Posts by Kyle Roberts4

Looking for someone to chat with

I’m hoping to find a woman—somewhere between 30 and 50, though honestly, age isn't a huge deal to me. I'm about 44 myself. If you're curious about my specific situation or diagnosis, feel free to look through my previous posts.

Why a woman? It sounds a bit hard to put into words, but I just find it much easier to open up to women than to men. Just to be crystal clear so there's no confusion—I am a man.

Just to set some boundaries: I'm not looking for a girlfriend, a fling, or anything like that. Also, I'd prefer to talk to someone who understands mental health topics.
We aren't going to meet up in person, grab coffee, or sit down for tea. And if you want to stay anonymous, you don't even have to tell me your real name.

What I am actually looking for is someone who gets what it's like to navigate mental health struggles. It doesn't matter what you've been through—even if you don't personally struggle with mental health issues, as long as you won't judge those who do (and hey, feel free to reach out even if you're doing okay!). To me, these are just illnesses like any other, they just show up differently. I'm really just looking for a safe space to vent. You don't need a degree in psychology or anything.

Here is what I can offer: a listening ear regarding mental health, and you are more than welcome to vent to me about absolutely anything. I promise I won't judge you or try to lecture you. We can talk about whatever is on your mind, and if I can offer any comfort or perspective, I will. I'll always listen carefully, and you can always come to me with the little daily stresses too.

The hardest part for me right now is just having nobody to talk to. Every time I've tried reaching out, people immediately start acting like I'm making it all up—which is tough, especially since getting regular psychotherapy isn't an option for me right now.

I won't engage with trolls or provocations; I'll just delete those messages immediately.

Since I'm not glued to my computer 24/7, I might not reply instantly, but I do get back to everyone (unless it's a troll).

I would truly love it if someone reached out.

I’m looking for a woman—somewhere between 25 and 45, honestly age isn't a huge deal—just to talk. I’m around 40 myself. If anyone is curious about my specific diagnosis, feel free to check out my previous posts.

Why a woman? It sounds a bit hard to put into words, but I just find it easier to open up to women than men. Just so there’s no confusion here—I am a guy.

To be clear about what I'm *not* looking for: I’m not hunting for a girlfriend, a fling, or anything like that. I’m also not looking for someone who doesn't "get" the whole psychology side of things.
We aren't going to meet up in person, grab coffee, or sit down for tea. And hey, if you want to chat, you don't even have to tell me your real name.

Here is what I *am* looking for: someone who understands the reality of dealing with mental health struggles. It doesn't matter what your own situation is—even if you don't struggle with mental health issues personally, as long as you won't judge those who do (and please, feel free to reach out even if you're doing fine!). At the end of the day, these are illnesses just like any other, they just show up differently. I'm just looking for a safe space to vent. You don't need a degree or anything.

What I bring to the table: a listening ear regarding mental health struggles. You can vent about absolutely anything—I promise I won't judge you or try to play the expert. We can talk about whatever is on your mind, and if I can offer some comfort or a different perspective, I will. I’ll always listen intently, whether it's deep stuff or just the usual daily stresses.

The hardest part for me right now is just having nobody to talk to. Every time I've tried reaching out, people immediately start acting like I'm making it all up—and since getting regular psychotherapy isn't an option for me right now, it's tough.

Just a heads up: I don't engage with trolls or provocations. If a message is rude, I’ll just delete it immediately.

Since I’m not glued to my computer 24/7, I might not reply instantly, but I do make an effort to get back to everyone (unless it's a troll).

I would really love it if someone reached out.

I’m looking to connect with a woman somewhere in her 30s or 40s just to chat. I’m right around 40 myself. If you're curious about my specific diagnosis or what I've been dealing with, feel free to look through my previous posts.

Why a woman? Honestly—it’s just easier for me to talk to women than men. I can't quite put my finger on why, but it's just how I am. Just to clear up any potential confusion—I am a man.

Just to be clear about what I'm *not* looking for: I’m not hunting for a girlfriend, a fling, or anything like that. And I’m also not looking for someone who doesn't "get" psychology or mental health struggles.
We aren't going to meet up in person, grab a coffee, or sit down for tea. And hey, if you want to stay anonymous, you don't even have to tell me your real name.

Here’s what I *am* looking for: someone who understands the headspace we find ourselves in—you know, the reality of mental health issues. It doesn't matter what your own history is; you don't even need to have struggles yourself, as long as you aren't judgmental toward those who do. (And please, feel free to reach out even if you're doing okay!) Mental illness is just like any other medical condition—it just shows up differently. I really just need a safe space to vent.

What I bring to the table: a listening ear regarding mental health. You can vent to me about absolutely anything—I promise I won't judge you or try to play "expert" on your life. I'm happy to talk about whatever is on your mind, and if I can offer some comfort or perspective, I will. I'll always listen closely, and you're more than welcome to offload about the little daily stresses too.

The toughest part for me is feeling like I have nobody to actually talk to. Every time I've tried opening up, people immediately start lecturing me, acting like it's all made up—and since getting regular therapy isn't an option for me right now, it's pretty isolating.

I would truly love it if someone reached out.

Sean Murphy6 said:How do I stop these suicidal thoughts from taking over?

Has anyone here gone through something similar? If you have, I’d really appreciate it if you could share whatever helped you pull through and stay safe.

If you're going through this right now, please know you aren't alone. Looking at the threads here, it's clear so many people are fighting the same battle. I'm right there in the trenches with you.
Someone mentioned earlier that you should head to your primary care doctor and have them give you a referral for an emergency psychiatric evaluation. And hey, don't be scared—they aren't going to just lock you away against your will unless it's absolutely necessary.
I'm on a whole cocktail of medications myself, but honestly? Those suicidal thoughts don't just vanish—they're there from the moment I wake up until I finally pass out. Sleep is pretty much my only sanctuary, because that's the only time the noise stops.
Of course, some days are better than others, but it’s hard to tell which way the wind is blowing when you wake up.
There was a comment about needing to find the "root cause." But how do you even do that?
In my case, I think it stems from major depression, maybe some milder OCD, and definitely a strong bipolar disorder component.
To me, those suicidal thoughts are basically a direct symptom of those conditions.
But why did all of this kick in about three or four years ago? That's the mystery I can't solve.
All I can really say is: hang in there!

jadehawk8 said:Does anyone else deal with little waves of anxiety or panic while on antidepressants? I’ve been on mine for two months now and honestly, things have been great—my old issues are pretty much gone. But today, while I was out grabbing coffee, I got this sudden wave of feeling like I might pass out. It totally triggered that old sensation. Maybe I just overdid it being out all day and I'm actually just exhausted? It really spooked me, thinking I might slide back into my old patterns, but I'm taking my meds and hoping for the best. I really don't want to go through that hell again.

I've definitely been there. You described that "feeling faint" sensation perfectly—just total nausea. In those moments, I usually have to step outside for some fresh air, and then things start to settle down.
I don't drink coffee, so I can at least rule that out as a possible trigger.

northernsailor102 said:I’ve been sitting here for quite some time now, wrestling with thoughts of ending it all. Honestly, after observing the sheer absurdity of human existence and actually participating in this charade, I haven't been able to find a single legitimate reason to keep enduring this ongoing agony. It makes me wonder: what is your reason—or perhaps several reasons—for staying alive? Where does that primal urge for self-preservation and survival actually come from? What is it that forces you to keep going? What are you living for, what are you fighting for, or what have you dedicated your entire life to? Why is it that you manage to drag yourself out of bed every single morning?
I am not asking about some grand, cosmic purpose. I am asking about the practical, raw reasons why you choose to live over and over again.

Now, this is a really heavy, fascinating topic. Honestly, I find myself asking these exact same questions all the time—it's a daily struggle with myself, really. I see people out there just enjoying life, while I haven't felt genuine joy in quite a while. It's not that I lack things; I've never been much of a materialist, anyway. If I were, maybe I could find some happiness in everything I've managed to build and acquire.
But instead, the days just kind of drift by without any real sense of satisfaction. I'd love for something—even just a tiny little thing—to actually cheer me up, but it just doesn't happen. And I don't really have anyone to talk to about this, since the people in my own life aren't exactly the type you can open up to about stuff like this.
This forum is pretty much the only place where I can let off some steam.
The constant battle and these thoughts of suicide are becoming so exhausting. Antidepressants helped a little, but those dark thoughts keep creeping back more and more often.
I’m just plain tired of everything. There have been so many times where I've thought about just grabbing a backpack and walking away—no plan, no destination, just gone.

I realize I totally missed the mark on this thread—the author was looking for reasons to live, and I didn't exactly provide anything profound. Sorry for the off-topic rant.