Steven Gray2
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joined Jan 2023
I know this thread is old and pretty dead—which is probably for the best since there aren't many patients around—but I’ve got a question. I’m struggling with all these different tests, and everyone looks at me like I’m some guy who got diagnosed with insomnia after staying up for a week straight. They immediately jump to fixing that first, acting like everything is just "all in my head." The truth is, I picked up anxiety after a heart arrhythmia triggered by sudden, intense workouts. I wasn't paying attention to how hard I was pushing, and I genuinely thought I was going to drop dead right then and there. Once you go through that, you're branded with fear, and that's where the spiral started. A systemic disease like scleroderma has such messy, non-specific symptoms. Most doctors rarely, if ever, see cases like this, so I have to be the one to point out the connections. Even the tech doing my ultrasound told me that, nearing retirement, he'd only seen maybe two cases in his entire life—one back in college and one during his career. It’s a tiny trickle of a river. That makes things incredibly difficult with the diagnosis and the patients; when the prognosis is this grim, people don't exactly want to face it head-on.
So, my journey starts now. It’s pretty obvious my rheumatologist doesn't have much to go on. I saw the local specialist in town, and honestly, the exam was mediocre at best. She basically filled out half the chart claiming I denied certain symptoms—like photosensitivity—but she didn't even ask me about it. She didn't mention dry eyes or mouth either. She did check my heels, my toes, my grip strength, body build, hairiness, muscle definition, and so on. She ordered an abdominal ultrasound, which came back totally clear. On my own initiative, I went to a private clinic for a kidney ultrasound; blood pressure and structures look normal, no signs of sclerotic changes. I'm still planning on a kidney biopsy just to be absolutely sure we see the full picture. Blood work for kidney function—urea and creatinine—is top-tier, clearance is fine, though there's a tiny bit of protein leakage. Nothing drastic, but I was training hard that day and under a lot of stress from everything going on. My nephrologist gave me a once-over and said there’s nothing to do right now; he just wants to monitor things later. I also had pulmonary function tests done—vital capacity and two others I can't recall—and my lung volume is actually higher than average. No obstruction. Just to be one hundred percent certain, I’m heading in for a lung parenchyma scintigraphy to rule everything out.
I’ve gone through a massive battery of cardiac tests—probably saw about eight different cardiologists at this point. I was convinced my vascular issues were the culprit, and I just wanted to be absolutely certain I could get back to training without any surprises. I did two separate stress tests, both came back easy. I also wore a Holter monitor; my resting heart rate while sleeping stayed between 42 and 48, while during the day it hovered around 56 regardless of what I was doing. No pathological rhythm issues popped up. The only thing was that my numbers during sleep were significantly better than during the day—it feels like overtraining or anxiety might be playing a role. There's definitely something there. I also went in for a cardiac MRI. No amyloidosis, no fibrosis, no scarring. Everything looks perfect according to the diagnosis of athlete's heart.
I noticed my neck veins were bulging slightly, so I immediately jumped to the conclusion that it was hypertension. Turns out, the cardiologists aren't buying it—they say everything looks fine and there’s no reason to push for more aggressive testing right now. Meanwhile, the veins in my legs look like a total mess from all the running and hiking; they're just sitting there, prominent as ever.
I don't have any skin thickening on my body, just on my little toes—which they got from... 622 miles My skin feels like sandpaper, and I’ve got blood under my fingernails. There are these deep creases around my toe joints that just show up out of nowhere. But what really bugs me is seeing these tiny veins on my fingers—they aren't typical spider veins, just thin little lines. I also have telangiectasia right at the base of my nostrils, plus some faint veins on my eyelids that you can only spot if you're looking closely under direct light. Digestion seems fine. Aside from some gas, there’s nothing else; I even had my calprotectin checked and the results were okay. No diarrhea, no constipation, no bloating. My stomach processes food at a normal rate, and my esophagus feels fine too. One thing, though—part of the gum line on my lower jaw looks like it’s receding slightly, but my dentist insists there’s no actual recession (and hey, I’m no expert). I’m also seeing more gray hairs lately, probably just a mix of genetics and stress. The whole situation is just exhausting because you never know which symptoms actually link back to a systemic disease and which ones are just side effects of cortisol spikes from being a total hypochondriac.
I ran an ANA panel—everything came back negative. I went ahead and ordered the ENA on my own too, just because I know there are those rare cases where the ANA is negative but specific antibodies still pop up positive. Turns out, that was also negative. Nothing for Lupus, Sjögren’s, RNA polymerase, any of the three types of scleroderma, dermatomyositis, or anything else. All clear. Checked my complement levels, and they’re all within the normal range. RF and anti-CCP were both negative. Did immunofluorescence for immunoglobulin, and everything looks standard; the patterns are totally dull, sitting right in the middle of the reference range with zero reactivity. To cover all bases regarding potential symptoms, I also checked my creatine kinase, LDH, testosterone, prolactin, some intestinal markers, and H. pylori. After spending way too much time spiraling through medical forums online, I thought I had diagnosed myself instantly, but obviously, I need a specialist to actually sign off on this. Does anyone know a good specialist or a scleroderma rare disease association? I want to talk to someone who actually deals with this stuff regularly, even if it isn't exactly common.
I’ve looked through other opinions online, but honestly, most of them don't sit right with me—not based on the ratings or the comments either. I feel like people just want to dismiss everything as anxiety, even when the physical symptoms are staring them in the face. This constant lack of energy, the veins popping all over my body... it’s real. My first doctor didn't even bother checking my nailfolds for changes, let alone looking at my veins or skin. It was a pretty useless exam, and I need something much more thorough. I'm heading to an endocrinologist next to see what they find, but my gut tells me this is autoimmune. Time is ticking while I'm still stuck without a formal diagnosis, and since treatment isn't one-size-fits-all and varies wildly from person to person, I can't afford to wait. So, if anyone knows a solid immunologist or rheumatologist who actually specializes in this and has years of experience, please let me know here or shoot me a DM. Price isn't the main issue; I just need to find a true expert who will perform a comprehensive workup. Thanks a lot.