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To begin, I suppose I should quote my own post from July 9, 2020, regarding the topic of Kundalini:
'To give a brief overview of my spiritual journey—I’ve been playing music for about 40 years now, out of my 47 years of life, and through music, I’ve experienced quite a few spiritual moments (specifically, those instances of deep inspiration where it felt as though the "little me"—the ego—simply vanished, which was an incredibly liberating and beautiful sensation). I experienced something somewhat similar when I would lose myself deeply in mathematics or physics; it felt like a moment of enlightenment where that "little me" just wasn't there anymore.'
I had some brief episodes where I read the Bible and a book on Buddhism, but nothing really struck a chord with me at first.
About seven or eight years ago, I felt this growing need to explore spirituality more profoundly. I started by picking up Houston Smith's 'World's Religions' (in English, which feels almost like my native tongue since I've been communicating primarily in writing and speech in English for the last 20 years or so) because I wanted a solid, high-quality overview of global faiths to hopefully find my own path. After that, I began reading the Bible more seriously and studying what the Catholic Church teaches, but I just couldn't connect with it. So, I moved on to reading the Quran, but that didn't quite sit right with me either. Then I turned to books on Buddhism, and for a while, I actually thought I might have found my way... I found so much to love there; Buddha and his teachings felt very dear and close to my heart. I spent two or three years meditating regularly, reading, and refining my practice... but as time went on, I kept getting this nagging sense that something was still missing. I even tried reading the Bhagavad Gita, which is truly a magnificent book, yet again, it didn't quite click. Finally, I kept searching and came across 'A Course in Miracles'—ACIM—and suddenly, everything just clicked. I won't go into too much detail about the book here since there's a separate thread for it, but for over a year now, my spiritual path has been centered on the teachings described in ACIM. In short, ACIM offers a spiritual path toward God by teaching and explaining how to view the world through Christ's eyes (and, according to the teaching, one who sees the world through Christ's eyes eventually becomes Christ themselves). That said, I have continued my breathwork meditation practices, as I've come to believe that meditation simply purifies and clears the mind; it isn't necessarily tied to one specific path.'
I’ve also continued playing music and reading physics texts, both of which remain integral parts of my spiritual walk. The latest findings in physics—things like dark energy, dark matter, string theory, and so on—are absolutely fascinating to me, and I see a profound spiritual connection in all of it, though I won't delve into the details here.
On a personal note, it's important to mention that for the last 20 years, I’ve been in a very harmonious marriage and we have three wonderful children, which provides me with a great deal of stability and happiness.
Ever since the whole pandemic situation kicked off back in mid-March, I've started meditating more intensely (for the last two or three months, I've been doing about four hours a day) and focusing on reading ACIM and practicing its exercises.
The reason I'm writing this now is... about three weeks ago (specifically, Saturday, June 27th), early in the morning as I sat down in a meditative posture, I felt this warmth and a sense of bliss in my lower back—a strange sensation that I might best describe as pure ecstasy. Since then, that feeling has intensified; I feel it throughout the day, and for the last three days, I've had episodes where this sensation of bliss completely overwhelms me, traveling up my entire spine and reaching my head. I haven't experienced any negative side effects (at least not yet), but I have noticed that I've started looking at the people around me with a certain "softness," characterized by more understanding and compassion. It’s not that I feel a need to convince anyone of anything, especially not through logic or verbal explanations. Also, in the last month or two, I don't recall ever being overcome by anger, greed, fear, or anything of that nature; whenever such a feeling did arise, I found myself able to observe it from a sufficient distance so that it would simply fade away on its own.'
Anyway, I became curious about this feeling of bliss, so I did some Googling and discovered that it is allegedly called Kundalini, and that it has connections to chakras and things like that... which is something I had never studied before and hadn't particularly been interested in.'
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So, here is the post from July 14th:
I’ve decided that I’m going to start using this space to document my own experiences regarding this particular sensation—though, to be honest, I’m still quite unsure whether what I'm feeling is actually Kundalini, perhaps the Holy Spirit, or maybe something else entirely... I really don't know just yet. I suppose I'm doing this for two main reasons. First off, since this is all still incredibly new to me, I thought it might be helpful to connect with those who might be more experienced and would be willing to share their own insights. Secondly, I was thinking that, if I'm lucky, maybe my own reflections could somehow offer a bit of help or perspective to someone else navigating similar waters.
I’ve spent quite a bit of time reading through almost every single post on this thread, and I have to say, I’ve also combed through various texts online. One theme that seems to keep popping up everywhere—almost like a recurring warning—is the idea that Kundalini can be a dangerous force, and that one really ought to approach its awakening only under the watchful guidance of a legitimate teacher. As for myself, I don't currently have a physical teacher guiding my path—at least nothing in the flesh—though the spiritual principles I strive to live by are rooted in the teachings of Buddha and Christ. For the time being, I don't feel much of a need to seek out a formal mentor. What I have experienced, more or less continuously since that first sensation emerged back in June of 2020, is a gentle sense of warmth and pleasantness centered in my lower back. When I engage in spiritual practices or certain physical exercises, that feeling tends to expand, spreading upward through my entire spine and into my head. In my specific experience, it hasn't felt aggressive at all; there hasn't been a single instance where I felt overwhelmed or lost control of the sensation. So, I suppose I feel reasonably secure in where I am right now.
Over the weekend, my family and I headed out for a hike—something we tend to do quite frequently—and we ended up trekking for about five or six hours straight. Throughout the entire walk, I found myself staying deeply focused on that specific sensation, and I actually made a conscious effort to expand that feeling down into my legs as well. It was quite remarkable, really, because even after all that walking, I didn't experience that heavy, dragging exhaustion you'd typically expect to feel. Instead, I felt this sort of calm, steady surge of energy, almost as if I could have kept going indefinitely without any trouble at all—though, I suppose, I didn't want to push my luck too far or test exactly where my physical limits might lie.
Yesterday, I decided to spend a bit more time with my practice than I usually do—I spent about half an hour just really immersing myself in that sensation. It was quite something; the feeling seemed to ripple through my entire body multiple times, growing steadily more intense as I went along. Honestly, I’d say it was easily one of the most profound experiences I’ve ever had, perhaps even surpassing anything physical like a sexual orgasm. Since then, I’ve been carrying this gentle, lingering sense of bliss in two specific spots—one in my lower back and another right around the crown of my head. I haven't actually sat down to do the exercises to expand on it yet today, so I suppose we'll just have to see how things develop.
I guess I should mention that after finishing my exercises yesterday, I was left with this incredibly strange sensation—it felt as though my entire head had just... well, cleared out and become completely lucid. It was almost like a mental fog had suddenly lifted. Driven by this unexpected clarity, I decided to pick up a book on theoretical physics that I usually struggle with; it’s one of those dense, heavy texts that typically moves at a snail's pace because of all the complex formulas and technical jargon. But strangely enough, everything seemed to click into place almost effortlessly. It was as if, just for a little while, I had become significantly sharper—maybe even more intelligent? It was a profound sense of heightened cognition, though I suppose it was only temporary, as things eventually drifted back to my usual baseline.
It’s certainly an intriguing perspective to consider, all things considered.
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Pa post od 16.7.:
I was meditating yesterday evening, and I actually managed to hold a full lotus position for quite a while—about twenty minutes, which, if I’m being honest, felt like absolute science fiction to me just a week or two ago. It felt incredibly good for that specific Kundalini energy; I mean, where are you, Della? It just seemed to spread all the way down through my legs...
It’s honestly just hit me... there is no such thing as "mundane." The work I do, well, it’s actually entirely spiritual in nature; I’ve started to view it as something of a profound spiritual experiment. I suppose the only way to truly do a job correctly is to place spirituality right at the very heart of everything we do. I mean, how else could you possibly awaken all that latent creative energy within people? How else could you motivate them to truly give their absolute best, or foster that deep sense of mutual trust that is so vital for teamwork to even function? Without that trust, nothing works. I guess you have to ask yourself: how can you reach a point where every single person on the team—and I mean absolutely everyone—arrives at work feeling genuinely happy and fulfilled? Because if they feel that way, then, I imagine, those real, meaningful results will just naturally follow.
It’s pretty clear to me that I have an incredibly long road ahead of me, and honestly, if I’m being completely truthful, I don't even know what I've gotten myself into.
Something else just occurred to me... I’ve been reflecting on why exactly I find myself drawn to ACIM. I think there are three key reasons that stand out to me right now:
So, I’ve been thinking quite a bit about how we actually identify the fruits—you know, those tangible signs that indicate whether a tree is truly thriving or just putting on a show. In my own experience, if I look back at everything that has unfolded recently, I would say the results have been overwhelmingly positive. It’s showing up in almost every corner of my life, really. My relationships with my family—not just my immediate circle, but even my in-laws—seem to be in such a good place. Even my professional life feels more aligned, and on a much more personal level, I’ve been experiencing this deep sense of inner peace and genuine happiness. I’ve even noticed improvements in things like my physical fitness and my overall mental clarity, which feels like a significant win. And, perhaps most importantly, the awakening of the Kundalini—if that’s even the right way to describe it—feels like one of the most profound fruits of this entire journey.
I suppose ACIM suggests that there isn't such a thing as a single, universal theology, yet I feel that a universal experience is not only possible, but perhaps even absolutely necessary. It reminds me a bit of what Sri Ramakrishna used to say—he essentially arrived at God through Hinduism, Christianity, and Islam, believing that they all lead back to the same God. So, I think there is a profound value in showing complete respect for every possible theological path out there. However... I have to say that out of all the spiritual texts I’ve ever encountered, ACIM seems to be the only one that aligns perfectly with the findings of modern physics. Apparently, its foundations are rooted in something called Advaita Vedanta, which is something I haven't had the chance to study deeply just yet (I mean, there are only twenty-four hours in a day, right?). I might be able to explain how those pieces fit together if anyone is actually interested, but I won't go into it here since it would probably turn into quite a long-winded explanation.
3) I've always felt that ACIM is structured quite perfectly into three distinct segments: a) the theoretical foundation, b) the practical exercises, and c) the guidance intended for teachers. It’s truly a self-contained system, which means you don't necessarily need any other books or even a formal teacher to get started. However, I can't stress enough how vital those practical exercises are; without them, I suppose all that deep theory just turns into dry, academic philosophizing. As someone who has been playing music for forty years, the necessity of daily practice is basically hardwired into my subconscious. I've actually tested this principle across all sorts of disciplines—whether it was diving into physics, sketching, sports, or even when I tried some specific exercises to improve my sex life (and honestly, they really do work)—and the results have consistently proven me right. While having a mentor is certainly convenient, it isn't strictly essential. If someone, say, starting at age 40, picked up an instrument and committed to practicing ten hours every single day, I'd bet anything that in ten or twenty years, they would be a world-class musician. Ultimately, I think it all boils down to one's own desire and willpower.
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'To give a brief overview of my spiritual journey—I’ve been playing music for about 40 years now, out of my 47 years of life, and through music, I’ve experienced quite a few spiritual moments (specifically, those instances of deep inspiration where it felt as though the "little me"—the ego—simply vanished, which was an incredibly liberating and beautiful sensation). I experienced something somewhat similar when I would lose myself deeply in mathematics or physics; it felt like a moment of enlightenment where that "little me" just wasn't there anymore.'
I had some brief episodes where I read the Bible and a book on Buddhism, but nothing really struck a chord with me at first.
About seven or eight years ago, I felt this growing need to explore spirituality more profoundly. I started by picking up Houston Smith's 'World's Religions' (in English, which feels almost like my native tongue since I've been communicating primarily in writing and speech in English for the last 20 years or so) because I wanted a solid, high-quality overview of global faiths to hopefully find my own path. After that, I began reading the Bible more seriously and studying what the Catholic Church teaches, but I just couldn't connect with it. So, I moved on to reading the Quran, but that didn't quite sit right with me either. Then I turned to books on Buddhism, and for a while, I actually thought I might have found my way... I found so much to love there; Buddha and his teachings felt very dear and close to my heart. I spent two or three years meditating regularly, reading, and refining my practice... but as time went on, I kept getting this nagging sense that something was still missing. I even tried reading the Bhagavad Gita, which is truly a magnificent book, yet again, it didn't quite click. Finally, I kept searching and came across 'A Course in Miracles'—ACIM—and suddenly, everything just clicked. I won't go into too much detail about the book here since there's a separate thread for it, but for over a year now, my spiritual path has been centered on the teachings described in ACIM. In short, ACIM offers a spiritual path toward God by teaching and explaining how to view the world through Christ's eyes (and, according to the teaching, one who sees the world through Christ's eyes eventually becomes Christ themselves). That said, I have continued my breathwork meditation practices, as I've come to believe that meditation simply purifies and clears the mind; it isn't necessarily tied to one specific path.'
I’ve also continued playing music and reading physics texts, both of which remain integral parts of my spiritual walk. The latest findings in physics—things like dark energy, dark matter, string theory, and so on—are absolutely fascinating to me, and I see a profound spiritual connection in all of it, though I won't delve into the details here.
On a personal note, it's important to mention that for the last 20 years, I’ve been in a very harmonious marriage and we have three wonderful children, which provides me with a great deal of stability and happiness.
Ever since the whole pandemic situation kicked off back in mid-March, I've started meditating more intensely (for the last two or three months, I've been doing about four hours a day) and focusing on reading ACIM and practicing its exercises.
The reason I'm writing this now is... about three weeks ago (specifically, Saturday, June 27th), early in the morning as I sat down in a meditative posture, I felt this warmth and a sense of bliss in my lower back—a strange sensation that I might best describe as pure ecstasy. Since then, that feeling has intensified; I feel it throughout the day, and for the last three days, I've had episodes where this sensation of bliss completely overwhelms me, traveling up my entire spine and reaching my head. I haven't experienced any negative side effects (at least not yet), but I have noticed that I've started looking at the people around me with a certain "softness," characterized by more understanding and compassion. It’s not that I feel a need to convince anyone of anything, especially not through logic or verbal explanations. Also, in the last month or two, I don't recall ever being overcome by anger, greed, fear, or anything of that nature; whenever such a feeling did arise, I found myself able to observe it from a sufficient distance so that it would simply fade away on its own.'
Anyway, I became curious about this feeling of bliss, so I did some Googling and discovered that it is allegedly called Kundalini, and that it has connections to chakras and things like that... which is something I had never studied before and hadn't particularly been interested in.'
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So, here is the post from July 14th:
I’ve decided that I’m going to start using this space to document my own experiences regarding this particular sensation—though, to be honest, I’m still quite unsure whether what I'm feeling is actually Kundalini, perhaps the Holy Spirit, or maybe something else entirely... I really don't know just yet. I suppose I'm doing this for two main reasons. First off, since this is all still incredibly new to me, I thought it might be helpful to connect with those who might be more experienced and would be willing to share their own insights. Secondly, I was thinking that, if I'm lucky, maybe my own reflections could somehow offer a bit of help or perspective to someone else navigating similar waters.
I’ve spent quite a bit of time reading through almost every single post on this thread, and I have to say, I’ve also combed through various texts online. One theme that seems to keep popping up everywhere—almost like a recurring warning—is the idea that Kundalini can be a dangerous force, and that one really ought to approach its awakening only under the watchful guidance of a legitimate teacher. As for myself, I don't currently have a physical teacher guiding my path—at least nothing in the flesh—though the spiritual principles I strive to live by are rooted in the teachings of Buddha and Christ. For the time being, I don't feel much of a need to seek out a formal mentor. What I have experienced, more or less continuously since that first sensation emerged back in June of 2020, is a gentle sense of warmth and pleasantness centered in my lower back. When I engage in spiritual practices or certain physical exercises, that feeling tends to expand, spreading upward through my entire spine and into my head. In my specific experience, it hasn't felt aggressive at all; there hasn't been a single instance where I felt overwhelmed or lost control of the sensation. So, I suppose I feel reasonably secure in where I am right now.
Over the weekend, my family and I headed out for a hike—something we tend to do quite frequently—and we ended up trekking for about five or six hours straight. Throughout the entire walk, I found myself staying deeply focused on that specific sensation, and I actually made a conscious effort to expand that feeling down into my legs as well. It was quite remarkable, really, because even after all that walking, I didn't experience that heavy, dragging exhaustion you'd typically expect to feel. Instead, I felt this sort of calm, steady surge of energy, almost as if I could have kept going indefinitely without any trouble at all—though, I suppose, I didn't want to push my luck too far or test exactly where my physical limits might lie.
Yesterday, I decided to spend a bit more time with my practice than I usually do—I spent about half an hour just really immersing myself in that sensation. It was quite something; the feeling seemed to ripple through my entire body multiple times, growing steadily more intense as I went along. Honestly, I’d say it was easily one of the most profound experiences I’ve ever had, perhaps even surpassing anything physical like a sexual orgasm. Since then, I’ve been carrying this gentle, lingering sense of bliss in two specific spots—one in my lower back and another right around the crown of my head. I haven't actually sat down to do the exercises to expand on it yet today, so I suppose we'll just have to see how things develop.
I guess I should mention that after finishing my exercises yesterday, I was left with this incredibly strange sensation—it felt as though my entire head had just... well, cleared out and become completely lucid. It was almost like a mental fog had suddenly lifted. Driven by this unexpected clarity, I decided to pick up a book on theoretical physics that I usually struggle with; it’s one of those dense, heavy texts that typically moves at a snail's pace because of all the complex formulas and technical jargon. But strangely enough, everything seemed to click into place almost effortlessly. It was as if, just for a little while, I had become significantly sharper—maybe even more intelligent? It was a profound sense of heightened cognition, though I suppose it was only temporary, as things eventually drifted back to my usual baseline.
It’s certainly an intriguing perspective to consider, all things considered.
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Pa post od 16.7.:
I was meditating yesterday evening, and I actually managed to hold a full lotus position for quite a while—about twenty minutes, which, if I’m being honest, felt like absolute science fiction to me just a week or two ago. It felt incredibly good for that specific Kundalini energy; I mean, where are you, Della? It just seemed to spread all the way down through my legs...
It’s honestly just hit me... there is no such thing as "mundane." The work I do, well, it’s actually entirely spiritual in nature; I’ve started to view it as something of a profound spiritual experiment. I suppose the only way to truly do a job correctly is to place spirituality right at the very heart of everything we do. I mean, how else could you possibly awaken all that latent creative energy within people? How else could you motivate them to truly give their absolute best, or foster that deep sense of mutual trust that is so vital for teamwork to even function? Without that trust, nothing works. I guess you have to ask yourself: how can you reach a point where every single person on the team—and I mean absolutely everyone—arrives at work feeling genuinely happy and fulfilled? Because if they feel that way, then, I imagine, those real, meaningful results will just naturally follow.
It’s pretty clear to me that I have an incredibly long road ahead of me, and honestly, if I’m being completely truthful, I don't even know what I've gotten myself into.
Something else just occurred to me... I’ve been reflecting on why exactly I find myself drawn to ACIM. I think there are three key reasons that stand out to me right now:
So, I’ve been thinking quite a bit about how we actually identify the fruits—you know, those tangible signs that indicate whether a tree is truly thriving or just putting on a show. In my own experience, if I look back at everything that has unfolded recently, I would say the results have been overwhelmingly positive. It’s showing up in almost every corner of my life, really. My relationships with my family—not just my immediate circle, but even my in-laws—seem to be in such a good place. Even my professional life feels more aligned, and on a much more personal level, I’ve been experiencing this deep sense of inner peace and genuine happiness. I’ve even noticed improvements in things like my physical fitness and my overall mental clarity, which feels like a significant win. And, perhaps most importantly, the awakening of the Kundalini—if that’s even the right way to describe it—feels like one of the most profound fruits of this entire journey.
I suppose ACIM suggests that there isn't such a thing as a single, universal theology, yet I feel that a universal experience is not only possible, but perhaps even absolutely necessary. It reminds me a bit of what Sri Ramakrishna used to say—he essentially arrived at God through Hinduism, Christianity, and Islam, believing that they all lead back to the same God. So, I think there is a profound value in showing complete respect for every possible theological path out there. However... I have to say that out of all the spiritual texts I’ve ever encountered, ACIM seems to be the only one that aligns perfectly with the findings of modern physics. Apparently, its foundations are rooted in something called Advaita Vedanta, which is something I haven't had the chance to study deeply just yet (I mean, there are only twenty-four hours in a day, right?). I might be able to explain how those pieces fit together if anyone is actually interested, but I won't go into it here since it would probably turn into quite a long-winded explanation.
3) I've always felt that ACIM is structured quite perfectly into three distinct segments: a) the theoretical foundation, b) the practical exercises, and c) the guidance intended for teachers. It’s truly a self-contained system, which means you don't necessarily need any other books or even a formal teacher to get started. However, I can't stress enough how vital those practical exercises are; without them, I suppose all that deep theory just turns into dry, academic philosophizing. As someone who has been playing music for forty years, the necessity of daily practice is basically hardwired into my subconscious. I've actually tested this principle across all sorts of disciplines—whether it was diving into physics, sketching, sports, or even when I tried some specific exercises to improve my sex life (and honestly, they really do work)—and the results have consistently proven me right. While having a mentor is certainly convenient, it isn't strictly essential. If someone, say, starting at age 40, picked up an instrument and committed to practicing ten hours every single day, I'd bet anything that in ten or twenty years, they would be a world-class musician. Ultimately, I think it all boils down to one's own desire and willpower.
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