Intimacy and anxiety

I’ve hit a real rough patch. I'm wondering if it's tied to tapering off this medication I've been on for years—it's definitely playing a part, for sure. Honestly, I'm terrified of how I might snap at my partner because of all this fear, insecurity, and constant restlessness. I'm trying to keep it together, but man, it's hard. Everything feels like a total wreck right now; my head is just foggy, my thoughts are racing, and my moods are all over the place...
I'm just hoping that by the next time I check in, things will be a little more chill!!
The sweating, the aches, the nausea, the dizziness....
Dammit!!

Conor McGregor, yeah, I'm working out at home, but I really need to get my butt out the door and actually go somewhere!!

Just wanted to drop a note to everyone here who helped me keep my head up. Thanks for being there.

So, I put myself out there, and man, it blew up in my face. It went south fast, and honestly? I’m pretty crushed. I saw the red flags coming from a mile away, but you still think maybe you're just being paranoid. Turns out, I wasn't. My gut was right, unfortunately.
Now I'm back to square one, standing on my own again, trying not to buckle. Music is basically my lifeline right now—it's the only thing drowning out the sadness.
I know there are gonna be days where I just totally fall apart, where the tears won't stop and the dark thoughts take over. I'm just terrified of how to actually move forward. How do I start believing things can get better without getting all bitter? How do I stop being scared that this is just a cycle—that I'm just a magnet for total losers?