Posts by darkrider15

Linda Hernandez15 said:Maybe try untangling that mental knot first, either by yourself or right here on the forum.
Just lay it all out for us... we can give you an objective third perspective, let you see things from a different angle, and then maybe help you patch everything back together... 😉

Fine. Should I move this over to "Life Together"? Or maybe "Lonely Heart"?
This past year has been a total grind for me. I was basically dependent on my ex
in pretty much every way—emotionally and financially too.
But I finally realized the whole relationship was a dead end, so I called it quits and moved into
my own apartment. Just yesterday, I went and grabbed the very last thing he still had of mine—my skis. It’s weird, because I feel like he’s practically family,
and he even told me he views me as part of his family (he's totally alone, parents passed away, no siblings)...
We still talk every other day; he calls me up and all that.
The reality is simple—he just isn't the one for me. When his friends ask why I
moved out, he just tells them it was obvious he didn't love me the way
I needed him to.
I don't feel like I actually miss him. But whenever we run into each other, I just end up
breaking down in tears. I just feel so much regret for everything.
I just want to be free. I'm independent now. What else is there left to do?
I've met this amazing guy, and being around him makes me feel so happy. I really don't want some "subconscious" baggage holding me back and keeping me trapped in this web... Help.

😵

Thanks Sandra Evans2, Gary Sanchez, and Matthew Morris28 for jumping in here.

I really believe time heals everything, it just moves so incredibly slow... super slow...

So, I actually managed to get some decent sleep in my own bed today. 🙂

Gary Sanchez, back then my therapist put me on antidepressants to help
get rid of those panic attacks, the shaking, and that "lump in my throat" feeling I got
during a major life transition that just totally shook my system and caused all those
reactions.

I’m a pretty happy person, people generally like me and think I'm sweet,
and I've made a huge leap forward in my life, but I'm still searching for that inner
peace.
I feel good, but obviously—there's still some restlessness left, because when I start
jerking around in my sleep at night, the person next to me can't even sleep. 😲 😁

My sleep has been pretty much trashed ever since the fallout from when I
ended a "serious" relationship about 7 months ago.
I’m tossing and turning all night, waking up constantly, and once I'm up, I just can't drift back off.
That's when my brain starts racing with all these random, nonsensical thoughts... kind of like being in some weird
half-dream state...
I've been on an antidepressant for 6 months now—just one pill a day.
The doctor put me on it to get the panic attacks under control so I wouldn't
have to rely on Helix, since that stuff gets you hooked.
Anyone else dealt with something similar?