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Carl Rivera43 said:And honestly, I’m just wandering through life, searching for some semblance of Comfort.

What are you actually going to do with Comfort once you finally track it down?

Are you planning to eat it, drink it, or sleep with it?

I mean, are you some kind of alien? What even is this concept of "Comfort"... do you truly understand what it is you're hunting for?

You present yourself with such uncertainty... is nothing about who you are enough to provide that Comfort? Are you happy? How do you actually feel? Are you satisfied with the person staring back at you in the mirror?

.. At the end of the day .. have you ever actually found fulfillment in life, by any measure whatsoever?

Lawrence Bailey77 said:What are you actually going to do once you find Comfort?

Are you gonna eat it? Drink it? Sleep with it?

Are you some kind of alien? What even is "Comfort"? Do you even know what you're looking for?

You act all unsure of yourself... isn't just being who you are enough Comfort? Are you happy? How do you feel? Are you satisfied with yourself?

.. at the end of the day .. have you ever actually felt fulfilled in life through any method at all?

When I find Comfort? I’ll probably finally be ready to face my fears and live a life without most of them weighing me down.

I'm still very much grounded in this world, but sometimes I can break out of those mental loops.

I know what I'm not looking for—I'm not hunting for hate, illusions, or lies.

I'm looking for love, happiness, and kindness.

I'm not happy right now, and I'm not satisfied, but I can see there's still a drive in me to change things.

And yeah, sure, there were times in my life when I felt more complete, especially back when I truly felt accepted.

Carl Rivera43 said:Then I will probably......

😵 man... honestly... I don't even know what to say to you at this point... though, I suppose it might not even matter. 😛

And what else are you going to say? Honestly, it’s all about being open. Isn't it? You've gotta just lay it all out there.

Carl Rivera43 said:I know this, I am not looking for hatred, illusions, or falsehoods.

If I may offer some advice—perhaps you shouldn't leave behind the very things you claim not to seek? 🙂

I am not saying that you *are* doing that, I am merely suggesting it... you see... when someone feels like they are "running in circles," there is a significant possibility they will eventually stumble upon exactly what they "lost." 😉

I am seeking love, happiness, and kindness.

Well, then go out and find it... because even if you "find" it, the question remains whether it will actually want you, right? ... especially if it knows exactly what it does NOT want, much like yourself. 👍

And please, try to understand that the words you choose are perhaps the most important thing of all, or at least as vital as anything else you might hear.

You chose the word SEEKING... so... imagine you are searching for a flower in the middle of the Mojave Desert... it isn't exactly the most intuitive place to look... I am not saying they don't exist there... but... you see... if you are searching for something and can't find it, don't be surprised... because a search is fundamentally required to reach a discovery... I suppose... it's just common sense... a search is necessary to find what one seeks... if that is truly what you want...
Or perhaps I have misunderstood the context or the nuance of your words... and what you actually mean is that
you are "DEMANDING" in the sense of "I want," "I need," or "I must": those sort of childish justifications people use to excuse their own misery:

So, you are seeking... seeking... but who says you can't enjoy the journey along the way? Why shouldn't the search itself be the most interesting part?

Either way, you are already seeking. Now, you could spend your time complaining about how you can't find it, or haven't found it yet, or obsessing over why you are seeking what you are seeking, or what you will do when you finally find it, or whether you are still seeking the same thing you were seeking when you first started... and countless other variations of that struggle... because if you worry too much about the act of seeking, your perception might become so distorted that you lose sight of the goal entirely... ☕ do you follow my meaning? Please, don't kill me with "maybe" or "probably"—just give me a yes or a no. 🙂

Look, guys, I get it. Sometimes I overthink things way too much, and other times I’m basically just winging it through life.

So, what do you think? Yes or no? Personally, I say it's definitely time for a change.

I’ve been trying to take some lessons to heart lately, focusing on how to actually zero in on what makes me happy. For a long time, my thoughts were just all over the place, wasn't they? I spent way too much time dwelling on things where I couldn't quite see my own potential—even though I’m starting to discover those talents bit by bit now. Even when I'm out in nature, I’m working on being more present. I used to just react to the first thing I saw, like noticing a loud highway and ignoring everything else. I'd miss the beautiful little details because I was too distracted. But I'm working on changing that. Honestly, I get some of my best ideas during long walks. One big one? Letting go of the heavy stuff. I mean the weight of guilt, both toward other people and myself. Looking back, I wasted so much time carrying that around, so now I'm trying to steer my mind down better paths. Man, there are so many impressions flying around! I feel like my brain moves way faster than my hands can type, but hey, I guess writing this down actually does some good after all.

New day, new chances, more learning, and fresh experiences to carry through life.

If I don't step up, who will? If not right now, then when?

I think I follow your logic. I’m not entirely sure how old you are, though...
but what you're doing here feels like pure rationalization—a classic defense mechanism, really.

See, there’s a barrier between you and the world: your own thoughts. You aren't actually experiencing reality firsthand; you're just processing a mental version of it...

Just slow down... you need to find a way out of that headspace.

I'm 26 years old, and honestly? Those defense mechanisms have been running the show for way too long now. It makes finding the strength to just deal with life in the present moment a little harder sometimes.

Lawrence Bailey77 said:😵 man ... honestly ... I don't even know what to tell you .. maybe it doesn't even matter at this point 😛

ie {it's always important}