Posts by silentmason28

My aunt had a miscarriage when she was 16... honestly, I don't know if finding out she was pregnant and then losing it—on top of all that insane pressure from her boyfriend and family back then—was the breaking point, but she totally lost it after that... I also remember my grandpa telling me stories about how he killed someone when he was just a kid, and then soldiers snatched him away from his mom for like two months... that was easily the worst thing that ever happened to him, and it didn't even really hit him until he was 20.
I went through something recently that really tests your grit... so I went to see a psychologist, just to talk through it and see how much I could actually handle. Since we hit it off so well, the session turned out to be pretty subjective, but we basically concluded that I’ll just have to wait 2 or 3 years to see how things settle. Even though I’ve changed since it happened—like, I’m not as social anymore, I've pulled way back into myself, and I'm feeling super insecure—I used to be so outgoing and always down to go out and have fun. I swear, this is just a temporary shock.
I really hope it’s just a shock... 😕

I’ve been scrolling through these comments and experiences—not all of them, obviously, since there’s a massive amount here. This condition actually runs pretty deep in my family; my aunt on my dad's side has it, and my grandpa on my mom's side too. He’s been in a psych ward (if you catch my drift) since 1965, and she ends up back there constantly. I know it was even more common in older generations, but people just didn't talk about it back then, so nobody really knows the full scope. From what I've read, that gene is basically dominant in my family—and I mean that "weakness" gene, because both my aunt and grandpa went through stuff they just couldn't process, and well, they lost it. I'm wondering, what are the actual odds of this hitting me? Like, how much of this is truly hereditary?
And seriously, props to outoftheblue, I've been reading some of your posts. You're a powerhouse, especially since some medical studies claim this illness is just a result of human weakness. My aunt is like a vegetable 🤷 because she’s popping tons of meds every single day just to stay functional. Honestly, I don't think medicine even realizes how little it actually knows about this disease. Every single person deals with it differently, regardless of who they were before. I really hope they figure this out soon. 👍