Eric Newman75 said:I don't know. Up until recently, I actually believed the world was an orderly place, governed by cause and effect. I used to think there was a point to being honest, hard-working, worthy, and educated—that these were values the universe itself would reward. I believed there was meaning behind suffering and trials, especially the courage required to overcome evil.
Now? I don't see it that way anymore. The world is just chaos ruled by pure randomness. A single cell can decide if you die in absolute agony—like some six-year-old kid who’s never even touched a cigarette or had a drop of booze, someone who did absolutely nothing to cause their own destruction. Human life is so incredibly fragile it’s almost impossible to put into words, and there isn't a thing in existence that can soothe the sheer uncertainty of it all. Everything is just wax melting in a flame, smoke drifting in the wind, snow under a midday sun, a dream of the dawn.
That’s why I stay quiet. That’s why I don't feel like talking. There are things I want to forget. And there are things I want to hold onto forever. Because I still believe in the struggle. In strength. I just don't believe in grand, sweeping words. It's the small things that get to me—complete strangers whose kindness or a simple smile leaves me speechless. Then I pass it on to someone else, another stranger, because I feel this need to pay it forward. It doesn't matter how much unimaginable horror or pain I've endured. What matters is that despite all that, I can still feel love, empathy, closeness, happiness... a genuine respect for another living being and for life as a whole.
It's hard to explain that to someone who hasn't stood at the very edge of everything. To someone who hasn't stared into the abyss. To someone who hasn't let that abyss stare right back into them. But it’s cathartic. It really is. And it sets you free.
I won't go any further on this. I've said what needed to be said.
I wanted to know what you *think*, not what you’re certain of. The whole dialectic of certainty and its relationship to truth is a fascinating mess, but let's save that for another time.
Until recently, I believed the world was an orderly place—everything tied together by cause and effect. I thought being honest, hardworking, decent, and educated actually paid off—that those were values the universe rewarded. I believed there was meaning in suffering and trials, especially the courage required to overcome evil.
Now, I don't.
That's a pretty common pattern—happens to a lot of people.
Personally, I believe the world is an orderly place where everything is connected, just not solely through simple cause and effect—there are plenty of other ways things link up. Calling it an "orderly place" feels a bit imprecise; I’d say the world is conceptually structured. But unlike you, I never bought into the idea that being "honest, hardworking, decent, and educated" earns you rewards from the cosmos. To me, that idea is just ugly. An universe built on the principle of moral causality? Sounds repulsive.
As for suffering—it only has meaning if the person going through it comes out better on the other side. Otherwise, it's just plain evil.
And courage is still a virtue even when it doesn't beat evil. If courage always won, it wouldn't be a virtue—it would just be a guaranteed result.
The world is chaos ruled by randomness.
Now you sound like you're certain about what the world is.
A single moment decides whether you die in agony—like a six-year-old who hasn't even touched a cigarette or a drop of booze, someone who did absolutely nothing to cause their own ruin.
Those cases happen, sure, but that isn't proof that the entire world is just pure, random chaos.
Human life is indescribably fragile; there is nothing that can soothe the uncertainty of its existence. Everything is wax in the fire, smoke in the wind, snow under the sun, a dream of the dawn.
It's not helpful to lump everything together like that. Not everyone's life is equally fragile or uncertain. For instance, the life of an average American is a hell of a lot more secure than the life of someone living in poverty in a developing nation.
That’s why I stay quiet. Why I just can't bring myself to talk about it. There are things I want to bury forever—and others I want to hold onto for as long as I live.
Sure, but a person can still speak their mind in a general sense.
Because I still believe in the struggle. In strength. I just don't buy into the big, empty words.
"Struggle" and "strength"—those are pretty big words themselves. Everyone believes in big words; they just don't all mean the same thing.
It’s the small things that get to me—total strangers whose kindness and smiles leave me speechless. Then I find myself paying it forward to someone else, another stranger, because I feel this driving need to settle the score. It doesn't matter that I've endured unimaginable horror and misery. What matters is that despite all that, I can still feel love, empathy, connection, happiness... a genuine respect for another living soul and life as a whole.
Those are standard human emotions we all have—we just don't let ourselves express them for a hundred different reasons.
It's hard to explain to someone who hasn't been to the very end. To someone who hasn't stood at the edge of the abyss. Someone who hasn't let that void stare deep inside them. But it's cathartic—intense. And it sets you free.
It isn't hard to explain at all. Everything you said about yourself is perfectly clear. I just don't agree with some of your philosophical conclusions.
I won't go any further on that. I've said what needed to be said.
Whatever you say. I get that some people don't want to talk about the world, but I honestly don't get how anyone can be interested in philosophy if they refuse to actually discuss it.