Unlike most of you, movie nights weren't really a thing in my house growing up. Back when I started school around '96—it was quite the scene—the shelves were practically buckling under the weight of books (my granddad had started his collection back then), we had this old record player that hadn't been touched in years sitting next to a mountain of vintage jazz LPs, and a tiny TV with only two channels—just the usual small-town life, honestly, with a terrible signal. We didn't even own a VCR, which was basically all I wanted at the time. Specifically, I was hunting for Van Damme, Schwarzenegger, and Stallone. Then, a few years later, the VCR finally arrives! I sprinted to the local rental shop and grabbed a tape featuring some brooding, buff guy on the cover—he looked like the toughest guy out there. Years later, I realized that movie was actually Natural Born Killers. I wasn't a fan, so I went right back to my reliable go-to, Van Damme—the absolute king. I don't recall my dad ever watching movies with me (Mom did, though—she’d share in my wide-eyed enthusiasm), and Dad definitely looked down on my "artistic" taste. On Sundays, he'd solemnly clean his glasses and watch some Western on TV. Cowboys and comic books were the only "guilty pleasures" he allowed himself in the realm of art; for everything else, he stuck strictly to Janson's Art History.
In high school, having a computer made films much easier to access, but I don't remember a single one grabbing my attention the way literature or music did. Father Ryan, Braveheart, Gladiator... they were fine, sure, but there was just no spark. Only Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels—now *that* was something! I remember thinking, "Whoa, okay, this is different, this is actually good." But even that flame flickered out pretty fast. I pretty much gave up on movies altogether.
Then came three years at the Student Union without a TV, a laptop, or the internet—total zero movies. But then a friend asked me to join her at the Student Union for a screening of her favorite film, Sky over Berlin, so I went along. That was the turning point. Something just hit me—it was like I was high or something; actual magic happened. It completely blew my mind, and honestly, I'm still reeling from it.
Good movies exist.