Life-altering dilemma.

It’s just how things are... I don't want to quit, though; I just want to end this cycle. It’s actually quite difficult to be this honest, because it feels humiliating.

I’m not posting this here so people can tear me down or call me stupid, immature, or spoiled... I’m writing this in the hope that someone might offer some actual guidance.

Let’s go through it step by step.

High school was great. I graduated and moved on to college. You wouldn't believe it, but university isn't easy either. I'm studying Mechanical Engineering at Georgia Tech.

The first month went really well. I wasn't even struggling much; I managed to pass my first major exam via a midterm. Then I passed two more. Things were looking up... then a girl entered my life. She completely drained me, mentally and physically, for nearly a year. The issue was that I had time for everything except my studies. Naturally, I failed the year. After that, I tried to pick up the pieces, moved on from her, and tried to act like I was fine... then another girl came along. This academic year is winding down, and I've only passed one single exam. I'm slipping again.

I am incredibly lazy, and I admit that with a heavy heart. I only needed three exams to stay on track, and I didn't even manage that. It's not that I lack intelligence. I can handle the material. I've always been bright in certain areas and have received plenty of praise in the past. It seems intelligence and laziness often go hand in hand...😳

So now... it's September, there are two regular exam periods coming up, and I need to pass three specific classes no matter what. It’s doable. If I study properly, I know I can master the material.

Problem one isn't catastrophic, but it will take effort. I missed lectures and lab sessions. I managed to get my attendance credits through some clever maneuvering, but now I have to deal with the missing coursework, the lack of lecture notes, and the practical lab work. How do I make up for all that? There isn't an easy way. I'll have to find a way somehow.

Problem two: I'm living in a total dump that even cockroaches would flee from, and I'm paying for it myself$567. Rent is about $1,200. Looking at it that way, it's a significant amount. The issue is the utilities, and honestly, the rent itself. It's just not enough. My parents are well-off, so that's not the core issue. And then there's the third problem.

Problem three: My parents—they have big hearts and do everything to help me succeed. The trouble is, I’ve been hiding things from them, though I've tried to fix that. I haven't broken their trust entirely, but it's shaken. Now, we've hit a wall of constant arguments, and they've started threatening to cut me off financially. They're fed up with me, and frankly, so am I. I won't dwell on it further.

I know I'm wasting their time, their hard work, and their effort. I'm losing their trust and damaging our relationship.

Finally, one more thing. I am a deep optimist; I always try to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I see a way out. I KNOW, deeply and truly, that I have to pull myself together and pass these exams in September. I have a life waiting for me in the next two years. I have a girlfriend I care about, a degree path that offers a future, and good friends.

But it's summer. Every time, I tell myself the same thing, but I never turn those words into action. How do I snap out of it? How do I simply sit down with my books and start from scratch? How do I say no to hanging out, grabbing coffee, or spending time with my girlfriend to focus on studying?

I just want to get my studies back on track so I can live a normal life without all this constant tension.

I tried to answer this for myself... and the answer was simple: START STUDYING!

BUT... my question for you is, how do I force myself? How do I get my act together? My parents are constantly on my case about money, and it weighs heavily on me. I know I'm taking so much from them and giving nothing back. I feel terrible about it.

I want to change for the better. I'm not asking for philosophical lectures; just give me an idea, some advice, or perhaps a bit of your own experience. How would you attempt to navigate these problems? And how do you transform innate laziness into something productive? Just keep in mind that this laziness is accompanied by a genuine desire to change.

Forgive the long post, but I couldn't find a shorter way to say it. I just had to get this out.

Thank you all so much in advance. 👍

If you just put in your dues for August, I promise you'll see that payout by the end of ☕
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dustyraven7 said:It’s basically this... the situation is what it is, but I’m not looking to quit—I just want to bring the whole thing to a close. It’s actually pretty rough being honest about it, because it feels humiliating.

Just so we're clear, I didn't start this thread so everyone could jump down my throat calling me stupid, immature, spoiled, or whatever other labels you want to throw at me—I'm posting in the hope that maybe someone can offer some actual insight or advice.

Let’s break it down.

High school... everything was great. Graduated, enrolled in college. And wouldn't you know it, college isn't exactly a walk in the park either. I'm talking Mechanical Engineering at a state university somewhere. (Location doesn't matter.)

Anyway, things started off strong during the first month. I wasn't even struggling that much; I actually managed to pass my first big exam through a midterm. Then I passed two more. Things were moving... then a girl entered the picture. She absolutely wrecked me—mentally and physically—for nearly a year. The issue was that I had time for everything except my coursework. Naturally, I failed the year. So, I tried to pivot, the relationship ended, and I just kept messing up. Eventually, I moved on, spent some time acting like a single guy, and then another girl came along. We're approaching the end of the year, and I've only passed one single exam the entire time. I'm failing again.

I am incredibly lazy, and I'll be the first to admit it. I needed to pass three exams just to stay on track, and I haven't even done that. It's not that I'm dumb or anything—I can handle the material. I'm sharp when I actually try, and I've picked up plenty of praise in the past. It seems like intelligence and laziness are practically best friends.😳

So now... it's September. There are two regular exam periods for everything, and I have three exams I need to pass immediately. No big deal. If I actually study properly, nobody can fail me because I'll know the material inside and out.

Problem 1: It's not catastrophic, but it requires effort. I missed lectures, and I missed the lab sessions too. I managed to scrape by on signatures through some clever maneuvering. But now? Between needing to find textbooks, catching up on missed lectures, practical work, and labs—how am I supposed to make that up? Honestly, there's no way. Though, I guess I'll figure something out.

Problem 2: A total dump of an apartment that cockroaches would run away from, and I'm paying for it myself $567. My parents send me $2,500. Looking at it that way, it sounds like a lot of money. The issue is the utilities, and the rent itself. Basically, it's not enough. Not that my parents aren't well-off or anything. And then there's the third problem.

Problem 3: My parents. They have huge hearts and would do anything to help me succeed. The mess is that I've been hiding things from them, though I've dealt with that now. Well, I've dealt with it enough to shake their trust. Now, it's turned into constant nagging and threats that they won't fund me anymore—my parents are really breathing down my neck. I don't think I need to go into more detail.

The point is, I know I'm wasting their time, their hard work, and their effort, and I'm destroying my relationship with them.

On top of all that, I'm a massive optimist; I always see a light at the end of the tunnel. I see a way out. I KNOW—and I mean I damn well know—that I need to pull myself together and crush these exams in September. Over the last two years, I've built a life here. I have a girlfriend I care about, I'm enrolled in a degree that offers a future, and I have friends.

But it's summer. Every single time I tell myself I'll change, but I never actually do it. How do I snap out of it? How do I just grab a book and start from scratch? How do I say no to hanging out, grabbing coffee, or cuddling with my girlfriend just to sit with a textbook?

I just want to get my studies back on track and live a normal life without all this constant complaining and drama.

I tried to answer this for myself... and the answer was: START STUDYING!

BUT... the question for you guys is, how do I force myself? How do I get my act together? My parents are constantly riding me about the money, and it eats at me. I know I'm taking so much from them and giving nothing back. I feel terrible about it.

I want to change—for the better. I’m not looking for anyone to lecture me from a mountaintop here, just give me an idea, some advice, or even just a bit of your own experience. How would you go about digging yourself out of all these problems? And more importantly, how do you turn a born slacker into someone actually productive? Just keep in mind—this "slacker" actually has a massive desire to change.

Sorry for the long post, but I couldn't really find a shorter way to say it. I just had to get this off my chest.

Thanks in advance. 👍

Yeah... yeah... look, man, here's what you do: take everything related to college, shove it all into one big plastic bin, and haul it up to the attic. Then, go out and enjoy yourself. Seriously. Go have a blast, live it up, hang out with your girlfriend—do whatever you want. Basically, just mess around and forget about school, your problems, and all that nonsense until August 1st. Just blow off steam completely. Once August 2nd hits, you bring that bin back down from the attic, swap out all the fun stuff for your textbooks, and shove the fun stuff back up in the attic. From August 2nd through mid-September, it’s strictly study mode—the return to reality. Get at least eight hours of sleep every night, eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and don't study right before bed; go for a walk instead. It's better for you. Use Saturdays to reset—have one day where you aren't studying, but you aren't partying either. From what I can tell, you already know *how* to study, so there’s no point in me explaining different techniques... If you actually have the drive, it shouldn't be a problem. As for the apartment situation, either move or call a professional exterminator—it's worth the money. Regarding that old drama you mentioned, you didn't actually say what happened, so I can't really help there. That's all I've got, but just so you know, this plan worked for me.

A vision, really... you're basically me in the future 😁
In maybe two or three years, I’ll be right there with you 🙏
We seem to share the exact same philosophy on life, which is essentially: everything will work out fine, and honestly, life is just going to be great 🙏 🙏

The real trick is all about organization...

You just have to figure out when you’re actually most productive—whenever that window opens for you—and lean into it. I’m talking about dedicated blocks of time, maybe a few hours a day depending on your pace. But there’s a catch: you have to ditch the distractions. No smartphone, no TV, no constant phone calls, nothing that pulls your focus away. And if you need breaks to stay sane, take them. It's your schedule.
Once you’ve actually put in the work, you’ll find you have plenty of time left over for a date, grabbing coffee with friends, or whatever else you feel like doing. I’m telling you, it really comes down to discipline. You set a plan and you stick to it—otherwise, you're just spinning your wheels.

I know, I know—easier said than done—but at least give it a shot.

Look, I won't lecture you too much, but it’s all mental.

I dealt with something similar back in college. I had to crush five finals in September just to stay on track, but my usual pace was maybe three or four exams a year.

The silver lining was that nobody was breathing down my neck because everyone thought my goal was a total pipe dream. But man, my parents had been riding me about this for a year straight. It was basically "make progress or else"—they weren't demanding I pass everything, just that I actually show some movement.

Maybe you aren't in that spot right now, but if you tanked this September, you would be.

And don't even get me started on being lazy. Most days I was basically horizontal—either passed out on the couch watching TV or rotting in bed—otherwise I was just drifting through coffee shops and hanging out.

Not to go into full detail, but once it finally clicks in your brain that you might actually *not* graduate (and look, in the US, only a fraction of people have degrees, so dropping out is way more common than it feels right now)... once you actually face reality, take stock of where you're at, and hit rock bottom, *that's* when you can actually change things.
Because it's easy during the first two years to think, "Yeah, I'll finish this, no problem!" But as time drags on, you realize college isn't going to finish itself. You either wake up or you slowly sink. And the only question is how much more time you're gonna waste before life forces you to give up on your goals and go work at a local bakery or something.

Luckily, that realization hit me hard. I finally snapped out of it and studied (while still making plenty of time to party in the summer). I absolutely crushed those five exams on the first try and graduated right on schedule.

It all happened because I realized I might fail and end up having wasted years of my life. Just picture it: if you keep this exact same pace, where will you be in a few years? Nowhere. Not closer to a degree, anyway. Then ask yourself: is there any chance I'll leave here without a diploma? Nope. The math is pretty simple.

So, at least in my book, the solution is all in your head.

If nothing else, let that insane feeling of pride and satisfaction after a brutal finals week motivate you. Trust me, words don't do it justice.
As for the stress, the nerves, and that pit in your stomach? That disappears. Plus, you'll get your parents' trust back, and that constant anxiety about money will vanish too.

Anyway, sorry for the rant, I just saw myself in your situation.

Thanks for the advice. I suppose I should say my old man is quite the materialist...

He’s a good person, genuinely helpful to everyone, which I appreciate. But when it comes to me, he treats everything like an investment—as if helping me is just something he expects to see a return on later. It’s pretty draining. He constantly tells me I’m going to end up a failure and all that. To be fair, he might have a point, considering that’s exactly how I started out. He always brings up how I haven't achieved anything, while he had a steady, high-paying career by the time he was 22. Man, I'm not him. Times have changed...🤷

So, there is this massive pressure from him. Even though I know he has these expectations and just wants to be a "proud dad," I still find myself paralyzed. I’m certain things would improve if I just showed him some results. I really am. But breaking a two-year habit is easier said than done...

Regarding studying, I think it's a universal truth. If you actually like a subject, you soak it up like a sponge. But if it makes no sense or doesn't interest you, learning it feels like death. I'm the same way...

Concentration is a huge struggle, and pure theory is unbearable. Practical stuff, solving logic problems and equations, is incredibly difficult for me. Math and mechanics—which I actually love, even though I haven't passed them yet—and structural engineering... those are okay. But materials science, polymers, and all that other nonsense... they just won't stick in my brain...

Still, I know once I finally master it—which will take a mountain of effort—it stays with me. I don't forget things once they click...

There’s also the issue of how I learn. Studying silently is a total disaster. Studying out loud is a slightly less intense disaster. It's fascinating how much better I do when someone reads to me, explains things, or lets me ask questions. When someone walks me through the material, I actually learn. It works just like being in a lecture hall. When I'm actually sitting in class, I listen, I retain, and I remember a lot. The problem is, I'm never actually in the lecture hall...😳

Another organization issue... Amidst all the chaos at college, I kept hitting the gym. I didn't realize I was growing a bit of a gut. Since I kept going to the gym, the gut kept growing. Now, it’s time for surgery. I'll get it handled during my time off...

Is it a double-edged sword? Maybe it'll be good because I'll have downtime to study. Or maybe I'll lose my mind having to rest and not being allowed to pick up a dumbbell, let alone a textbook...😱

Ultimately, I just need to snap out of it. What are your alternative ways of studying? How do you stay organized?...

One more thing. I'm hooked on the internet. I wouldn't call myself a tech geek, but I can't live without certain forums. Mostly professional ones. For instance, I'm really into Motorola gear; it's a big hobby of mine. I'd much rather spend my free time at the computer browsing CafeMobi than clearing space on my desk to open a book...

And the worst part about all this is summer... Why do I feel like I'm going to miss out on the summer of 2008?

Thanks for the replies, the ideas are helping... 👍

You’re the only one who can pull yourself together. And honestly, the best way to do it is kind of like how people tackle addiction—one small step at a time. It might sound weird, but it’s a proven method. Just take it day by day.
Right now, you’re just coasting. You watch the time slip through your fingers, but you don't have the drive to change because you're afraid that if you do, you'll have to start some whole new, "serious" life, and you’re perfectly comfortable where you are.
So, sit down by yourself one morning (you could even do it today) and make a choice: TODAY, I am going to study. Then actually do it. Set that same intention every single morning. You'll find it's way easier than saying, "FROM NOW ON..." (that’s usually where all those failed New Year's resolutions go to die 🤣). After a few days, you'll feel the momentum building, you'll be proud of yourself, and you'll find it carries you forward much more naturally.

One thing sticks out to me, though I'm not sure if I should bring it up since it's personal. But you mentioned you love your girlfriend. Does she love you back? How much? Is she trying to help you level up, or is she just looking for someone to party with?
If she’s a mature, serious person who actually cares about you as a partner rather than just a social companion, she should be helping you out. That means coming over not to drag you out, but to help you sit down with a book—maybe even reading to you if that helps, even if it's just some boring manual on 🤣 freight logistics. At the very least, she could just grab a magazine and sit next to you for support. That way, you won't feel like you're missing out on something just because you're studying.

Sorry if you think I shouldn't have brought that up, but I just feel that way, and it's what I would do for someone I care about (let alone someone I love).

From what you've said, your dad isn't exactly a role model, and he's definitely not the encouraging type—at least not in a way that works for you, like providing any sort of 🤣.
But you really need to try and tune out his complaining, because the truth is you're lucky that his setup allows you to go to college. I know that sounds a bit preachy, but I'm telling you this straight because I'm a single mom living on a $1.25 salary, and I know firsthand that I won't be able to send my kid to an out-of-state university or give them extra pocket money.
So, just put up with your dad's nagging. It'll stop pretty quickly once he sees you actually getting things done. 😬

And finally, I want to see a new thread on this same forum in September titled: "Hey, I'm crushing these exams like it's nothing. Am I a genius or just hard-working?"

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