Posts by driftingcyclist8

Thanks
You guys were a huge help.

Is there a specific program for this? If so, which one?

mellowbear72 said:I’ve always struggled to really fit in with social circles. I try to be friendly with everyone, but I never seem to forge those deep, lasting friendships. Because of that, I’ve spent my whole life trying way too hard—trying to be nice to everyone, trying to make them like me, and basically playing people along just to eventually win them over as friends. I know now that it doesn't work that way, so lately, I’ve started adopting this almost ruthless, cynical, and "toxic" attitude instead...
Everything I’ve ever experienced in terms of affection has just been shallow flirting. Honestly, the thought of getting into a real relationship or having to "answer" to someone scares the hell out of me. It gets to the point where I feel like telling guys the second I get to know them that I'm only interested in sex, not love. I just can't wrap my head around being permanently tied to another person, whether it's a friend or a boyfriend. I have this nagging feeling that doing that would just end up suffocating me as an individual. I absolutely loathe the idea of "depending" on anyone, which is why I actually feel most comfortable right now while I'm alone. But at the same time, I can't ignore that basic human need for security and protection—I miss having someone to lean on!
How do I help myself?

Same here.
Exactly like you.
Never had a serious relationship.
The fear is real.
I don't know how I'll manage... and these questions aren't even stupid.
It's the same with friends; I'm friendly with everyone, but close to no one.

It’s been over a month now. I noticed something was off with my right eye even before this started, but my doctor is still drawing a blank on what it actually is.

Lately, I’ve been dealing with this weird pressure in my eyes. When I’m talking to someone and trying to maintain eye contact, I can’t hold it for long. It feels like an intense strain—it's hard to put into words, but the sensation is definitely there. Has anyone else dealt with anything similar?
I already saw my primary care doctor, and they referred me to an ophthalmologist. I went, but the specialist claims everything looks fine and my vision is perfect. That doesn't change the fact that I'm struggling. This is a real issue, especially with my right eye.