I'm at my breaking point
in Psychology ·
Alexander Lopez11 said:Thank you all so much for sharing your stories with me; I suppose it’s a bit of a relief to realize I’m not alone in this. Today, however, everything just feels especially heavy. I went out for a walk earlier and ran into an old acquaintance who invited me to grab a coffee, but when I saw how crowded the patio was, I just... I think I reached my breaking point and turned away immediately. I ended up back home crying harder than I ever have before. I can't help but feel like everyone is looking at me with such judgment, even people who don't even know who I am. To make matters worse, I have this massive exam tomorrow that seems to carry the weight of the entire school on its shoulders, yet I just can't seem to wrap my head around these last fifteen questions. I am trying so incredibly hard, I really am, but nothing is sticking. I fear that, somehow, I’m going to end up disappointing my parents, my teachers, and most of all, myself. I'm just terrified of failing again after promising myself 😢
I totally get how heavy this feels, because it’s so much easier to just tell yourself you can't do it and then sit there crying and beating yourself up about it, which is... well, that's exactly what I usually do. But look, I'm right here with you, so maybe just grab those 15 questions and try to tackle them, if only for your own sake rather than worrying about disappointing your parents, your teachers, or anyone else. Just hang in there and don't let this crush you. And please don't go thinking that everyone hates you, because I'm pretty sure that isn't true at all. Sometimes I catch myself wondering why anyone would even love me, and I don't really have an answer, but I do know that people do care (at least some of them do)....
So, just grab your textbook and try to knock out those 15 answers. And, since I don't want to feel like I'm just talking to thin air, I guess I'll make a promise too—I'm going to get myself ready for my big test by Friday.
Let's stay strong. 😉