Everything is spiraling out of control

Look, it’s simple. There isn’t a single thing you can actually control. You ever notice that?
Not even the people you love.

But honestly, maybe that’s where the beauty is.
Like, even if I can't force someone to care about me, they might just... love me anyway.

It’s weird. I’ve kind of made my peace with it. Weird.
It’s freezing out here and it’s seriously getting on my nerves.
And there’s nothing I can do about it.
All I can do is tell my girlfriend I love her.
I can't make her feel the same way back.
I can just give it everything I've got.
And I am trying.
By 4:00 tomorrow, I'll know if she's actually in this with me.

Screw control. Real men just ride the wave.

That’s just not how I see things. I’m more interested in that Hollywood kind of romance—you know the type? Where if the love is truly mutual, there isn't this constant, exhausting pressure to prove yourself. I want a relationship where everything feels effortless and spontaneous, where we can just enjoy each other's company without the heavy burden of feeling like I constantly have to go above and beyond just to keep things afloat.

look, I guess I can try to give it my all.
not like I pull it off every single time.
ego.
haha.
whatever, doesn't matter.
as if anything actually does.
😁

heading to bed.

You’re right about the ego; it's an important point to raise. That ugly little concept—it’s like a parasite, a constant intruder.
Whenever you convince yourself that your actions are somehow noble because you're doing them for someone else, that guilt starts to fester. It becomes a drain on your conscience. You begin to boil over, driving you to push harder just to prove your worth, fueled by the desire to outdo those similar types who operate under the same delusions.

Jessica Gonzalez7 said:Honestly, I’m just looking for that Hollywood kind of love. You know? Where if the feeling is mutual, there isn't this constant pressure to perform or prove something. It should just happen spontaneously, where we both just enjoy being together without that heavy weight of trying too hard to impress one another.

🙄 🙄 It’s like those movies, that sense of spontaneity.

wiredfalcon2 said:Look, the truth is there’s absolutely nothing you can actually control. Ever notice that?
Not even the people you love most.

But isn't that kind of where the beauty lies?
The fact that someone can love you even though you can't force them to?

It's weird. I've finally come to terms with it. Weird.
It's freezing out here and it's seriously getting on my nerves.
And there's nothing I can do about it.
I can tell my girlfriend I love her, though.
But I can't make her feel the same way about me.
All I can do is give it everything I've got.
And I am trying.
By tomorrow around 4 PM, I'll know if she's actually in this with me.

Screw control. Real men just ride the wave.

Is this supposed to be poetry? 🤔

key_4 said:Is this supposed to be poetry? 🤔

... as if I wrote it myself 🙂

... Delvecchio 👍 🙏

... and I'm a real man :drko: 😬