Is there anything else left to saaaaaaaaaay???? There is!! It seems like it's just human nature to constantly complain and vent, especially when people feel misunderstood. But let’s pivot for a second... look at us. There are a few of us here who clearly feel like outsiders or just fundamentally different—Noah Sanchez7, Morgan Bishop4, myself, and I've lost track... but don't you think everyone feels that way at some point? Even the people who seem the most "normal" and act perfectly conventional often carry that same sense of isolation deep down. I'm not sure if I'm making myself clear enough, but that's the gist of it.
Morgan Bishop4 said:Honestly, I feel pretty much exactly how you described, except for the whole drug thing... I'm staying sober, at least. But man, I just can't bring myself to accept the world for what it is, and I have zero interest in being some fake, bubbly, manicured, "perfect" little doll... And then people label me as difficult or unpleasant—they usually say it right after they've had a few too many drinks—and then I spend all night thinking about it, just feeling completely misunderstood... But then again... I know I shouldn't let everything turn me bitter, I've sort of come to terms with the fact that the world is a mess and most people are garbage—well, maybe not even people, more like just products of these ridiculous unwritten social rules and cultural bullshit... I just want to be myself, but I know that’s not going to get me very far in this life. And there's something pathetic about that...
I can't change the world, I can't change the world, I just can't change the world.
But you can change your hometown, you can change your hometown, you can change your hometown.
Yeah, it’s true... to put it simply, in a nutshell... when you weigh everything up, we chose who we wanted to be. We made the decision to take a different path than theirs. We can't change them, and they certainly can't change us. The reality is that anyone can only change themselves, and even then, only if they genuinely want to. We can spend our time complaining about our fate or arguing over who made the smarter move in choosing their direction... but at the end of the day, do we really have any right to complain when we're the ones who made those choices? Personally, I don't think we even do. We live our lives the best way we know how, and they should go ahead and live theirs the same way—it's better to just rise above it, as you said, and avoid having much contact with people like that in the first place.
quiethound45 said:That's just narrow-mindedness... it's probably best not to dwell on it.. To me, you're just a person... just like any Black person, Jewish person, or anyone else out there. We all bleed the same when we get hurt... I think it's better to rise above these divisions and the kind of petty thinking used by people who aren't looking at the bigger picture. There are way more important things happening in the world...🙂
I can't seem to find a guy who matches my level, whether in my own age group or even a few generations older, because most guys seem to have less maturity or life experience than I do... but that doesn't leave me feeling miserable or broken like you suggest. Actually, it's quite the opposite—I'm fine with it. It might be true that most people act the way you described, but as they say, exceptions prove the rule. There are definitely people out there who just don't have that innate urge to settle down, and the idea of commitment actually repels them.
You'll find someone eventually.. you're still young... Maybe you're just turning people down because you haven't met someone truly compelling yet.. Everything will work itself out in time..🙂
and that’s just how it works—a person is a person. All that matters is whether they are good or evil, and that has nothing to do with their religion, nationality, politics, sexual orientation, or anything else.
quiethound45 said:That's just narrow-mindedness... it's probably best not to dwell on it.. To me, you're just a person... just like any Black person, Jewish person, or anyone else out there. We all bleed the same when we get hurt... I think it's better to rise above these divisions and the kind of petty thinking used by people who aren't looking at the bigger picture. There are way more important things happening in the world...🙂
I can't seem to find a guy who matches my level, whether in my own age group or even a few generations older, because most guys seem to have less maturity or life experience than I do... but that doesn't leave me feeling miserable or broken like you suggest. Actually, it's quite the opposite—I'm fine with it. It might be true that most people act the way you described, but as they say, exceptions prove the rule. There are definitely people out there who just don't have that innate urge to settle down, and the idea of commitment actually repels them.
You'll find someone eventually.. you're still young... Maybe you're just turning people down because you haven't met someone truly compelling yet.. Everything will work itself out in time..🙂
I know... it's just that I lost someone incredibly dear to me far too early to expect myself to bounce back quickly or easily from disappointment. And honestly, I don't know if anyone else could ever be like him again...
Noah Sanchez7 said:It wasn't actually that bad. 2006 was a total nightmare for me. I was struggling hard with heroin back then. I can tell you that it's a really tough addiction, but it’s not quite as catastrophic as people make it out to be. The only real issue is that once you're in it, you have to accept that there's no going back, because everything else just falls apart. "Just one more time and I'm done" is the most common lie an addict tells themselves. It’s like saying goodbye to someone you truly loved—the kind of person whose presence alone made you feel grounded, relaxed, and completely at peace with yourself. If someone forbids you from ever seeing her again, that’s it. Once an addict finally comes to terms with reality, they're cured. That’s not really the issue. That's just a symptom. What's the actual cause? When I turned 18, I felt like a giant—just some guy ready to take on any challenge that came my way. Lord, help me out here. My brain was firing on all cylinders today, so my communication was spot on—which naturally boosted my confidence and helped me get exactly what I wanted. If I hadn't taken the path I did back then, I’d probably already be holding my own and fully prepared for this world in my absolute prime. To Medjun, my sympathy is too much. I wanted to sink, and I started to descend, realizing the suffering of people, the suffering of this world, and the filth we are all caught up in. I’ve never really taken being on this planet too seriously. I mean, do you guys actually see how much we all differ? And does anyone truly grasp the sheer scale of the cosmos? Honestly, who knows what planet you originated from, or where you're headed once you pass on. People are terrified. They act like animals, circling their food like predators guarding a kill from any other scavenger. It’s the same here—we exhaust ourselves fighting over our own little slice of territory. We've fenced off a piece of the globe and called it "our backyard," insisting that we're the only ones who rule this spot and that it belongs solely to us. I started feeling a bit overwhelmed by my own thoughts, so I turned to my medication to help clear things up. We’re incredibly greedy; if we make a thousand bucks, we just want another thousand, and it goes on forever. I can't help but wonder, what would Hitler have done if he actually conquered the entire world? He probably would have killed himself, since there wouldn't be anything left to take. That's just pure ego. It’s how we raise our kids, and honestly, it’s how I was raised too. "Son, be the best." Fight! Get lost, all of you. I know what I know—I know that I know more than you, yet I also know that I know absolutely nothing, so don't try to lecture me. We can be selfish. But really, does someone even need a reason to help another person? We lack awareness. That’s exactly why we keep messing everything up. I’m thinking about painting a picture where Jesus is on the left, Allah is on the right, and they're sitting in the middle together, just laughing at all our nonsense. I'd probably be terrible at it, though. Honestly, it feels like they've stopped caring about helping us altogether. Well, it’s all just the "Other Side," as the Red Hot Chili Peppers would sing. But what about this side? This side is honestly pretty messy and grim, if we're being real. Just pure greed and selfishness. There are exceptions, of course—there are genuinely good people out there, including here on this forum. But what can one person actually change? We're all just stuck in the cycle... drinking until dawn only to do it all over again tomorrow. Or, you could just freak out, live without fear, and remember this is all just a dream...
I totally get it. For me, I think it happened because I simply couldn't—or maybe didn't want to—handle the pressure of constantly having to strive toward being better, the absolute best... at everything. Everyone always expected that from me because I was always the smart, capable, independent one with a bright future ahead of me... but none of that mattered to me. I just wanted to live my own little life, have some fun, and never become weighed down like They did.
quiethound45 said:That's just what you think right now... you're young... how much longer will you feel that way... especially once those middle-age years hit... if you skip out on that whole mating process, you'll probably end up feeling unsatisfied, bitter, and lonely for the rest of your life... Mating is almost instinctive for us... and honestly, love is almost too overwhelming for us to function normally in daily life... I'm not some fanatic or someone constantly preaching about needing a relationship. I've just personally realized that it's our nature, and any deviation from that just messes us up... but you only really get that when you enter a truly high-quality relationship and find your other half—that one person you're totally in sync with... and that's incredibly hard to find...🙂
I have no idea what "crisis years" would even mean for me. For as long as I can remember, I've felt like I'm in a crisis. I still don't even know who I am. I live here in the States, an outsider in a land that doesn't quite fit me... To some people, I'm a radical; to others, I'm a traitor. When I travel, I feel pulled in every direction by different factions, but honestly, I couldn't care less about politics or national identities. I get treated the same way in every area of life... Some people look down on me because they see me as a mess, and I've stopped hanging out with my old crowd because they turned out to be fake and only cared about their own vices. Most people I meet seem incredibly dim, and the ones who think they're brilliant just end up being insufferable. As for finding a guy who actually matches my wavelength? I can't find anyone in my age group or even a few generations older, because everyone else seems mentally inferior or just lacks life experience. But that doesn't leave me feeling unfulfilled or broken like you suggest; if anything, I prefer it this way. While it might be true for most people that it's hardwired into them like you described, there are always exceptions to the rule—there are those of us who simply don't have that instinctual urge to pair up, and the idea of commitment of any kind just feels wrong.
quiethound45 said:Well, there you have it...😬 I guess once you get into something serious and a lady helps settle all those doubts, everything just falls into place. Don't worry too much about it. Love is something else entirely. Right now, maybe things feel aimless and boring, and you're just wondering what to do with yourself because everything feels a bit pointless. But when you truly fall in love and find a real relationship, you won't even think about random people from the past. You'll mostly just be thinking about how to settle down and how to enjoy life with her, making things better for both of you, which is honestly the best feeling. When you live with someone you've really bonded with and just click with, it changes your whole perspective. It shifts your goals and the way you look at everything.🙂
It doesn't have to work out that way for everyone. That's actually why I can't seem to find a boyfriend; I struggle to fall in love and enjoy that dynamic because then I feel like I'm losing myself... I start becoming just like millions of other people. I can't wrap my head around the idea of "settling down" and enjoying life with a partner, because I don't view that as a priority or something beautiful. I have this deep need to either be alone or just casual, rather than being tied to someone—especially when it feels like they feel more for me than I do for them, which is how most cases go. Honestly, forget men who are more clingy than women. I just can't love anyone that way. There are definitely others like me out there, though I'm not sure about >, maybe he's the same. It's possible I just haven't met the right person yet, I suppose... but I don't feel like any relationship would actually change anything, because quite frankly, I'm just not into relationships.
slyskipper7 said:And you're trying to lecture me?!?!?!??
Oh, please, coming from you...😁 If someone had been that blunt and brutally honest with me right at the start, I might never have ended up struggling with addiction in the first place.
I realized pretty early on that I wasn't like everyone else. Even back before school started, I felt it. As I grew up and really started seeing how the world works, those gaps between me and everyone else just kept getting wider. For a long time, I looked for an escape from this messed-up life where I felt like the freak and everyone else was perfectly "normal." I turned to drugs and alcohol because, in that haze, the things that usually drove me crazy didn't seem to matter as much. But eventually, I hit a wall. I realized I was only punishing myself; nobody else actually cares enough for their opinions to hurt me. So, I shifted gears. I decided that being proactive is the best defense. I leaned into irony, sarcasm, and a healthy dose of cynicism. Now, I just focus on my own path and enjoy the ride. Honestly, I couldn't care less about people staring at me when I'm out walking... they're right there, yet they act like I'm invisible. They aren't going to ruin my fun! Not with all those hypocritical, narrow-minded people stuck in their little clichés.🙂 🙂
We’re meant for something more than living just to put food on our plates I can’t help but wonder—why should we even bother participating?
We’ve had enough Is there even anything left to explain? (We’ve had enough) Am I really someone you need to restrain? (We’ve had enough) Can’t you listen to what we have to say? (We’ve had enough)
I don't claim to know even a fraction of what you're going through, let alone half, but I can tell you're struggling with anxiety. It also seems to me that you've been mixing drugs with benzodiazepines and now you're wondering, "Have I lost my mind?" You haven't lost your mind, but you are on a fast track to turning your smaller struggles into massive ones by self-medicating with benzos and other substances. That was my intention in pointing this out—and maybe I added a bit of drama just to make the point hit home. You chose to interpret that however you wanted, seeing it as babbling or an insult, which wasn't my goal at all. And no, I'm not here to mess with people's mental health on this forum; I just want to help someone with a question whenever I can, based on the experience I've gathered over my years. I don't know everything, and I can certainly be wrong sometimes. When I used the phrase "people like you," I wasn't trying to be derogatory. I was referring to people, specifically younger individuals facing challenges who, when they don't get the support they need, try to find their own way out through combinations of drugs, alcohol, and pills. They convince themselves they're fine, but they refuse to take advice to stop because those kinds of mixes don't heal anything—they actually cause serious illness. p.s. Despite everything, I'm glad to hear you feel like you have some luck on your side.
@slyskipper7: Your neighbor is playing a seriously dangerous game by handing out those pills like candy. Beyond just being ethically wrong, it’s actually illegal. I'm not sure if you have an official diagnosis, but since you were prescribed medications like Prozac and Normabel, I assume there's something going on... Look, I really wanted to share my thoughts on how you're handling these medications and offer some perspective based on what I've seen, but honestly? It's not worth it with people like you. Especially not here on this forum. I won't even bother trying to wish you luck, because frankly, you aren't going to find any. Believe me. Bye.
Prozac is an antidepressant. If your doctor prescribed it for you, they likely instructed you to take it at the same time every single day to maintain a consistent dose. It isn't meant to be taken on an as-needed basis like a benzodiazepine.
Out of everything you just listed, taking Xanax is probably the least concerning option. If you’re dealing with pure anxiety, go with Xanax, but if you need something more to help calm you down and take the edge off, Normabel is a better bet. Just whatever you do, don't go mixing in Praxitene.
I wouldn't say it’s because you're mixing things together. It's more likely that it would just happen naturally on its own. I used to mix all sorts of stuff back in the day, and that never happened to me once. Still, I wouldn't recommend mixing them, even if that isn't the direct cause. Actually, don't even think about
@ljupka11: But why do you assume everyone who talks to you is just trying to get a rise out of you? For instance, that wasn't my intention at all; I was simply trying to point out that you might be getting a little paranoid about people looking for a fight.
@Henry Garcia10: I just wanted to ask 😕 , have you and Robert Murphy8 been messing with us all along, or was everything she said above her actual, honest opinion?
Robert Murphy8 said:Just get lost and go deal with your own baggage somewhere else, you miserable amateur.
Resorting to insults and profanity is usually the last refuge of someone who lacks any intelligent defense or valid arguments to support their claims. You're acting like a petulant teenager. 🙄
Robert Murphy8 said:And you? You're a total moron and a complete jerk—just like your profile says. A real piece of work. Honestly, I couldn't care less what some idiot thinks about me.
If that doesn't warrant a ban, I don't know what does! Seriously, lady, take a look in the mirror—it's pretty obvious who the one with issues is here. Do terms like ego mechanisms, projection, negation, regression, or repression mean anything to you at all?
Honestly, I try my best to keep up with you, and it’s clear to me that you are easily one of the kindest, most sincere people in this entire country. It seems like you're constantly surrounded by these incredibly bitter, malicious types who just can't help themselves. They provoke you, they're disrespectful, they try to belittle you... just pure spite. It’s honestly sad to watch. What is it they actually want from you? Why is it that everyone seems so determined to pick on you specifically?