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Perhaps I am jumping from one topic to another. I am not certain. I will attempt to describe this as specifically as possible.
I require an opinion regarding everything mentioned in the title. :/
I shall begin at the beginning. Throat issues involving difficulty swallowing food. It is incredibly difficult to swallow food, and occasionally liquids as well. I am unsure if my description will be sufficient, but to illustrate: sometimes when eating, it feels as though I must manually push the food toward the back of my throat with my tongue just to swallow. There is a constant sensation of a lump in my throat. Occasionally, when attempting to swallow something, my throat spasms and I simply cannot manage it—whether it be food or drink. It feels as though the obstruction is sitting in my throat rather than my mouth; I have to exert significant control just to ensure I don't inhale it while struggling to force it down. Forcing a burp is impossible; when I do succeed, it is meager and accompanied by a distinct taste of acid and regurgitated food. Naturally, there is pressure in my lungs that subsides only once I manage to burp. This tightness in the stomach and chest, combined with a heaviness in the abdomen...
Mucnina, which I am unsure how to link to these symptoms or even how to describe, to the point where I might consider starving myself. It is a fear of mine. I am exhausted by these pains...
These dull aches and the burning sensation in my stomach are what wear me down most. It intensifies daily. Mucnina occasionally passes if I eat something, yet sometimes even food provides no relief. It might sound absurd, but even sex used to provide brief relief—though I no longer possess the interest or the drive for it. Bloating is nearly constant, as are digestive issues. My digestion is irregular; there were times I would head to the restroom twice and still remain uncertain if I had actually finished, as the bloating and tension remained even after sitting for a long time. I would then go without eating for half a day or eat in small increments. Regarding minor necessities: there were changes in urine color, and I once found myself needing the restroom 10 to 15 times a day. I produced very little each time, which is likely why the frequency was so high.
As for any bladder sensations, I haven't felt them for some time; instead, as strange as it sounds, I feel the urge to use the restroom specifically in my external genitalia. I feel no sensation of needing to urinate in the bladder itself, nor does the bladder ache. I suffer from erectile dysfunction—specifically, an inability to maintain an erection—which has been an issue for the last year or two. I experience neither morning nor evening erections, and I have zero libido or desire for sex. Lately, I have also begun experiencing piercing pains in my lower back and pelvic region—near the hips. In the last few days, the pain has moved to my kidney area, feeling sharp or stabbing. Today, it is just the right side—a sort of pressure, though I struggle to describe it; it feels as though someone is squeezing me from the inside.
There are cramps or rumbling in the area just above the appendix, along with light tingling or spasms in my joints, legs, and abdomen. Recently, I have also experienced intense, sharp pains in the chest area.
But above all, that Mucnina, the acid, and the bloating are my greatest afflictors. And the swallowing issues. I feel nothing in the abdominal area below the navel; when I attempt a bowel movement, I can barely strain, and when I do, it feels as though I hit a wall—a physical barrier that refuses to let anything pass.
I won't see a doctor for another week or two. I haven't had health insurance for the last two years. The last time I saw a physician, my iron levels were below the minimum, and she wanted to send me for blood and stool testing. Of course, the moment she suggested that, I had no desire to go. My digestion is irregular, and frankly, I was afraid. My liver was fatty and showed irregular structure or size, if I recall correctly, and my urine tests showed several elevated levels, though I don't remember exactly what they were—just that they were well above average.
A bit about myself: I am 24 years old. This has been ongoing for five years, though the last two or three weeks have been exceptionally bad—truly terrible. It began around the time I started overdosing on ecstasy. Initially, people told me it was "psychosomatic." They claimed I was a hypochondriac. Given my current state, I suspect many of you will say the same. However, much of what I've experienced has proven to be physical, not psychological. Perhaps it was triggered by those stressful events, I don't know. In principle, I am terrified of pain; I loathe it more than anything. I can endure almost anything else, but these pains and the Mucnina are unbearable. When it first happened, alongside the abdominal pain, it felt as though I had swallowed acid and something was melting my intestines from the inside. Before I visit the doctor, I simply wanted to hear what people here think; perhaps there are professionals among you. I never told my doctor most of this. I believe this is the first time I have laid everything out, or at least I hope I have. To conclude, my diet is quite poor and unhealthy, and my only vice currently is cigarettes.
Thanks...
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I require an opinion regarding everything mentioned in the title. :/
I shall begin at the beginning. Throat issues involving difficulty swallowing food. It is incredibly difficult to swallow food, and occasionally liquids as well. I am unsure if my description will be sufficient, but to illustrate: sometimes when eating, it feels as though I must manually push the food toward the back of my throat with my tongue just to swallow. There is a constant sensation of a lump in my throat. Occasionally, when attempting to swallow something, my throat spasms and I simply cannot manage it—whether it be food or drink. It feels as though the obstruction is sitting in my throat rather than my mouth; I have to exert significant control just to ensure I don't inhale it while struggling to force it down. Forcing a burp is impossible; when I do succeed, it is meager and accompanied by a distinct taste of acid and regurgitated food. Naturally, there is pressure in my lungs that subsides only once I manage to burp. This tightness in the stomach and chest, combined with a heaviness in the abdomen...
Mucnina, which I am unsure how to link to these symptoms or even how to describe, to the point where I might consider starving myself. It is a fear of mine. I am exhausted by these pains...
These dull aches and the burning sensation in my stomach are what wear me down most. It intensifies daily. Mucnina occasionally passes if I eat something, yet sometimes even food provides no relief. It might sound absurd, but even sex used to provide brief relief—though I no longer possess the interest or the drive for it. Bloating is nearly constant, as are digestive issues. My digestion is irregular; there were times I would head to the restroom twice and still remain uncertain if I had actually finished, as the bloating and tension remained even after sitting for a long time. I would then go without eating for half a day or eat in small increments. Regarding minor necessities: there were changes in urine color, and I once found myself needing the restroom 10 to 15 times a day. I produced very little each time, which is likely why the frequency was so high.
As for any bladder sensations, I haven't felt them for some time; instead, as strange as it sounds, I feel the urge to use the restroom specifically in my external genitalia. I feel no sensation of needing to urinate in the bladder itself, nor does the bladder ache. I suffer from erectile dysfunction—specifically, an inability to maintain an erection—which has been an issue for the last year or two. I experience neither morning nor evening erections, and I have zero libido or desire for sex. Lately, I have also begun experiencing piercing pains in my lower back and pelvic region—near the hips. In the last few days, the pain has moved to my kidney area, feeling sharp or stabbing. Today, it is just the right side—a sort of pressure, though I struggle to describe it; it feels as though someone is squeezing me from the inside.
There are cramps or rumbling in the area just above the appendix, along with light tingling or spasms in my joints, legs, and abdomen. Recently, I have also experienced intense, sharp pains in the chest area.
But above all, that Mucnina, the acid, and the bloating are my greatest afflictors. And the swallowing issues. I feel nothing in the abdominal area below the navel; when I attempt a bowel movement, I can barely strain, and when I do, it feels as though I hit a wall—a physical barrier that refuses to let anything pass.
I won't see a doctor for another week or two. I haven't had health insurance for the last two years. The last time I saw a physician, my iron levels were below the minimum, and she wanted to send me for blood and stool testing. Of course, the moment she suggested that, I had no desire to go. My digestion is irregular, and frankly, I was afraid. My liver was fatty and showed irregular structure or size, if I recall correctly, and my urine tests showed several elevated levels, though I don't remember exactly what they were—just that they were well above average.
A bit about myself: I am 24 years old. This has been ongoing for five years, though the last two or three weeks have been exceptionally bad—truly terrible. It began around the time I started overdosing on ecstasy. Initially, people told me it was "psychosomatic." They claimed I was a hypochondriac. Given my current state, I suspect many of you will say the same. However, much of what I've experienced has proven to be physical, not psychological. Perhaps it was triggered by those stressful events, I don't know. In principle, I am terrified of pain; I loathe it more than anything. I can endure almost anything else, but these pains and the Mucnina are unbearable. When it first happened, alongside the abdominal pain, it felt as though I had swallowed acid and something was melting my intestines from the inside. Before I visit the doctor, I simply wanted to hear what people here think; perhaps there are professionals among you. I never told my doctor most of this. I believe this is the first time I have laid everything out, or at least I hope I have. To conclude, my diet is quite poor and unhealthy, and my only vice currently is cigarettes.
Thanks...
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