I’ve been dealing with this crap for ages, and honestly, I was too embarrassed to tell anyone because I didn't want them thinking I was losing my mind. 🙂
The first time it hit me, I was maybe 12 or 13. I was absolutely terrified—I literally ran straight to my mom crying, telling her that while I was sleeping, someone was trying to steal my soul. 🙂
Back then, she hadn't heard of anything like it either, so the very next day she went to talk to our local priest. He just told her to put a cross by my bed, say a prayer before sleep, and not to worry. That calmed me down for a bit, but then it happened again soon after. 😢
It’s kept happening all through my life up to now, and I'm 26. Sometimes it happens more often, sometimes less.
And it varies too—sometimes it’s super intense and lasts forever, other times I snap out of it fast. 🙂
Sometimes I can actually sense it coming, so I just stay awake to avoid it.
Anyway, everyone has already covered the basics: total body paralysis. I can never manage to open my eyes, even though I’m totally certain I can see everything in the room exactly as it is.
One time, I actually managed to pinch my boyfriend while I was stuck in that state; he was lying right next to me, wide awake. I was hoping he’d save me 🙂, but he had no clue what was going on—he just thought I was pinching him because I was being affectionate. 🙂
Sometimes it feels like I'm fighting off some kind of evil presence, so I try with everything I've got to force myself awake. But then that buzzing sound—which someone described perfectly earlier—gets so unbearable that I just have to let go. The worst part is the feeling that if I don't fight back, I'm basically surrendering to evil forces. 🙂
I guess that’s why I told my mom way back then that my soul was being stolen. 🙂
To be fair, I'm pretty used to it by now. It doesn't freak me out like it used to; I know it'll pass, so I just relax and wait for it to let me go so I can finally get some sleep.