Posts by Brenda Parker5

wiredfox said:Jacob Lopez51, I was rewatching Devil yesterday🙏

In the elevator?

All I know is ayin is out here buying a basic A5 while I'm rocking the A4 slim—we should honestly just race all the way to Chicago or something. What a ridiculous matchup..

When you guys sit down to watch those Michael Bay blockbusters...

Kyle Rodriguez76 said:Why?

Where’s the class, man? Honestly, wiredfox and I wouldn't even be able to hold a conversation about movies, books, or plays—let alone hook up. If we actually tried, the sex would just end up being an afterthought anyway.

Right now, the mods are at their peak. There’s zero chance I’m getting permabanned. 🎉

Bomb legend.

Next term, I’m just gonna nominate myself. Honestly? I think I’d be a way better candidate than Joe Biden.

shadowjackal82 said:Alright, I'll kick things off:

Boo
Bo Warka
Tiki
Josh Swarle
Svrle

Total Dream Team right there. They'd absolutely steamroll everyone—I'm basically an undiscovered Vince Carter in this scenario.

Rebecca Rivera3 said:Honestly, your support here means the world to me. And why wouldn't I succeed? Even with my lack of fine motor skills, moments where my memory just slips away, vision issues in one eye, tremors, and all the other symptoms. This illness used to leave me bedridden physically, though back then, I was still doing okay mentally.

Lately, a string of terrible life events has taken a toll on my mental health. On top of that, every time I finish clinical treatment, I develop PTSD. It leads to these episodes that are just devastating; I can't even close my eyes because the fear is constant. It’s better if I don't go into detail.

My mental state took a massive hit because of a guy I was seeing. I was nearing a suicidal breaking point; a bad episode started before him, and then he came along, and things just spiraled.

The best feeling is when you're almost numb—when everything is just a flat line, where you barely feel an emotion and physical pain becomes impossible to sense. There has been far too much physical and emotional agony in my life. I often wish I were dead, or I find myself wondering how I'm even still alive. Life has been incredibly unfair to me.

Right now, it hurts because I can't be with the person I love. They are already in a relationship, and while they love me, they aren't willing to end it. It's agonizing...
I just want this to resolve somehow—either my emotions fade away, or they finally make a decision. This situation is an overwhelming storm.

Also, the nightmares are nearly constant.

To be honest, I'm taking Seroquel at 100mg to 200mg—about 1mg three times a day—along with Praxis, Normabel SR, and Coaxil.

Instead of trying to get off psychiatric meds, I've reached a point where I take them like candy just so I won't feel anything—just to escape that deep pain that makes me want to die. Sometimes those pills just turn me into a zombie. I just want to find something that keeps me protected from the pain while still allowing me to function.

Where exactly are the lesions located?.. I have some small ones in my white matter, too. These symptoms—especially the vision stuff—really point toward MS.... I don't know, if you've had a full neurological workup, maybe it's just chronic anxiety and disorders, but these medications are enough to kill a person. It's terrifying...

I'm heading to bed with the enemy. Basically, I'm operating behind enemy lines right now...

Honestly, lately I’ve been hitting up these high-end restaurants around Chicago on the weekends, and after just $50 one meal, I feel like I need to knock back at least three beers just to even consider standing up from the table. Then the adrenaline kicks in and I end up grabbing a few more—dammit... it's definitely the food...

Charles Bailey2 said:Not even close.

Which one's actually worse?

I'm right there with you on the nofap thing. It feels like a dead end... you just end up crashing and burning.

Lately, I’ve only been getting properly hammered maybe five times a year—not much compared to before, when my old lady wouldn't even let me step foot out of the house.
Now, I'm really feeling it. The next day, I'm just slurping down some Campbell's soup and staring at the kitchen counter where someone scribbled "you're a mess" on a napkin while I've got this massive tension headache making my head feel like it's in a vice.
I'll just go sit outside with a Paulaner and a gin.

vividrider7 said:thanks Jacob Lopez51. You’ve been a huge help. Is Helex prescription-only? Like, can I just ask my family doctor for it, or do I definitely need to see a psychiatrist?

No problem at all. 🙂
It really depends on your specific pharmacy, but you should be able to get a prescription for it...

vividrider7 said:Man, I seriously thought I was losing my mind. I’ve had this constant tingling sensation for about 4 months now, and every doctor I see just tells me it’s anxiety. But honestly? I feel happier than ever. What are you taking to make this tingling stop? I don't even notice it during the day when I'm moving around—it only hits me at night once I lie down and settle in, and then I can't sleep. And it happens every single night :/

Honestly, it’s just Xanax or Helex... Ashwagandha helps lower cortisol, so things feel a bit better, but you really need the anxiolytics. I don't think an antidepressant would do much here—I mean, if an anxiolytic that works on GABA receptors basically resets your baseline to "normal," then an SSRI isn't really the answer, especially since I don't even feel depressed... just anxious, I guess, from the sheer amount of caffeine I consume. I take Ashwagandha, I dose dopamine with Tyrosine when my energy is low, and I take Helex as needed. To be clear, I should probably be taking it every day, but that's dangerous because it's addictive, so I try to just power through it... nighttime is definitely the worst part.
That muscle twitching could be neurological, maybe related to BFS, or from a psychological standpoint, it could be a psychosomatic disorder..
later

I’m totally on board with that. It’s such a powerhouse duo—there’s just no way he’d ever catch any heat from beauties like those. I mean, I get it... I have my own limits too.😁

wiredfox said:-- also, Austria is top tier too

solid taste..

😬

wiredfox said:A Clockwork Orange is top tier—I'm honestly not much of a western guy myself.

Yeah, true... you've got 2001, Eyes Wide Shut... even Requiem for a Dream...

Once Upon a Time in America....🙏

Sarah Ward80 said:Hey Sergio, here’s a little weather update for you
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wiredfox said:Sergio—what's up with the nickname? Like Leone? And what's the deal with the "m"?

Leone... once upon a time... untouchable alongside Kubrick...