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Grace Fowler said:Hey there, my dear friends!
I have quite a bit of news to share, though I'll admit things feel a little bit up in the air right now... Regarding the chemo, I actually had a really positive response from the spots in my lungs, but unfortunately, the treatment didn't work on the pelvic area since I've already had radiation. On top of that, because the drugs are pretty hard on the kidneys, my right kidney took a bit of a hit, so the medical board decided that I can't continue with IV chemotherapy anymore and will have to switch strictly to oral Cyclophosphamide. At first, I honestly felt like they were giving up on me, but after sleeping on it for a night, I realized that I absolutely have to keep pushing forward! So, I went to consult with my surgeon about trying to surgically remove those masses in my pelvis, and he actually agreed to go for it. That means I'm currently just in that waiting phase for the surgery. Since Christmas is creeping up on us, I'm choosing to believe that a successful surgery will be my special gift from God for Christmas. That’s all for now... I'll check back in with more updates soon, and THANK YOU all so much for being such an incredible support system.
Dina

Dear Dina, you are definitely going to receive that gift!
Whenever things feel at their absolute worst, just remember how much stronger you are than you were last year and know that God is always right there by your side! When you feel like you're stumbling, He is there to give you that extra strength to stand tall again...
You are constantly in our thoughts and our prayers!
Hang in there, sweetie!

gentlemoose62 said:Yeah, I was actually wondering where everyone went too!

So, I’m going to step up and ask for all your prayers and good vibes this time around because I have to go in for a breast biopsy.
I'll admit I'm feeling a little bit anxious about it, but I'm trying my best to stay positive and trust that everything is going to turn out fine! Honestly, after dealing with ovarian cancer, this is really the last thing I need on my plate right now.
I'll be sure to check back in once the biopsy results come through.

You are absolutely in our thoughts and prayers, and we are all sending so much positive energy your way!
It’s all going to be okay, sweetie, and please make sure to let us know the news so we can all celebrate together.
Stay strong!

slyseal28 said:My wonderful husband just had his chest CT scan, and the results are absolutely FANTASTIC!!!

My Pigeon is doing so much better now. He’ll probably be ready to head back to work sometime after the New Year, but for now, he really needs to just soak up some rest... honestly, these past few weeks of waiting have just completely drained us both. There's been so much anxiety and fear piling up lately, it felt a bit heavy. We still have a follow-up appointment with the specialist next week and a PET scan scheduled for December 19th, so once that's over, we can finally wrap up this year on a high note. I'm not quite sure how often we'll need to do scans and check-ups moving forward, but I'm guessing it'll be pretty frequent, maybe every three months or so.

Anyway, my dear friends, we are doing great and we are so incredibly happy! Both of us actually have birthdays coming up right now, and this CT result is truly the most beautiful birthday present we could ever ask for! We beat the cancer!!!

Happy birthday to you both, and what an amazing victory!
Thank you so much for sharing such wonderful news with all of us.
I am just beaming with joy for you guys.
Hang in there, my dear friends!

Nancy Thomas18 said:Hi everyone!
I’ve been reading through all your posts for quite a while now, and I honestly feel like I’ve read every single page on this thread. I’ve recently been diagnosed with colon carcinoma myself, and it’s been a whirlwind—I actually had two surgeries packed into just one month! During all that chaos, finding this community and reading all the beautiful, supportive things you say to one another has been such a huge comfort to me. It’s just me and my son right now, and since he’s away at college in NYC, I’ve really been leaning on all of you to help me get through these rough patches, and I know I’ll be doing the same moving forward. I have so much admiration for Angela Wright; I truly believe she’s the kind of exceptional person anyone would want by their side, whether life is going great or things are getting tough. And I also look up to Diana, who is such an incredible fighter—something I feel like I'm still trying to find within myself. I’m just about to start chemotherapy, and honestly, my head is spinning with questions that I can't seem to find answers to. If anyone would be willing to share some advice regarding nutrition, how to handle the chemo sessions, or what the recovery from surgery is like, I would be so incredibly grateful. I’ll be hanging out here reading your stories, and I’ll definitely reach out when things get heavy, because let's face it, there are days when I don't feel so great. But mostly, I'm here, and maybe one day I'll even be able to help someone else using my own experience. Hang in there, everyone—let's keep fighting until the very end!

Dear, please know you aren't alone; we are all right here to lift each other up, whether it's with a bit of advice, some helpful info, or just a kind word...
Please don't try to isolate yourself or keep everything bottled up inside.

Regarding food, I think once you leave the hospital, they usually hand you a specific diet list—at least that’s what they gave my mom. But honestly, you'll learn best by listening to your own body and noticing what makes you feel bloated or causes cramps...
Basically, stay away from fried foods and try to cut out the sweets. Stick to cooked foods, plenty of veggies (just watch out for things like cauliflower since they can cause gas), soups, fish, and light, fresh cheeses... Oh, and if you can, try to avoid fresh bread; maybe stick to something a day or two old that isn't plain white bread...
It really depends on how much time has passed since your surgery and what the procedure was actually like...
Where are you receiving your treatment?
I'm sure you've already come across those "immune boosters," like the Native Propolis from Heder. That stuff really helped my mother and several other dear friends in this group keep their immune systems up.
I'll be back online again tonight after 8:00 PM, so if there's anything else on your mind, just ask...

Hang in there, sweetie!
Sending love to all the fighters out there!

Grace Fowler said:Hey there, my wonderful friends!!!
So, the results are finally in... and honestly, I’m almost at a loss for words... basically, things haven't changed much since May when they diagnosed the recurrence with those metastases in my lungs (this nasty thing just seems to have settled in and refuses to budge!). On the bright side, they spotted some calcifications which is actually great news because it shows the chemo really did its job, and thankfully, the disease hasn't progressed much further. This Monday, I’m taking everything to the oncology board so they can decide our next move—it’ll likely be more chemo, since I’ve reached the limit for radiation in that area of my pelvis. I’m not feeling overly down about it, though; maybe I was hoping for a slightly better breakthrough, but hey, what you see is what you get... so I'm just pushing forward! I have to admit, even though I've been fighting this war for nearly nine years now, whenever these tougher results pop up, a wave of anxiety always finds its way to me. I won't keep repeating myself like a broken record, so I'll just say I'm moving ahead regardless... thank you all so much for the support... I'll check back in once I get the official word on the game plan!
Stay kind and stay brave.
Your Diana

Dear Diana, it is such a relief that there's no progression. You managed to settle this beast down, and I know you're going to find a way to kick it out for good!
Just stay strong, sweetie, and keep doing what you do best—keep "grabbing" onto life!
Sending you every bit of positive energy I have so that even that tiny bit of sadness and anxiety fades away!

electricgardener14 said:My husband finally closed his eyes for the last time on November 18th, after six months of unbearable pain, suffering, and pure fear. I couldn't help him—honestly, nobody could. This illness moved so incredibly fast that it always seemed to be one step ahead of us. I can't even put my feelings into words right now; it’s just this heavy numbness, this sense of helplessness, and then this sudden surge of anger toward God, and even toward myself, because I feel like I failed to save him. But he wanted to live so badly. Even when he became immobile, when he couldn't move his arms or legs at all, that spark, that hunger for life, never left his eyes. Sometimes I get this sinking feeling that I gave up before he did, like I should have fought harder or tried one more thing, or that I let him go too soon. It’s just so incredibly hard, and I don't think I'll ever be able to forget that very last conscious look he gave me. It felt like it held all the sadness in the entire world. Does it really have to be this difficult?!
Diana

Dear Diana, please accept my most sincere condolences.
You truly did everything within your power as a human being.
Through all the pain, the suffering, and the fear, you two shared a love that transcends everything...
May that beautiful love and the memory of your little angels give you the strength to carry on!
Hang in there, dear!

Carol Ramirez said:....
It honestly breaks my heart to feel like I’m weighing you all down with these stories—they feel so incredibly heavy and raw—but somehow, just letting it all out here makes me feel a little lighter. I find myself needing to relive every single memory of him, from his silly little blunders to those tiny quirks he had. I just want to capture the way he moved, the specific way his eyes used to crinkle when he laughed, or how he’d gently brush my hair back... I feel this overwhelming urge to let all of it pour out of me, because maybe then, eventually, the edge will soften and I'll finally find some peace and silence. I can't really talk about this with my family, though, because seeing them struggle is just too much to bear.
Thank you all so much again for being so selfless and supportive. I know I'll keep coming back here; I just can't break the habit, and I certainly can't just close the Tab in Firefox that leads straight to this thread. I may have lost this battle, but the experience has left such a profound mark on me. If anyone ever needs advice regarding small cell lung cancer or anything that might help ease the suffering, please don't hesitate to reach out—it would truly be my pleasure to help if I can.
Stay strong!!!

Sweetie, please don't feel like you're bothering us; just share everything you're feeling—all the thoughts, the pain, the sadness, and the beautiful memories... don't keep it bottled up inside...
Hang in there, sending love!

casualpanther1 said:I have some wonderful news to share,

Even with everything my wife has been facing since her diagnosis, we aren't letting it get us down—if anything, we're working harder than ever to just live life normally, and honestly, it’s actually working out pretty well so far! We haven't let the illness stop our momentum at all. Before she was diagnosed, she had already crushed all her exams at her university and just had her final thesis left to write. Well, yesterday—fifteen months after receiving her diagnosis—she officially defended her thesis and graduated!
I really hope this little bit of good news serves as a reminder to anyone else out there that you shouldn't give up, no matter what kind of diagnosis you're dealing with or how tough things get during the fight.

Sending my best to everyone,

This is such incredible news!
A huge, heartfelt congratulations to you both—please, just keep going exactly like this!

Hey guys, does anyone happen to know how things went with Diana? She was supposed to get her results this past Tuesday...
I'm really crossing my fingers that it's good news.

Melissa Kim45 said:My mom is actually doing much better regarding the carcinoma! They couldn't see anything on her X-ray anymore, so they suggested she go back in for another bronchoscopy, but she really wasn't feeling it, and honestly, we stood by her decision to skip it. That first procedure was just so incredibly hard on her, so we wanted to give her a win. After that, they sent her for a CT scan, and the doctor says everything looks clear and orderly now! I can't say for sure how much weight I should put on that—since we're dealing with microstanic cells, things can be tricky—but it feels like a huge relief. They mentioned they’d mail the results out to us, but there's a bit of a mess right now because they’re doing some renovations over at the Jordanovac facility, so that department is in total chaos after being moved around. She’ll be heading back in for her next checkup in two weeks—I think it's for her electrolytes, though I'm not entirely sure what else is on the schedule—and she’s set to get another round of chemo in December. Beyond that, everything is still up in the air. We aren't even thinking about the distant future right now; we're just taking it one day at a time!
To be honest, things aren't going great right now. It feels like there’s always something aching somewhere. She’s just so weak lately, and sometimes she can barely even manage to walk. There are moments when she just drifts off or stumbles, and I honestly get so scared that she’s going to take a nasty fall somewhere. On top of all that, she’s having a really hard time sleeping. And when those coughing fits hit? Oh man, it is absolutely terrifying to watch. She was dealing with some awful leg cramps just a little while ago, so I stayed to give her a massage, and I only finally managed to head out once she took her medicine and settled in for sleep. I even made sure to rub some fragrant lotion everywhere I could reach, because her skin has become incredibly dry.
Unless he's busy watching the big game, that is! 😁 That's exactly how I stumbled upon it when I first arrived: you just have to sit back, watch, and see how things turn out!😁
Ever since I finished chemo, things have been a bit of a struggle because everything just gets backed up, you know? It’s like my system completely stalls out and suddenly I can't go at all, which turns into this whole intense battle to get things moving again!🙄 On top of everything else, she deals with these waves of nausea that stick around for days afterward—though, to be fair, the first day or two aren't actually the worst part. It’s nothing catastrophic, really; she just takes her pill and settles right back down for the rest of the day, and usually, the following day is smooth sailing too. I honestly can't wrap my head around the science behind how it works, but given her age—she just turned 71—and the fact that she's quite petite at only 91 pounds, I think the key is just staying vigilant and reacting immediately, which helps her avoid any actual vomiting. Compared to some of the other patients we see, she actually handles the whole ordeal remarkably well!

Dear Carol Ramirez, if you ever decide to make a run for it and escape to Mars, please, please take me with you!😢

I am just so incredibly happy to hear that there's some good news out there! It honestly makes my whole day when things finally start looking up like this.

You just stay focused on yourself and your own mother!

Carol Ramirez said:We laid my Grandfather to rest today, and honestly, he was more than just family—he was like a second father to me and my absolute rock through everything.
I feel so lost right now; everywhere I look, I see reminders of our fight together, from all the different medications he took to the little things I used to prep for him, like his prescriptions, medical reports, and even his glasses just sitting there. If I could, I’d honestly just run away to Mars right now.

Honey, I am so incredibly sorry, please accept my most heartfelt condolences.
Just knowing that he closed his eyes feeling your presence and your overwhelming love will hopefully give you some strength to carry on.

Hang in there!

Angela Wright said:Ancica, you actually share the same name as my mom!😢 I truly understand the weight you're carrying right now, but if I can offer one little piece of perspective... nothing ever turns out quite the way we imagine it will. My own mother endured so much more than any doctor ever predicted. There is still so much heart and soul you can pour into her care. Honestly, why not look into a bioenergetic healer or a herbalist? You know, the US is absolutely full of them, and there are some incredibly talented folk healers out there. I personally know about this man living in NYC—I think he was a biochemist whom the doctors had basically given up on, so he decided to take his health into his own hands. He gathered certain herbs, whipped up his own medicinal tinctures, and ended up healing himself! Now, he spends his days helping others; people come to him with their diagnoses, and he crafts custom tinctures just for them. I’ll see if I can dig up his name and let you know.
The secret is to live entirely in the here and now. Tomorrow isn't even a guarantee, so don't let it weigh you down. You have to frame things that way in your mind, otherwise, you'll just burn out, and that doesn't help anyone. Our loved ones get sick, and eventually, we all face the end, but we have to keep moving forward on our own life paths, no matter how hard it gets. Just hold onto that thought every single day, and always ask yourself what your mom would tell you or advise you to do.
You have so much strength inside you, so please, don't be afraid. You can weather anything God puts in your path, no matter how insurmountable everything feels right now. I'm telling you this from a soul that has suffered deeply and felt exactly what you are feeling in this very moment. And please, never forget, you aren't alone in this.
Hang in there, sending hugs!

Dear Ivanica, you are such an inspiration to all of us.
How have you been holding up lately?

Hannah Thomas28 said:It’s just so hard... I’ve been reading through everyone’s posts lately, almost feeling like a "spy," feeding off all your beautiful news while mourning the bad ones.
My mom’s pancreatic cancer metastasized to her liver after just two months... We were in total shock when they told us right after surgery that she might not even make it through the day, because they "lost" her during the procedure three times. Oh, how I cried back then! I truly thought I wouldn't see her again or get to hug her. But we pushed through it, and look at her now—she’s doing well and looks wonderful. So how can she still have cancer?!!!!!
She knows about the cancer, but she doesn't know about the metastasis, and of course, she isn't aware of those horrific medical prognoses. She isn't doing chemo or radiation, because the doctors say it won't help her.
It is so difficult to watch someone who has energy, looks healthy, shows no symptoms or pain... She’s even hungry.
I had hope, but I feel like I'm losing it. I'm just surrendering to it. Today, I am just depressed. But this isn't really me!
She’s drinking so many things. B17, reishi, silver water, eating apricot kernels, noni juice, nettle... I'm even thinking about looking into energy healers. I honestly don't know anymore.
We had finally managed to "stabilize" things—I mean, since there's cancer, you can learn to live with it, especially since there aren't metastases and everything else looks clear. And then, out of nowhere, comes this blow yesterday.
The doctor says, "It's not good"...
And I have to sit here and pretend to be smiling and upbeat, when all I want to do is run into her arms and scream, "Mom, please help me!" Ugh, if only she could be the one to help me!!!
I’ve retreated into the dark chambers of my own temple; tears and fears have become my demons.
Sometimes I escape to the rooms of my childhood, because the demons don't follow me there...

What can I even say... I always used to tell everyone that before they do something stupid to their loved ones—like yelling or being rude—they should stop, think, and realize that a day will come when they’ll be begging to turn back time so they wouldn't have said certain things, or perhaps should have said them. So, I guess I need to think that way too... As if time could ever be turned back. Just a little bit longer.

I feel like a sailboat out on the open ocean being battered by winds from every direction, and I just don't know how to handle the sails; the waves are crashing against me from all sides, spinning me in circles... God, please help me set my sails and catch my wind.

My name is Sorrow.

Dear Hannah, I know how heavy this is for you, and I know that pain and sadness feel like waves crashing over you without end... That grief is powerful, but you are stronger, and your love for your mother is even more powerful... And because you love her so much, you fight and you push back...
Please, don't lose hope!!
The advice I received here, which helped me immensely, was to live one day at a time. Be grateful for every single day, and focus only on the day you actually have with your mother (don't dwell on what "won't be," because that just hurts too much and pulls you away from the present moment).
I don't know if my own story can encourage you...
The doctors basically "wrote my mom off" in the third month; both the surgeon and the oncologist were saying it was a miracle she was even alive...
And even now, the doctors are still surprised...
She hasn't been fully healed, but she is still here... We are still fighting...

I'm sending you all my positive energy and a huge hug!
Hang in there!

Angela Wright said:My mom passed away peacefully this morning.
I just wanted to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the support you’ve shown me during this incredibly difficult chapter of my life.
I love you guys so much! May God bless you all in your own struggles—just keep pushing forward!

Dear Angela, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss; my heart truly goes out to you.
Your mother was so blessed to have such a beautiful, loving angel by her side through it all.
The bond you two shared is something that can never be erased...
Please know that I'm keeping you in my prayers.
Stay strong, dear!

Elizabeth Collins60 said:My dear friends, I’m feeling a little lost right now... unfortunately, I have some heartbreaking news to share because we lost another soul to this cruel disease, and my dad passed away this past Sunday, October 21st, at 1:30 PM. Honestly, the tears just won't stop flowing, and even though time is passing, it still hasn't quite sunk in that he’s gone and I won't see him again. When I think of him, I don't picture him lying helpless in a hospital bed; instead, my mind keeps drifting back to those beautiful days when he was in his stroller, our little guy, and we’d just wander around town together grabbing coffee. We shared so many incredible memories and such wonderful moments, and I truly feel like he’s still living right here inside me... even though it feels harder and harder to carry this weight every single day. But I don't regret a single second of it—I gave him absolutely everything I had, staying by his side until the very end, and now I’m spending all my time looking after my mom. He was such a special man, and we had this bond that was just one of a kind; I was always his little snowflake...

Dear Mia, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.
I know there aren't any words in the world that can truly take away this kind of pain.
But you are so right when you say he lives on through you, because when you love someone that deeply, there is no real goodbye—he stays alive within your heart and through everything you do... even if this physical separation hurts so much right now.
May the love you shared give you the strength to keep going.
Sending so many prayers to you and your mother; I hope you both find the strength to get through this heartache.

Melissa Edwards53 said:Hey everyone!
I've been lurking here and reading all your posts for quite a while now, but I finally worked up the courage to actually type something out myself. About two years ago, I lost my absolute best friend to cancer—she was only 18 at the time. Looking back, those five years we spent fighting alongside her were honestly the most intense, heartbreaking, yet beautiful experiences of my entire life. Just thinking about all those endless days spent sitting in hospital waiting rooms makes me burst into tears right now. Even when she was going through the absolute worst of it, that silly girl would always find a way to crack a joke, mess with the doctors just to see them smile, and somehow, even in her pain, she’d be the one trying to comfort ME... anyway, I won't ramble too much, I just wanted to say that this community is such a lifesaver. If you try to bottle everything up inside and pretend you're "strong," you'll eventually just snap, exactly like I did. Now, I'm dealing with some serious health issues of my own, because honestly, carrying all that grief alone is just too heavy for anyone to bear. That pain has to go somewhere. Can I say it gets easier over time? Not really. I still dream about her almost every single night, and I end up spending half the night crying, but I have to believe things will get better, because HOPE IS EVERYTHING!!!
Sending kisses to you all!!!

Sometimes, the pain we hold onto for so long just presses down on us with such incredible weight, and we spend all our energy trying to fight against it...
I truly believe it feels a little lighter when we just stop fighting the suffering and learn to accept it... at least, that's what I keep telling myself, and sometimes it actually helps. Lately, I've realized that maybe the real battle is simply accepting the pain and learning how to live alongside it... though gosh, some days that feels impossible...
Sending love to all you fighters out there! Just keep moving forward, and whenever things feel their heaviest, please remember that you aren't walking this path alone!
Hang in there!
😘

Angela Wright said:My mom's episodes actually stopped once I brought a priest in to give her the Anointing of the Sick and hear her confession. They sat in her room talking for about two hours, and from that moment on, she just wasn't afraid anymore.
I honestly don't know exactly what he said to her, but she used to mention all the time how our local pastor was a total saint.
If someone is a believer, I really feel like a kind-hearted, gentle priest having a heart-to-heart could help them way more than a psychologist or psychiatrist who basically just "processes" you through an appointment. It would also be just as helpful if she could connect with people going through the exact same thing.
My mom has always been a very sensitive, emotional person—I think I mentioned that somewhere in her profile before.

Thank you so much for the advice, dear Angela! I wish I could "borrow" the priest from your parish, but he's quite a long way from 😳
I agree with you that a gentle priest is definitely the way to go, but Mom is insisting on seeing a psychiatrist instead. I wonder if it's because of a bad experience she had back during Christmas...
She’s actually stayed in touch with some people she met at the hospital, and it’s so lovely that she’s the one encouraging them, even though she's often the one struggling more than they are...

Oh well, I'll figure something out eventually; surely I can find a compassionate priest here in Miami... and who knows, maybe later on she won't be so set on the psychiatrist after all...

Anyway, how are you doing? And how is your mom?

Elizabeth Collins60 said:Here is just another poor, heartbroken soul fighting this cruel disease within my family. My dad has been battling cancer for a year and a half now, going through all the chemo and radiation, and yet our wonderful doctors still can't even pinpoint where the primary tumor actually is. Everything seemed to be going okay until the day they discovered four metastases in his brain. How do you even deal with something like this? How do you prepare yourself for the loss of the person who means absolutely everything to you? Please, help.

Dearest Elizabeth Collins60, I truly wish there were words in existence that could comfort you and give you the strength you need right now, but sometimes words just feel so small...
I can only share my own experience and what helps me get through my darkest moments, which is trying not to dwell on tomorrow or spiraling into those "what if..." thoughts.
Whenever I feel myself starting to spiral and fall apart, I try my hardest to pull myself back to the here and now, focusing solely on what I can do for my mom in this exact moment...
I think the hardest part is really accepting the suffering and the pain—meaning, just accepting it and carrying it, rather than fighting against it... because when we resist, we just burn through all our precious energy and strength... and we can't simply snatch away the pain and suffering, at least not in the way we desperately want to...

We are all in this together!!
Sending you so much love and many prayers!

Ryan Fisher64 said:Hey everyone, sorry I've been MIA for a while—to be honest, I stayed away because things were actually starting to look up for my mom, but then everything took a turn for the worse about four days ago. After her stroke, we brought her home to continue with her medication and massage therapy, and just when I thought we were finally hitting our stride and could ramp up the exercises, she started choking... it was terrifying, she was crying out so loudly. Now she’s on a constant dose of Trodon, because that's what the doctor decided... I honestly don't know what's happening, maybe it's metastases spreading, or who knows anymore... it's just devastating. I find myself questioning the whole point of it all; I lost my dad when I was only 13, and now, just when Mom was finally supposed to start enjoying her grandkids, this happens. How much more can one person take? It's not that I'm doubting the existence of good and evil, it's just that I truly don't understand why bad things seem to happen to such wonderful people so often.
The Trodon doses have left Mom in this state where, how should I put it, she feels completely lost; it's almost impossible to even make contact with her now, it's just awful!!!

I am so incredibly sorry you're going through this. I know things feel unimaginably heavy right now, but you really have to try and find a way to pull yourself together and push back those negative thoughts. They just end up burying you deeper and making the suffering so much harder to bear.
Try to follow what Angela Wright suggested, whether that's reaching out through a connection or just calling 911...
Then you can just take it from there. One day at a time.
Even if it feels like it's getting harder to reach your mom right now, I truly believe she can still feel your love.

Sending you so much positive energy!
Hang in there!

Hey everyone, I could really use some help!

Does anyone here know of a great psychologist or psychiatrist who specializes in working with patients facing serious illnesses (like malignant diseases) in the San Francisco area?
Ideally, it would be amazing if they could even do home visits—I’m not entirely sure if that’s a common thing people do nowadays—but getting my mom out of the house is just such a massive struggle because she’s almost completely immobile. If home visits aren't an option, though, we'll find a way to make it work and get her there...
Over the last five years of her illness, she has truly been through absolutely everything imaginable (and honestly, I don't even want to go into all the details, because I know you guys understand how heavy this can be), but these last six months have been particularly brutal. It's reached a point where, on top of everything else, she's having these intense panic attacks. An ER doctor actually diagnosed them recently and prescribed her Normabel, along with a patch for relief...
I'm feeling a bit lost myself on what the best next step is... even if it's just for her to have one single conversation with someone, because these attacks just won't stop. Plus, she keeps telling me herself that she’d really love to talk to a psychiatrist, even though she spent her entire life being totally against the whole idea...
If you know of anyone or have heard any recommendations, please feel free to send them my way via private message.

Thank you all so much!

Sending you all huge hugs filled with love!

cosmicsailor91 said:Sending so much love to everyone out there fighting this battle, and to all of you standing right by their side.
I’m the mom of a little girl who was diagnosed with Stage IV neuroblastoma just 19 months ago—she wasn't even two years old yet. It's one of the top three most common childhood cancers, and honestly, it's incredibly aggressive. In our daughter's case, the tumor stretched across the right side of her abdomen from her ribs down to her pelvis, crossed the midline, hit several lymph nodes, and even spread to her lungs. We've been through the ringer with four rounds of pre-op chemo and four rounds of post-op chemo, followed by MIBG therapy and then an immediate stem cell transplant using her own cells. She’s doing so well now, though we're heading into radiation just to be absolutely safe. She’s only 3.5 years old, and I really want to reach out and support other parents walking this same heavy path by sharing what we've learned along the way.
Please, don't fall for any "miracle cures" you might see advertised, but things like beet and carrot juices, vitamins, or even goat milk can really help support the body while it deals with the intensity of chemotherapy. Also, using a non-alcoholic propolis can be a lifesaver for avoiding mouth sores, and a good soothing ointment or propolis cream can really help prevent painful inflammation in sensitive areas.

Sending my warmest wishes to you all again—may God watch over you and bless you.
I AM WITH YOU AND I LOVE YOU ALL!

Big hugs to you and your sweet girl!
May she always be surrounded by love and blessings!