Mildly psychopathic conversations - let's get real

Sometimes I feel like a moderate psychopath

Every now and then, I do things in my dreams that just aren't right.

In real life, though, I’m just confused. I feel disconnected from reality sometimes, yet other times I feel way too scattered.

So, what exactly defines a "moderate psychopath"?

Is it that person who occasionally contemplates doing something bad? Or maybe someone who can't help but smirk when they hear some high school bully finally hit rock bottom?

We all know the actual monsters—the criminals and predators. But is it really "psychopathic" to feel a little spark of joy when people who specifically wronged me face some misfortune?

For instance, I can't bring myself to hate entire groups of people because I haven't had any direct run-ins with them. But I definitely find myself harboring resentment toward certain former classmates, wishing some kind of karma would catch up to them.

How do I dial down this moderate psychopathy?

How can I just chill out?

Do you guys ever read stuff about Stoicism?

It helps me occasionally. But tonight feels weird. I don't want to stay up too late since I have to be up incredibly early tomorrow, but I'm being so strange with myself. Instead of reading something productive, I've just been scrolling through old photos and thinking about those weird people from my high school days.

How do I stop dwelling on the darker parts of my past?

Carl Rivera43 said:
So, what exactly defines a "moderate psychopath"?

Are we talking about someone who occasionally entertains dark thoughts, or maybe someone who can't help but feel a tiny bit of satisfaction when they hear that some high school bully finally hit rock bottom?

You’re being way too hard on yourself.

That isn't psychopathy at all. Most decent people want to see predators and bad actors get exactly what's coming to them.

As long as you aren't out there trying to play judge, jury, and executioner yourself, you're fine.

But hey, feel free to enjoy it a little when some creep or loser gets 🙂

Personally, I’d be pretty happy if, besides getting a reality check, they were permanently sidelined so they could never hurt anyone ever again.

PS. What's your deal? 🍿

Good morning, everyone

It’s all just a bit strange, isn't it?

I can't quite put my finger on why, but I rarely seem to find that inner strength to make any firm decisions.

It’s been a bit of a rough ride, honestly... a lot of setbacks lately. Over the last few years, I've had plenty of people hurt me. Most were women, too. And it wasn't even always about dating; sometimes it was just friends who let me down when I thought we had something solid.

I guess I’m just a little different from the crowd. Maybe it's my look, or maybe it's just my personality—I feel like I lack that certain "edge" most guys have. It actually gets to me a bit when I think back to some guys from high school. Some of them were such jerks, yet they always seemed to be the ones women flocked to.

Oh, and they had much more money in their pockets, too.

A few years back, I started losing my faith in God big time. Every now and then, it comes back to me, but the heart still knows how to ache.

I suppose I just don't take enough care of myself.

Carl Rivera43 said:It’s been pretty much a pattern lately... things feel quite backward. Over the last few years, I’ve been hurt by quite a few people, and most of them were women—usually occurring right when I was hoping to turn a casual acquaintance into something more meaningful, though sometimes they just ended up hurting me on a purely friendly level.

Carl Rivera43, you know what they say... the lesson keeps repeating until you finally learn it.

If you're struggling to grasp the lesson, maybe find someone who can help guide you.
But you have to actually be open to that help and willing to grow, rather than staying closed off and acting like you're the smartest person in the room.

It’s rare, if ever, that we are completely blameless while everyone else is out to get us.
More often than not, we’re making mistakes ourselves, whether we realize it or not.

Playing the victim isn't going to get you very far in life.

A few years back, I started losing my faith in God quite intensely; occasionally that faith returns, but the heart still knows how to suffer deeply at times.

Everyone needs a friend and some support in this life.
Do you have anyone like that?

Honestly, I’m not always even sure what I actually want out of life... {I guess I'm just a bit too laid back in this new era, maybe I don't value myself enough... and I even {partially} forget about talents I used to have {and still possess today}}

It's not like there's some massive disaster happening in my life right now. Actually, about ten days ago, I finally landed a job {after two months and roughly 8 to 10 interviews.}

It was pretty much the same story last year late in the fall during the holidays {back then it took 16 failed interviews before I finally nailed the 17th—but there were only half as many working months back then—and that was for a call center, whereas now I'm working in a warehouse, {which is arguably better}}

Jack, I still need to get used to having better sleep patterns

I've got a few friends, and two of them are really close. One of them rarely makes it out to Washington, D.C., but when he visited about a month ago, I met some women through him. He's got a lot of charisma. The other good friend of mine is a calmer guy, but he tends to complain quite a bit; for instance, he spends way too much time overanalyzing heatwaves and whining about them

I also have a great female friend who makes it out to Washington, D.C. maybe three or four times a year.....

Yeah... I really need to get my act together in these weird times {sometimes I'm not brave enough and I act a bit too childish, while in other areas I'm far too old-fashioned and overly nostalgic}}

It’s honestly heartbreaking how often the system fails people who have already been through the wringer—those who’ve dealt with abuse or just plain old injustice. You’d think we would have figured this out by now, right? It’s the 21st century! Still, here we are. I just want to send some real love and support to anyone out there dealing with bullying, workplace harassment, or being mocked and belittled. It doesn't matter how old you are, what you believe, where you're from, or what you look like. No one deserves that.

Standing behind the craftsman 🙂

Thanks so much

Right back at you! I honestly think you're such a class act and a genuinely decent person. {Keep doing exactly what you're doing.}

Times are weird lately, aren't they? It feels like people rarely offer an ounce of support, but they'll jump at any chance to nitpick your flaws.

And let's be real—there’s a huge difference between being supportive and just being a suck-up.

From everything you've said, I can tell you're coming from a place of genuine support.

A few years back, I had some people trying to play me just because they saw a buck in my pocket. {And wouldn't you know it, I fell for it.}

It’s really all about those expectations, isn't it? Sometimes we just don't demand enough from ourselves {and then everything gets messy when our own thoughts start spinning out of control}