Ghost of You...

brisktrucker said:So, here I am, a month later. Not much has changed really, I just felt like reaching out and typing this out.

I can't tell if this is normal, but lately, it's hitting me how much I actually take after her. Her parents still treat me like one of their own, which is tough because I honestly don't know how to act around them anymore. 😢

I've been back at the cemetery three or four times now. Every single time, I go there with a bouquet of roses and some silly little note, and I end up driving home in tears.

I miss her—it hurts like hell. If I could just have five minutes with her, just five minutes to say the things I never got to...

I totally get why you're hurting. This might sound harsh, and please don't take it the wrong way,
but eventually, things will start looking up if you try to get back out there and fill that void you're feeling right now. That whole "time heals all wounds" thing doesn't work if you spend all that time dwelling on the past—thinking about what happened or playing the "what if" game regarding how things ended so tragically.

You have to keep moving forward. Moving on doesn't mean you're erasing what you two had. You'll
always carry her with you, but you still have to live your life.😢

And hey, it might actually help to grab a notebook and just write everything down—all the thoughts swirling around, everything you wish you could say to her.

Hang in there. Stay strong.🙂

p.s.—sorry if that was a bit scattered.🙈

I keep a journal—it’s pretty intense, actually—and I find myself writing in it all the time.

"I didn't get a wink of sleep last night, mostly because the reality finally hit me: we're done. But honestly? There isn't a drop of bitterness left in me. I know what we shared was the real deal. And hey, if our paths happen to cross again somewhere down the road in our new lives, I promise I’ll just smile. I'll think back to those long summer days under the shade of the trees, just two people learning about life and falling in love. To me, the greatest kind of love is the one that shakes your soul awake and makes you want to be better—the kind that lights a fire in your chest but somehow leaves your mind feeling totally at peace. That’s exactly what you gave me. And that's what I'll always wish for you. I love you. See you around."

And yeah... that's pretty much everything I wanted to say to her.