Schizophrenia - General Discussion
in Psychology & Therapy ·
Hey everyone... I'm new here. I've been dealing with mental health issues since 2001. It started with these crazy, blurry thoughts—wondering if everyone else sees things the way I do, feeling isolated, like everything around me wasn't even real. Luckily, those thoughts subsided over the next few years, but then I spiraled into depression, and by May 2006, the anxiety kicked in. The real turning point was December 2006. I went to see this woman who does tarot readings; she told me I was cursed and said some stuff that really messed with my head. Ever since then, I've been in a heavy state of psychosis. My thoughts are totally disorganized. I'm constantly terrified, I can't accept people for who they actually are, and I have these delusions that someone has put a hex on me or that the gods are angry and punishing me. I'm also scared I might end up hurting myself or someone else. I did see a holistic healer who actually helped quite a bit with the panic attacks—really dialed them down—but unfortunately, the intrusive thoughts haven't changed. Can anyone recommend a decent antipsychotic? So far, I've been on Paxil and Xanax. Thanks.