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Right off the bat, I have to say, I just love to eat. I love eating things that I actually enjoy eating. I’m not even sure how to put that into words properly... I don’t mean that I’m constantly overindulging or stuffing myself until I can't move, but rather that I have these specific comfort foods that just, you know, lift my mood and help me unwind... I guess you could say food is kind of my drug. And being close to my man is another thing entirely, but that’s a whole different story which I covered in an old thread called "his scent" or something like that 😍: )
The real issue here is that I feel like whenever I actually manage to find a little something that gives me that sense of relief, it gets snatched away from me.
Because of systemic issues with candidiasis and all these various food intolerances, so much of what I love is basically off-limits—and I mean, it's not like anyone is holding a gun to my head or anything, but I am fully aware that if I consume these things, I'm doing real damage to myself, even if I don't notice some immediate "side effect" right away.
Just to give you a few examples: I can't have sweets. Which means no chocolate, no pastries, no cookies, no candy, no hot cocoa, no ice cream, no honey, no granola bars, no sweet fruit... (I think every woman knows the magic of chocolate and how much just a couple of squares can help 😉 ).
Then there's wheat flour (and barley or rye too): so that means no bread (with that warm, crispy crust 😢 ), no bagels, no donuts—basically, nothing from a bakery, and again, no cakes, no creamy desserts, no pasta
I can't even have corn: so no polenta (which I absolutely love), and no popcorn.
I can't have soy: not in beans, not tofu, not soy milk, and don't even get me started on how much soy is hidden in processed meats...
And I really shouldn't be touching all those fucking additives either...
Cow's milk isn't technically "forbidden," but I've realized it wreaks havoc on me—it gives me terrible headaches and makes me feel all congested. So, that means no cow's milk, no cheese, no sour cream, no heavy cream, no whipping cream, no yogurt, no kefir...
There's plenty of other stuff I can't touch, but I won't dwell on it; I'm only mentioning the things that hit me the hardest.
The final straw was that stupid cow's milk: I had been drinking goat's milk instead. But now even that is out of reach because they only have the young kids available right now. I mean, it's nice to know it isn't as commercialized as cow's milk and is available year-round, but it's the only actual milk I can drink without issues.
My go-to "relaxation tool" used to be coffee. Twice a day, morning and evening. With milk. And lots of foam.
And now I can't even do that... These alternative plant milks are just gross to me; they're slightly sweet even when there's no added sugar, and out of all the drinks out there, coffee is the only thing I like bitter. Plus, you can't even make decent foam with them 👎
Hmm, this turned into a massive rant, sorry about that, but I just had to get it out because I feel like I'm going to lose my mind.
So, I intended for this thread to be a space where anyone dealing with dietary restrictions can vent about what's bothering them and maybe find a little solace... How are you guys handling it? How much does it actually diminish your quality of life?
I know this isn't the worst thing that could happen to someone, and I know there are plenty of people facing incomparably harder struggles than mine, and I also know that this part of my life is generally fine—I'm sure I'd find something else to complain about eventually—but the truth is, what I described is really weighing on me right now, and it kills my spontaneity and makes me feel incredibly frustrated...
I suppose it might be a bit easier (and I assume it is for others too) if I can see that I'm not alone in this...
The real issue here is that I feel like whenever I actually manage to find a little something that gives me that sense of relief, it gets snatched away from me.
Because of systemic issues with candidiasis and all these various food intolerances, so much of what I love is basically off-limits—and I mean, it's not like anyone is holding a gun to my head or anything, but I am fully aware that if I consume these things, I'm doing real damage to myself, even if I don't notice some immediate "side effect" right away.
Just to give you a few examples: I can't have sweets. Which means no chocolate, no pastries, no cookies, no candy, no hot cocoa, no ice cream, no honey, no granola bars, no sweet fruit... (I think every woman knows the magic of chocolate and how much just a couple of squares can help 😉 ).
Then there's wheat flour (and barley or rye too): so that means no bread (with that warm, crispy crust 😢 ), no bagels, no donuts—basically, nothing from a bakery, and again, no cakes, no creamy desserts, no pasta
I can't even have corn: so no polenta (which I absolutely love), and no popcorn.
I can't have soy: not in beans, not tofu, not soy milk, and don't even get me started on how much soy is hidden in processed meats...
And I really shouldn't be touching all those fucking additives either...
Cow's milk isn't technically "forbidden," but I've realized it wreaks havoc on me—it gives me terrible headaches and makes me feel all congested. So, that means no cow's milk, no cheese, no sour cream, no heavy cream, no whipping cream, no yogurt, no kefir...
There's plenty of other stuff I can't touch, but I won't dwell on it; I'm only mentioning the things that hit me the hardest.
The final straw was that stupid cow's milk: I had been drinking goat's milk instead. But now even that is out of reach because they only have the young kids available right now. I mean, it's nice to know it isn't as commercialized as cow's milk and is available year-round, but it's the only actual milk I can drink without issues.
My go-to "relaxation tool" used to be coffee. Twice a day, morning and evening. With milk. And lots of foam.
And now I can't even do that... These alternative plant milks are just gross to me; they're slightly sweet even when there's no added sugar, and out of all the drinks out there, coffee is the only thing I like bitter. Plus, you can't even make decent foam with them 👎
Hmm, this turned into a massive rant, sorry about that, but I just had to get it out because I feel like I'm going to lose my mind.
So, I intended for this thread to be a space where anyone dealing with dietary restrictions can vent about what's bothering them and maybe find a little solace... How are you guys handling it? How much does it actually diminish your quality of life?
I know this isn't the worst thing that could happen to someone, and I know there are plenty of people facing incomparably harder struggles than mine, and I also know that this part of my life is generally fine—I'm sure I'd find something else to complain about eventually—but the truth is, what I described is really weighing on me right now, and it kills my spontaneity and makes me feel incredibly frustrated...
I suppose it might be a bit easier (and I assume it is for others too) if I can see that I'm not alone in this...