Posts by Angela Hayes56

You definitely have plenty of energy to spare. When you channeled that into renovating the house, you were heading in the right direction. That other kind of wild behavior—well, you know better than anyone that it wasn't.
Everyone here is going to offer their own perspective, but if you're looking for an actual diagnosis, you really need a professional opinion. As for that small town you mentioned, it shouldn't be much of a hurdle. If things get serious, you're more than capable of making it to a clinic in Houston. I mean that without any malice or ill intent.😁
It’s actually a good sign that you're worried about your outbursts and your aggression—that’s usually the first step toward fixing anything.
Regarding the people in your life: is there anyone who is steady, positive, but brutally honest? Everyone needs someone like that. Whether you have someone like that right now or not, you should work on becoming that person for yourself. Try to forgive yourself for past mistakes, though I suppose it’s equally important not to repeat them. Seek out some professional help—don't expect an overnight fix, obviously, but try to actually apply what you learn.

@Kenneth Vaughn20: You know, when you start worrying that you might actually be dealing with schizophrenia, you're probably looking at some kind of disorder—though honestly, there are so many diagnoses floating around these days that it’s hard to keep track. It even gets to the point where you wonder if everyone around you is somehow unstable, which eventually makes you feel like part of the problem yourself. When I take a step back to look at my own surroundings and my own headspace, I often find myself thinking that we’re all just a little bit broken.

You touched on that person's behavior, but it might help if you could describe some of those specific incidents—just to give us a clearer picture. Maybe it isn't schizophrenia, but rather something like borderline personality disorder or something else entirely. Most things can be managed through therapy and professional help, provided there's an accurate diagnosis and, more importantly, a genuine willingness from the individual to do the work. That last part... well, that's usually the hardest hurdle to clear.