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That was a beautifully put, truly well-expressed. 😉
Jonathan Miller7, I’ve never been much of a fitness enthusiast; I used to be active—soccer, handball, all that—but these days, my exercise consists of walking to campus and tackling the stairs at home. Most of my life is spent glued to a computer screen or just sitting around when I head into town. Honestly, I’m at a loss as to what to do with myself; I have absolutely zero motivation for sports anymore, and besides, we don't even have decent facilities nearby. I’ve also realized that I tend toward extremism in almost everything; I always swing between extremes, either all good or all bad, and I can never seem to find a middle ground. To make matters worse, my mind is a complete mess; I used to be able to close my eyes and just see darkness, but now, the moment I shut my eyes, a hundred different things start racing behind my eyelids... My hands shake quite a bit, too, which I assume is just nerves. Sometimes I get this overwhelming urge to practically rip my own soul out—you know, grab my head with both hands and violently thrust them forward, as if by that single physical act I could somehow eject all the problems and bullshit weighing me down...
stormyheron4 said:It really wouldn't hurt to go talk to a psychologist or a psychiatrist. Depression is incredibly unpleasant and it can completely derail your life. You might not see immediate physical health consequences, but just look at where you are right now—in a year or two, you'll be applying for college. If you can't focus on studying now, your grades will suffer during admissions, and you still have entrance exams to prep for. It makes a massive difference whether you actually get into the program you want or end up settling...
Depression isn't incurable; you just need to seek out professional help. And trust me, the fallout can be pretty brutal. In my own career, I had much higher ambitions, but because I lacked the drive and struggled to study, I couldn't make them happen. It took me a long time to come to terms with that. By the time I finally got past the depression, the window had closed. Sure, I can achieve plenty of other things in my field now, but for what I originally set my sights on? That ship has sailed
Heh, how interesting... since I actually intend to major in psychology myself, and I'm naturally the type to tackle my own problems, I suppose I'll find a way through this 😉 Thanks for the advice, though. I'll manage to deal with the depression somehow. Besides, I've always been quite the "social butterfly," so that should help, and even the depression itself helped me settle down a bit regarding all my usual nonsense... so far, everything is under control. But when certain memories hit me, it becomes a real struggle...
stormyheron4 said:I went through a phase like this once; it turned out to be a deep depression I hadn't even recognized at the time.
Here, take this LINK and see if any of this rings a bell for you. For me, it wasn't necessarily about feeling "sad" all the time—it was more of a flatline where nothing felt particularly good, which actually made things worse because it was so deceptive. But man, the physical symptoms were real: insomnia, gaining weight easily, that heavy sense of chronic fatigue, and a massive drop in focus and memory. I struggled to grasp concepts that used to be second nature to me... even things I used to genuinely enjoy just felt like a chore. Luckily, it passed, but it was an incredibly uncomfortable ride...
That said, it might not strictly be clinical depression, but you really shouldn't guess on that alone. You need a professional—like a psychologist or a psychiatrist—to weigh in. I’m only mentioning this so you consider it as a possibility, since depression is notoriously easy to overlook...
It's definitely possible it's depression, considering how much life has been hitting me hard over the last year... I am experiencing several of the symptoms you mentioned, like that constant exhaustion, the brain fog, and a near-total loss of motivation for everything.
The effects from drugs are non-existent, whereas anything involving alcohol is incredibly weak.
I know the feeling. That’s exactly how I approach it. Let’s be honest, though—there are certain subjects you just can't "comprehend" your way through; sometimes you just have to grind them into your brain via pure rote memorization. But the struggle isn't strictly limited to the learning process itself...😢
Dan'
I feel like this is the right corner of the internet to vent about a situation I've been dealing with.
So, for the last year or two, I’ve been struggling with some seriously intense issues regarding memory retention and processing information. It’s honestly embarrassing—it feels like I’m dealing with senior moments when I'm only 17... :S 😕
It spans everything from schoolwork to just basic daily life. When I sit down to study, nothing seems to stick, no matter how much effort I put in (and it's definitely not an issue with my study methods). Beyond academics, it’s even affecting general facts and random info. I’m genuinely at a loss as to what might be causing this, but it’s creating massive hurdles for me. Does anyone have any insight into what could be going on, or perhaps a recommendation for which type of specialist I should reach out to in order to get some answers?
One theory I have is that it might be a concentration issue, but even when I am fully locked in and focused, I sometimes struggle to retain a single, simple definition, let alone entire chapters of a textbook or larger sets of data. :S :/