I don't know what to tell you, I just look at the way things are going and feel like we're all just circling the drain. It’s like watching a slow-motion train wreck where everyone is too busy arguing about the color of the conductor's hat to notice the tracks ended three miles back. You try to make sense of the chaos, to find some kind of logic in the madness, but most days it feels like trying to catch smoke with your bare hands. You can lean on the old certainties all you want, but they don't hold much weight anymore when the wind starts blowing this hard. kaže: Quote:
Living with F33.3—that heavy, recurring depressive disorder where the psychosis starts creeping in—is like being stuck in a permanent, chronic phase of a storm that just refuses to break. It’s not just feeling down; it’s this deep, systemic exhaustion where reality itself begins to feel like it's fraying at the edges.
Holy crap, I just realized my level is sitting at 33.3.😱
It’s that stage where you realize this isn't just a temporary setback or a bad week; it's the long haul. You stop waiting for the storm to pass and just start learning how to live in the rain. It becomes part of the landscape, like a constant, dull hum in the background of everything you do.
I mean, seriously... honestly, God, what did I ever do to deserve this?🙂
I don't want to sound like a total alarmist here, but what is going on with me?
Basically, I’ve got a fever of 101.3, but there’s no congestion, no sore throat, and absolutely no coughing—just this fever sitting there out of nowhere.
Of course, my mind immediately starts racing toward every worst-case scenario and dark diagnosis imaginable.😠
Larry Howard8 said:Just remember, psychosis doesn't always mean schizophrenia.
Though, if I'm being real, that's the part that scares me the most.
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I’m not actually afraid of it... honestly, there are moments where I almost wish I had it, just so I wouldn't have to be so painfully aware of my own head right now.
Jamie Martinez6 said:The second you realize what's happening, you aren't psychotic anymore. ☕
So, I’m sitting there in my follow-up appointment, and the doctor drops this line about me having "psychotic elements." Honestly, it just went completely over my head. I've been staring at the ceiling trying to wrap my brain around what that actually implies, because, frankly, none of it makes any sense to me.
I’ll probably have to sit down and hash this out with her for a bit.☕
I’ve been digging through this article about psychosis—and look, I know I’m not exactly some teenager—but I can't quite wrap my head around this one part. It says here: "Psychosis can be defined as a state of mental distress characterized by a progressive detachment from reality, a process that the individual isn't even aware they are undergoing "
The thing is, I am painfully, fully aware of my own descent into madness which, honestly, is just... damn.
It’s like they aren't even responsible for their own struggles; instead, we blame the parents who wounded them when they were just infants—back when you were still being cradled and kissed, those same people were treating them with less care than a stray dog on a rainy street corner...
And
is there actually any hard scientific data linking this kind of upbringing to schizophrenia, or are we just talking about a potential predisposition?
granitefalcon26 said:Depression with psychotic features? That’s quite a diagnosis.😕 They probably used that label to justify giving you an antipsychotic. It isn't actually a huge dose, though; some people go all the way up to 1200 mg a day.😲 My advice? Make sure you actually read the pamphlet once you pick the prescription up from the pharmacy.
And what exactly is supposed to be interesting about that? Look, there’s actually a formal diagnosis for that—some specific code in the DSM, though I can't recall the exact number off the top of my head.
I’m heading out tonight to have a few glasses of wine, though I’m mostly just hoping the combination doesn't leave me completely spinning out of control.
granitefalcon26 said:Bill Gates is actually an antipsychotic. It’s mostly prescribed for people dealing with schizophrenia and hallucinations. You might see it used for panic attacks, but that’s pretty rare. If you're just struggling with anxiety, my honest advice is to skip it. 😲 Please, do me a favor and read the manual carefully, then talk it over with your primary care doctor. This stuff has a ton of contraindications, potential drug interactions, and side effects you really want to be aware of. 😢 Honestly, I have no clue why they put you on that. 😲
Come on, don't try to scare me; I feel perfectly fine on it. I've been taking 200 mg once a day for a week now. Actually, it was prescribed for depression with psychotic features. As for side effects, I didn't get a formal pamphlet since it was handed to me directly at the ward. So far, it's working just fine for me. It's definitely better than that damn Lexapro.
They say there are a hundred different ways to be a person, and I guess that’s true, because I can't help but overthink everything when I'm just trying to feel some kind of lift, any kind of mood boost at all. I've got a follow-up appointment this Saturday, so I'll finally see what my doctor has to say about whether I should stick with these or try something else entirely. Lately, I've been trying to exercise some self-control by keeping my Helix intake to a minimum—just 0.5 mg a day—but even that feels like way too much sometimes. I really don't want to end up becoming dependent on them.
Good grief, what are you even stressing about? If you’ve actually survived that kind of soul-crushing depression, anxiety, and that paralyzing fear of everything under the sun, then worrying about a few extra pounds should be the very last thing on your mind.
At least for me, if my head is in a decent place, I couldn't care less about the scale.
Yeah, I was prescribed those for depression... So, how's it working for you? Are you actually feeling any better? I've been on Lexapro for about a month now, give or take, but honestly, it hasn't done a damn thing for me. I'm taking Helix every single day just to stay afloat, and frankly, it feels like being in a total fog.div>
To be honest, I’m probably not the best person to ask about this. My doctor actually told me she’d never run into a case quite like mine before. When I first started, I was taking 4 mg of Ativan, 75 mg of Effexor, and 600 mg of Luvox daily, and I didn't feel a single side effect—absolutely nothing at all.
Good grief... 4 mg of Ativan? How were you even functioning? Were you actually making it to work or getting through classes on a dose like that? I'm just asking because, personally, even 0.5 to 1 mg completely wipes me out.