What a total mess

Hey..

Been in a massive rut the last few days.. school, house drama, drugs, booze—basically my life is a total dumpster fire right now and I’m seriously thinking about checking out.. no joke. Just don't have the guts to actually do it, I try but it's weak.. when I look at what I've become and how much I've tanked since I was 19, it honestly makes me want to cry.. just two years ago everything was perfect, things were actually good.. now it's just a mess. Everyone my age is in college, traveling, doing something with their lives, while I'm just stuck in place.. zero progress whatsoever. My parents are too good to me—they won't say a word, which is actually what I resent most. I've always had everything handed to me, never had to lift a finger for anything.. I don't know how much longer I can keep living like this.

Nineteen isn't exactly an age to be worrying about anything just yet.
Well, I suppose you have plenty of time on your hands.

Look, life is just one big roller coaster—one minute you’re hitting the highs, the next you’re stomach-turning in a freefall. You might be stuck in the gutter right now, but trust me, that doesn't mean you're staying there. Seriously. Just sit down, figure out what you actually want out of this thing, and start moving toward it—slowly, mind you. Don't try to sprint when you can barely walk; just take it one step at a time, one day at a time. You've got so much time ahead of you, man. You're young, you've got endless possibilities if you don't let yourself get bogged down by the current mess.