shouldn't be doing that," "are you studying?" "are you drinking?" "are you smoking?" It never ends.
Things have been pretty bleak the last few months. When it comes to girls who actually care about me, I’ve become totally passive. Just "uninterested."
I don't know. You can't even imagine how much Boston is struggling right now, and I
can't even put it into words.
What am I supposed to do about the dating scene? How am I supposed to fix things there when I'm clearly not okay myself?
Last summer, while I was hanging out with some lovely American women, my whole perspective shifted. I realized I definitely vibe better with American women than with Canadian women.
I don't know anything anymore. 😕

Cheers and thanks.