How do I defend myself?
in Spirituality ·
And you’ve got these self-proclaimed "experts" making a killing off it—basically just sucking up all the local housekeeping gigs for themselves...😁
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How do I defend myself?
in Spirituality ·
Thanks for all the advice, everyone... though I’ve pretty much realized it all boils down to the same thing: just doing the work on myself.
Right now, I feel like I'm standing at a massive crossroads—just a million different directions to head in. I'm hoping I can actually make a call soon, because honestly? I don't think these "traits" of mine are just some genetic hand I was dealt... if they are, they aren't going away, they're probably just gonna get worse.
So yeah, self-improvement is basically my only move here.😁
Right now, I feel like I'm standing at a massive crossroads—just a million different directions to head in. I'm hoping I can actually make a call soon, because honestly? I don't think these "traits" of mine are just some genetic hand I was dealt... if they are, they aren't going away, they're probably just gonna get worse.
So yeah, self-improvement is basically my only move here.😁
How do I defend myself?
in Spirituality ·
I’ve basically been born with this—it’s just how I am, and honestly, it feels like it’s only getting more intense as I get older... I'm 22 now.
I tried meditation for a bit, but instead of things settling down, it actually made everything feel way louder. Big mistake on my part—I didn't even mention it to my instructor. I did find some visualization exercises online, you know, the kind meant to shield you from everyone else's "vibes," and that helped a little... but I'm still nowhere near being able to snap my fingers and conjure up a literal ring of fire during a conversation or whatever. I just can't hit that level of focus yet.
It’s a relief to hear there are people out there who have actually dealt with this stuff—means I just need to hang in there and keep practicing, I guess.🙂
I don't know if there's a connection here, but my grandma on my mom's side spent her whole life making herbal remedies, those little charms and stuff, and reading Tarot cards... she actually made a decent living doing it, too😢. Whether she was actually tapping into something real or she was just an incredible actress, who knows? She passed away when I was just a kid.
I tried meditation for a bit, but instead of things settling down, it actually made everything feel way louder. Big mistake on my part—I didn't even mention it to my instructor. I did find some visualization exercises online, you know, the kind meant to shield you from everyone else's "vibes," and that helped a little... but I'm still nowhere near being able to snap my fingers and conjure up a literal ring of fire during a conversation or whatever. I just can't hit that level of focus yet.
It’s a relief to hear there are people out there who have actually dealt with this stuff—means I just need to hang in there and keep practicing, I guess.🙂
I don't know if there's a connection here, but my grandma on my mom's side spent her whole life making herbal remedies, those little charms and stuff, and reading Tarot cards... she actually made a decent living doing it, too😢. Whether she was actually tapping into something real or she was just an incredible actress, who knows? She passed away when I was just a kid.
How do I defend myself?
in Spirituality ·
So, I’ve got this "issue" that basically forced me to start looking into all those spiritual paths and whatnot... I don't know the exact technical term for it, but I just call it "feeling people."
It’s like I can pick up on their thoughts—and along with those thoughts comes all their misery and baggage. I know everyone gets a little vibe from others sometimes, but for me, it’s constant... it happens in every single everyday conversation.
Sometimes it’s just incredibly frustrating—honestly, it makes me so pissed off when I can feel someone thinking one thing while they’re saying something completely different—that I have to fight just to stay cool.
On top of that, people end up "dumping" their suffering onto me... so I just cut the conversation short, sometimes pretty bluntly, and try to dodge anyone who seems like they're having a rough time. I hate doing that because then I feel like a total jerk, but I honestly don't know how else to handle it.
A few times now, during a totally normal chat, I’ve actually felt like I’m being "drained"... kind of like someone is sucking the life out of me through a straw (yeah, yeah, stupid metaphor, I know, but that’s the only way to describe it)... and then I just get super twitchy and have to stop myself from physically "defending" myself.
I know plenty of people deal with stuff like this—maybe not as intensely as I do, but still—so how do you protect yourself without just walking away? And please, don't give me that "just ignore it" or "mentally distance yourself" crap... I've tried all that, and it works for maybe two seconds before everything goes south again.
It’s like I can pick up on their thoughts—and along with those thoughts comes all their misery and baggage. I know everyone gets a little vibe from others sometimes, but for me, it’s constant... it happens in every single everyday conversation.
Sometimes it’s just incredibly frustrating—honestly, it makes me so pissed off when I can feel someone thinking one thing while they’re saying something completely different—that I have to fight just to stay cool.
On top of that, people end up "dumping" their suffering onto me... so I just cut the conversation short, sometimes pretty bluntly, and try to dodge anyone who seems like they're having a rough time. I hate doing that because then I feel like a total jerk, but I honestly don't know how else to handle it.
A few times now, during a totally normal chat, I’ve actually felt like I’m being "drained"... kind of like someone is sucking the life out of me through a straw (yeah, yeah, stupid metaphor, I know, but that’s the only way to describe it)... and then I just get super twitchy and have to stop myself from physically "defending" myself.
I know plenty of people deal with stuff like this—maybe not as intensely as I do, but still—so how do you protect yourself without just walking away? And please, don't give me that "just ignore it" or "mentally distance yourself" crap... I've tried all that, and it works for maybe two seconds before everything goes south again.