Posts by Jerry Bishop73

Henry Lopez10 said:We really need to pin down what a "lone wolf" actually is. It’s not some social misfit or an outcast hiding from the world, romance, or human connection because they're terrified of it. 🙄
It isn't about being a selfish jerk who hates everyone, either.
Rather, these are people who are just as content hanging out with a crowd as they are being alone. They aren't carrying around some deep-seated resentment that forces them into isolation; instead, they simply refuse to build their entire lives around the arbitrary standards or social pressures of the masses.
They don't rely on anyone else to feel whole.
They never find themselves bored or feeling empty when they're by themselves. Their happiness isn't tethered to the presence of others. They genuinely enjoy people, but they also feel perfectly comfortable navigating the world solo, as much as that’s even possible in this life.
They are emotionally and spiritually self-sufficient, capable of standing on their own two feet without spiraling into depression, misery, or whatever other negative headspace comes with isolation. They take care of themselves quite well, thank you very much. They don't let society dictate their definition of success or how they should live.
They don't feel this frantic pressure to get married, settle down, or spend every single weekend surrounded by friends, family, or crowds at a bar just to feel complete. They don't need sidecars attached to their lives just to stay upright. There are plenty of people who are constantly surrounded by groups but are completely alone in their souls... that doesn't mean anything.
A true lone wolf doesn't necessarily need conventional relationships or pack-like behavior to be satisfied with themselves and the world. They carve out their own path and make their own calls without fishing for compliments or seeking validation from the neighbors—all while making sure they aren't stepping on anyone else's toes. In fact, they don't get overly attached to anyone, and they tend to feel at home wherever they go. They love the company of others just as much as they cherish their own solitude.
Something like that, anyway.👍

Zemska, you hit the nail on the head with this one🙂.

Maria Mitchell23 said:Hi there!

Lately, I’ve been dealing with this recurring sensation in the evenings—sort of a tingling feeling in my legs, some muscle aches in my shins and around the knee area. It isn’t exactly sharp pain, just a constant, nagging discomfort.
Does anyone have any idea what might be causing this?

Go see your primary care physician and ask for a referral to a neurologist. Or, you could just book an appointment with a private specialist. It doesn't necessarily mean anything serious; it could just be a spinal issue, in which case adding swimming or some stretching routines like Pilates or yoga might help.
That said, it could also be MS, which is something I truly hope isn't the case.
Bottom line: if you aren't active, it's probably time to start moving.😉 Good luck.

steelmarlin77 said:Our whole lives are basically just this long, slow trek toward eternity, aren't they?
God bless whoever actually managed to cross the finish line on this one.
Mikhail Bulgakov: Dan Turbinov's

Schubert was like a flower in a field, really, and Mozart was the same way... they knocked out those first nine symphonies, then went on to do about forty more along with a whole mountain of other stuff, all before 1840, mostly because they both kicked the bucket before they could hit that milestone. People still obsess over them in their hometown—you know, Salzburg—where you can just wander around buying Mozartkugla and Mozarttalira and a whole heap of other cheap tourist crap. You should really listen to Schubert's unfinished symphony. What would it have even sounded like if he’d actually finished it? Is it actually better precisely because it remains incomplete, given that in a world like this, people rarely finish anything anyway? Would things have been better if Schubert had just spent his time loving and forgiving instead of agonizing over music, and ended up writing nothing at all? Listen to the Dies Irae and Lacrimosa from Mozart's Requiem; can you feel the rage and the pain in there? If even damn Mozart can lay bare his grief and his suffering, then surely I can too, right? Maybe my mistake was simply not showing enough of it. Now, steelmarlin77 is a reserved guy, a man of few words. I could have written thousands of posts here without ever running into a single copyright issue... I could easily write endless laments about everything I’ve ever produced. I’ve written hundreds of stories, poems, photo montages, paintings, and all sorts of other crap, including scientific and professional papers that span more than just one field... but I don't care about piling it all up in one spot, mainly because I have no interest in building some kind of "fortress on a bridge." I’ve raised hundreds of kids to be decent human beings, even if I don't have any of my own. And so on and so forth. So, maybe it’s finally time to draw a line under it all and figure out what actually holds weight, what actually makes sense, or doesn't. What constitutes true achievement? At least I should know for myself, why bother for anyone else? I don't give a damn about what others think. After all, it’s entirely possible that nobody would have ever discovered Mozart or Bach—we owe Mendelssohn a thanks for not letting that happen, I guess—and they might have just remained forgotten authors. That’s a fate that could happen to anyone.

Do we need struggles? Yeah, we do. You want proof? Just listen to a Requiem. Or take a look at Rembrandt’s self-portraits—look at him as a young guy, then flip to that final one where he’s an old man. Really look into his eyes. That man, Rembrandt van Rijn, went head-to-head with the power players of his era—those Dutch bigwigs, the corporate suits, the greedy oligarchs, and the common thieves running the show. Maybe you’ve seen the movie *Ben-Hur*, where this guy Judah Ben-Hur gets cast aside just because of his heritage and is shipped off like cargo to the galleys, only to come back at the end and show them all? In the background, you've got Jesus kissing and forgiving... but evil still gets its due. That’s how it works. And it has to be that way here, too. There can be no talk of forgiveness or love until the Wall Street elites, the Trilateral Commission types, and the rest of the vultures who ruined everything for us fall from grace—until they're wailing in fury and hatred while their very existence hangs by a thread just to survive. There has to be punishment for evil before any kind of true forgiveness can even exist.

👍for Bulgakov.

Love and forgiveness represent a state of being. Why do you assume such a state requires grueling labor?
Ask yourself what is missing until you finally arrive at an answer. Why does music, writing, or whatever it is you create fail to fulfill you? Is it because you are hunting for validation from others to prove your worth? Is it because everything you do is performed for an audience? You will spend your entire life merely fighting and resisting if you continue this way.
There is so much beauty in this world, even if it is nothing more than an illusion. Look in the mirror.

By the way, this little poem of yours is a flawed haiku; you're missing a syllable.😉

steelmarlin77 said:Do you ever feel like you actually made something of yourself in this life? Because, honestly, I haven't. I poured everything I had into it, really gave my all and handed out everything I could spare to the people around me—to everyone I actually cared about—but apparently, I’m just not important enough to even warrant a response to a post like this. Not that they’d even know I wrote it, anyway. If I had to kick the bucket today, I’m pretty sure all those people have someone else more vital, or way more significant, than me to worry about. They’d move on and forget me pretty damn fast, maybe some would take a little longer, but that’s basically the whole story.

Is that supposed to be enough? You know, for enlightenment, or self-discovery, or reaching the absolute peak of human achievement?
It has to be, because there isn't anything else left to grab onto.

Keep going... you gave, you gifted everything... just drop the expectations. It sounds like you were trying to buy affection and warmth with those gifts. That always backfires. It’s a form of manipulation. I don't mean to lecture you, but take responsibility, crush your ego, and let go of what you expect from others.
Face yourself in the silence, be honest with who you are, forgive, let go, and start loving yourself. Surrender to love. The prerequisite is being at peace with yourself and actually liking the person you see in the mirror.
If you think it's hard, let me tell you: hard = easy. The only difference is your own resistance. Your post comes off as pathetic to me; nobody is going to come pick you up and coddle you. What does "achieving something" actually mean to you? Are you measuring your worth by someone nodding their head, clapping, or showing you respect? Why bother? All joy resides within you; nothing exists outside of yourself.
And if you are healthy, be grateful—and even if you aren't, stay GRATEFUL. Good luck.🙂

Much appreciated for the response.
You see, there have been moments where I found myself intuitively directing my focus—mentally speaking—upward, sensing a certain space that felt like an extension of myself; a place where everything could finally be brought into order. In those instances, my primary aim was simply to reach a state of emptiness, to find that quiet zero point within.

Matthew Evans said:A Being, when viewed as an absolute—since an absolute is essentially its own "whole"—is fundamentally incapable of being harmed. The only kind of "harm" that actually exists is what manifests as a lived experience. So, really, you can only "damage" the quality of a single experience. But even that isn't true damage; it’s just the potential of Idea and Choice unfolding through a "negative" manifestation from Unconscious Corp.

Look, when a Being faces the sensation of being "harmed," and they start feeling like someone else’s actions—or even just the very framework that defines them as a subject—have turned them into a "victim," it tells you something specific. It’s a sign that the Being is first and foremost Self-unaware. Beyond that, it shows they lack an understanding of the underlying principles and the actual mechanics by which Self-Being constructs its own experience.

So, if I’m feeling like a "victim" right now, it’s just a sign that I’m hitting the realization phase of an initial Idea. Here’s how it works: you start with a pure intention or a soul-level plan, you distort that intention, and then you mistake that distortion for reality itself. That twist in the original Idea manifests as nothing but negativity or negation in our actual experience. The only way we manage to warp an intention is by fully identifying with the subject. When we go all-in on the subject, our Will and our attention get sucked into that central point—into the subject's own reason. From there, everything else—every object, every event—is perceived as being "outside" of us. It becomes something external to our intellect, something that either serves our pleasure or poses a direct threat to our existence. In this state, a Being doesn't actually have the freedom of Idea and Choice regarding the possibilities life throws at them. Instead, they fall into a sort of Unconscious Corp state, merely reacting to whatever motive hits them the hardest. We call that "necessity," but it's really just a lack of perspective. At the same time, every report of an action taken in this little drama gets processed through that centralized mind. The subject takes those reports, filters them through their specific mental framework, and generates reactions designed to justify their interpretation of the whole process. In this headspace, a Being becomes purely emotional. As long as the projection aligns with their existing beliefs, they feel fine. But the moment the balance shifts—the moment they start fearing for their own survival—something that was once a close friend can instantly turn into a blood enemy.

When you look at an action report within a projection, you always end up facing the Being. It doesn't matter where that Being decides to set up its Center. But here’s the thing: that report only hits you as a "feeling" when the Being positions its center *above* the subject-object relationship projection. Now, don't confuse this with basic emotions. Emotions can be positive or negative, sure, but their purpose is different. Typical emotionality is just a defense mechanism—it's the mind trying to shield the Being from the "outside world" when things get uncomfortable. This feeling isn't about protection. Its sole purpose is to act as an instant red flag. When a negative feeling arises, it's a signal that the projection of the intended soul has become distorted. It means the Being has fallen headfirst into its own projection, identifying so deeply with the subject of the action that the distinction is lost. Once that happens, free choice is effectively dead.

In that scenario, the Being instantly pulls itself out of the subject position. It looks down at the entire subject-object projection from above—viewing it all as a single result of its own Idea and Choice. This shift drags the individual back into a state of consciousness where, within a timeless existence, they can actually make a new, conscious choice. A conscious choice is one where you understand the consequences; it’s the kind of manifestation where the Being feels a sense of harmony with everything else in existence. Any choice that results in chaos, or causes "harm" to someone or something, suggests that the Being has fallen into a deep sleep. It means those core ethical values—the ones an individual always carries within themselves—have been forgotten or suppressed. In their place, new values have been installed. These aren't true values; they are just logical conclusions built without any Absolute Knowledge present in the individual's Consciousness. They exist solely to serve the systems of belief that rule over a Being stuck in that lower state.

Illness is just what happens after an Unconscious Corp makes a choice—specifically, a long string of them. It’s a disruption in the balance of the body's energy field. These disruptions come from blockages, and those blockages? They’re just fear manifesting at a cellular level. But here’s the thing: just as sickness builds itself up, it can be dismantled. To get rid of illness, you have to focus on BALANCING THE ENERGY FIELD. Instead of chasing symptoms, you should have a routine for balancing that field—essentially, maintaining HEALTH. Balancing keeps the system running at its peak. When the body is operating optimally, energy flows through it without hitting any walls. That’s when a person feels Healthy; they don't feel their "physicality" as a burden, but rather use it as a seamless tool to interact with the world around them.

Pain, for instance, isn't actually a disease. I'm talking about initial pain. Pain is designed to be an alarm—a signal that a Being needs to instinctively trigger a period of BALANCING. It's a sign that a blockage has formed. It’s also a sign that we’ve neglected our energy field, perhaps for a long time or maybe never at all. It means our thoughts have convinced our cells that their survival is under threat. Fear is an active architect of these blockages; it tries to protect an isolated cell, but instead of shielding it, it causes the cell to withdraw from the rest of the organism. By choosing to shut down, it kills the natural flow of energy. When energy can't find its natural path from point A to point B, it tries to force an alternative route, creating a conflict between two energy directions—and that conflict is the pain itself. In that moment, the "person" needs to drop everything and immediately move toward balance. Balancing the energy field is true healing. Healing, by its very definition, is the process of returning closed cells to an open state. Through this balancing, cells that lost faith in the organism as a whole regain that lost trust. This "convincing" process takes anywhere from thirty seconds to a few minutes, and the results are measurable in terms of HEALTH. We'll get to that later.

Matthew Evans said:A Being, when viewed as an absolute—since an absolute is essentially its own "whole"—is fundamentally incapable of being harmed. The only kind of "harm" that actually exists is what manifests as a lived experience. So, really, you can only "damage" the quality of a single experience. But even that isn't true damage; it’s just the potential of Idea and Choice unfolding through a "negative" manifestation from Unconscious Corp.

Look, when a Being faces the sensation of being "harmed," and they start feeling like someone else’s actions—or even just the very framework that defines them as a subject—have turned them into a "victim," it tells you something specific. It’s a sign that the Being is first and foremost Self-unaware. Beyond that, it shows they lack an understanding of the underlying principles and the actual mechanics by which Self-Being constructs its own experience.

So, if I’m feeling like a "victim" right now, it’s just a sign that I’m hitting the realization phase of an initial Idea. Here’s how it works: you start with a pure intention or a soul-level plan, you distort that intention, and then you mistake that distortion for reality itself. That twist in the original Idea manifests as nothing but negativity or negation in our actual experience. The only way we manage to warp an intention is by fully identifying with the subject. When we go all-in on the subject, our Will and our attention get sucked into that central point—into the subject's own reason. From there, everything else—every object, every event—is perceived as being "outside" of us. It becomes something external to our intellect, something that either serves our pleasure or poses a direct threat to our existence. In this state, a Being doesn't actually have the freedom of Idea and Choice regarding the possibilities life throws at them. Instead, they fall into a sort of Unconscious Corp state, merely reacting to whatever motive hits them the hardest. We call that "necessity," but it's really just a lack of perspective. At the same time, every report of an action taken in this little drama gets processed through that centralized mind. The subject takes those reports, filters them through their specific mental framework, and generates reactions designed to justify their interpretation of the whole process. In this headspace, a Being becomes purely emotional. As long as the projection aligns with their existing beliefs, they feel fine. But the moment the balance shifts—the moment they start fearing for their own survival—something that was once a close friend can instantly turn into a blood enemy.

When you look at an action report within a projection, you always end up facing the Being. It doesn't matter where that Being decides to set up its Center. But here’s the thing: that report only hits you as a "feeling" when the Being positions its center *above* the subject-object relationship projection. Now, don't confuse this with basic emotions. Emotions can be positive or negative, sure, but their purpose is different. Typical emotionality is just a defense mechanism—it's the mind trying to shield the Being from the "outside world" when things get uncomfortable. This feeling isn't about protection. Its sole purpose is to act as an instant red flag. When a negative feeling arises, it's a signal that the projection of the intended soul has become distorted. It means the Being has fallen headfirst into its own projection, identifying so deeply with the subject of the action that the distinction is lost. Once that happens, free choice is effectively dead.

In that scenario, the Being instantly pulls itself out of the subject position. It looks down at the entire subject-object projection from above—viewing it all as a single result of its own Idea and Choice. This shift drags the individual back into a state of consciousness where, within a timeless existence, they can actually make a new, conscious choice. A conscious choice is one where you understand the consequences; it’s the kind of manifestation where the Being feels a sense of harmony with everything else in existence. Any choice that results in chaos, or causes "harm" to someone or something, suggests that the Being has fallen into a deep sleep. It means those core ethical values—the ones an individual always carries within themselves—have been forgotten or suppressed. In their place, new values have been installed. These aren't true values; they are just logical conclusions built without any Absolute Knowledge present in the individual's Consciousness. They exist solely to serve the systems of belief that rule over a Being stuck in that lower state.

Illness is just what happens after an Unconscious Corp makes a choice—specifically, a long string of them. It’s a disruption in the balance of the body's energy field. These disruptions come from blockages, and those blockages? They’re just fear manifesting at a cellular level. But here’s the thing: just as sickness builds itself up, it can be dismantled. To get rid of illness, you have to focus on BALANCING THE ENERGY FIELD. Instead of chasing symptoms, you should have a routine for balancing that field—essentially, maintaining HEALTH. Balancing keeps the system running at its peak. When the body is operating optimally, energy flows through it without hitting any walls. That’s when a person feels Healthy; they don't feel their "physicality" as a burden, but rather use it as a seamless tool to interact with the world around them.

Pain, for instance, isn't actually a disease. I'm talking about initial pain. Pain is designed to be an alarm—a signal that a Being needs to instinctively trigger a period of BALANCING. It's a sign that a blockage has formed. It’s also a sign that we’ve neglected our energy field, perhaps for a long time or maybe never at all. It means our thoughts have convinced our cells that their survival is under threat. Fear is an active architect of these blockages; it tries to protect an isolated cell, but instead of shielding it, it causes the cell to withdraw from the rest of the organism. By choosing to shut down, it kills the natural flow of energy. When energy can't find its natural path from point A to point B, it tries to force an alternative route, creating a conflict between two energy directions—and that conflict is the pain itself. In that moment, the "person" needs to drop everything and immediately move toward balance. Balancing the energy field is true healing. Healing, by its very definition, is the process of returning closed cells to an open state. Through this balancing, cells that lost faith in the organism as a whole regain that lost trust. This "convincing" process takes anywhere from thirty seconds to a few minutes, and the results are measurable in terms of HEALTH. We'll get to that later.

Matthew Evans said:A Being, when viewed as an absolute—since an absolute is essentially its own "whole"—is fundamentally incapable of being harmed. The only kind of "harm" that actually exists is what manifests as a lived experience. So, really, you can only "damage" the quality of a single experience. But even that isn't true damage; it’s just the potential of Idea and Choice unfolding through a "negative" manifestation from Unconscious Corp.

Look, when a Being faces the sensation of being "harmed," and they start feeling like someone else’s actions—or even just the very framework that defines them as a subject—have turned them into a "victim," it tells you something specific. It’s a sign that the Being is first and foremost Self-unaware. Beyond that, it shows they lack an understanding of the underlying principles and the actual mechanics by which Self-Being constructs its own experience.

So, if I’m feeling like a "victim" right now, it’s just a sign that I’m hitting the realization phase of an initial Idea. Here’s how it works: you start with a pure intention or a soul-level plan, you distort that intention, and then you mistake that distortion for reality itself. That twist in the original Idea manifests as nothing but negativity or negation in our actual experience. The only way we manage to warp an intention is by fully identifying with the subject. When we go all-in on the subject, our Will and our attention get sucked into that central point—into the subject's own reason. From there, everything else—every object, every event—is perceived as being "outside" of us. It becomes something external to our intellect, something that either serves our pleasure or poses a direct threat to our existence. In this state, a Being doesn't actually have the freedom of Idea and Choice regarding the possibilities life throws at them. Instead, they fall into a sort of Unconscious Corp state, merely reacting to whatever motive hits them the hardest. We call that "necessity," but it's really just a lack of perspective. At the same time, every report of an action taken in this little drama gets processed through that centralized mind. The subject takes those reports, filters them through their specific mental framework, and generates reactions designed to justify their interpretation of the whole process. In this headspace, a Being becomes purely emotional. As long as the projection aligns with their existing beliefs, they feel fine. But the moment the balance shifts—the moment they start fearing for their own survival—something that was once a close friend can instantly turn into a blood enemy.

When you look at an action report within a projection, you always end up facing the Being. It doesn't matter where that Being decides to set up its Center. But here’s the thing: that report only hits you as a "feeling" when the Being positions its center *above* the subject-object relationship projection. Now, don't confuse this with basic emotions. Emotions can be positive or negative, sure, but their purpose is different. Typical emotionality is just a defense mechanism—it's the mind trying to shield the Being from the "outside world" when things get uncomfortable. This feeling isn't about protection. Its sole purpose is to act as an instant red flag. When a negative feeling arises, it's a signal that the projection of the intended soul has become distorted. It means the Being has fallen headfirst into its own projection, identifying so deeply with the subject of the action that the distinction is lost. Once that happens, free choice is effectively dead.

In that scenario, the Being instantly pulls itself out of the subject position. It looks down at the entire subject-object projection from above—viewing it all as a single result of its own Idea and Choice. This shift drags the individual back into a state of consciousness where, within a timeless existence, they can actually make a new, conscious choice. A conscious choice is one where you understand the consequences; it’s the kind of manifestation where the Being feels a sense of harmony with everything else in existence. Any choice that results in chaos, or causes "harm" to someone or something, suggests that the Being has fallen into a deep sleep. It means those core ethical values—the ones an individual always carries within themselves—have been forgotten or suppressed. In their place, new values have been installed. These aren't true values; they are just logical conclusions built without any Absolute Knowledge present in the individual's Consciousness. They exist solely to serve the systems of belief that rule over a Being stuck in that lower state.

Illness is just what happens after an Unconscious Corp makes a choice—specifically, a long string of them. It’s a disruption in the balance of the body's energy field. These disruptions come from blockages, and those blockages? They’re just fear manifesting at a cellular level. But here’s the thing: just as sickness builds itself up, it can be dismantled. To get rid of illness, you have to focus on BALANCING THE ENERGY FIELD. Instead of chasing symptoms, you should have a routine for balancing that field—essentially, maintaining HEALTH. Balancing keeps the system running at its peak. When the body is operating optimally, energy flows through it without hitting any walls. That’s when a person feels Healthy; they don't feel their "physicality" as a burden, but rather use it as a seamless tool to interact with the world around them.

Pain, for instance, isn't actually a disease. I'm talking about initial pain. Pain is designed to be an alarm—a signal that a Being needs to instinctively trigger a period of BALANCING. It's a sign that a blockage has formed. It’s also a sign that we’ve neglected our energy field, perhaps for a long time or maybe never at all. It means our thoughts have convinced our cells that their survival is under threat. Fear is an active architect of these blockages; it tries to protect an isolated cell, but instead of shielding it, it causes the cell to withdraw from the rest of the organism. By choosing to shut down, it kills the natural flow of energy. When energy can't find its natural path from point A to point B, it tries to force an alternative route, creating a conflict between two energy directions—and that conflict is the pain itself. In that moment, the "person" needs to drop everything and immediately move toward balance. Balancing the energy field is true healing. Healing, by its very definition, is the process of returning closed cells to an open state. Through this balancing, cells that lost faith in the organism as a whole regain that lost trust. This "convincing" process takes anywhere from thirty seconds to a few minutes, and the results are measurable in terms of HEALTH. We'll get to that later.

How exactly do you perform this balancing of the energy field? I’ve asked this before, but I haven't received an answer. I am unsure if you simply forgot amidst the heat of the debate, or perhaps...

Matthew Evans said:I present my Self-knowledge exactly how I see fit. If the way I deliver it—or what I'm actually saying—doesn't sit right with you (if it doesn't pass through whatever bias-filter you're using to process reality)... then don't read it. (The moment you see my name, just skip it, RUN). What I write isn't specifically targeted at you; obviously, it's meant for whoever needs to read it exactly as it stands. Period.

If you wrote any differently, I wouldn't even bother reading you. Thanks for that.

To be "right"—what does that even mean? Who knows; there is no need for external validation.
Expressing one's views and sharing insights is noble.
Defending those views, however, inherently implies an attack.
Feeling attacked suggests there is nothing outside of oneself.

Matthew Evans said:A Being, when viewed as an absolute—since an absolute is essentially its own "whole"—is fundamentally incapable of being harmed. The only kind of "harm" that actually exists is what manifests as a lived experience. So, really, you can only "damage" the quality of a single experience. But even that isn't true damage; it’s just the potential of Idea and Choice unfolding through a "negative" manifestation from Unconscious Corp.

Look, when a Being faces the sensation of being "harmed," and they start feeling like someone else’s actions—or even just the very framework that defines them as a subject—have turned them into a "victim," it tells you something specific. It’s a sign that the Being is first and foremost Self-unaware. Beyond that, it shows they lack an understanding of the underlying principles and the actual mechanics by which Self-Being constructs its own experience.

So, if I’m feeling like a "victim" right now, it’s just a sign that I’m hitting the realization phase of an initial Idea. Here’s how it works: you start with a pure intention or a soul-level plan, you distort that intention, and then you mistake that distortion for reality itself. That twist in the original Idea manifests as nothing but negativity or negation in our actual experience. The only way we manage to warp an intention is by fully identifying with the subject. When we go all-in on the subject, our Will and our attention get sucked into that central point—into the subject's own reason. From there, everything else—every object, every event—is perceived as being "outside" of us. It becomes something external to our intellect, something that either serves our pleasure or poses a direct threat to our existence. In this state, a Being doesn't actually have the freedom of Idea and Choice regarding the possibilities life throws at them. Instead, they fall into a sort of Unconscious Corp state, merely reacting to whatever motive hits them the hardest. We call that "necessity," but it's really just a lack of perspective. At the same time, every report of an action taken in this little drama gets processed through that centralized mind. The subject takes those reports, filters them through their specific mental framework, and generates reactions designed to justify their interpretation of the whole process. In this headspace, a Being becomes purely emotional. As long as the projection aligns with their existing beliefs, they feel fine. But the moment the balance shifts—the moment they start fearing for their own survival—something that was once a close friend can instantly turn into a blood enemy.

When you look at an action report within a projection, you always end up facing the Being. It doesn't matter where that Being decides to set up its Center. But here’s the thing: that report only hits you as a "feeling" when the Being positions its center *above* the subject-object relationship projection. Now, don't confuse this with basic emotions. Emotions can be positive or negative, sure, but their purpose is different. Typical emotionality is just a defense mechanism—it's the mind trying to shield the Being from the "outside world" when things get uncomfortable. This feeling isn't about protection. Its sole purpose is to act as an instant red flag. When a negative feeling arises, it's a signal that the projection of the intended soul has become distorted. It means the Being has fallen headfirst into its own projection, identifying so deeply with the subject of the action that the distinction is lost. Once that happens, free choice is effectively dead.

In that scenario, the Being instantly pulls itself out of the subject position. It looks down at the entire subject-object projection from above—viewing it all as a single result of its own Idea and Choice. This shift drags the individual back into a state of consciousness where, within a timeless existence, they can actually make a new, conscious choice. A conscious choice is one where you understand the consequences; it’s the kind of manifestation where the Being feels a sense of harmony with everything else in existence. Any choice that results in chaos, or causes "harm" to someone or something, suggests that the Being has fallen into a deep sleep. It means those core ethical values—the ones an individual always carries within themselves—have been forgotten or suppressed. In their place, new values have been installed. These aren't true values; they are just logical conclusions built without any Absolute Knowledge present in the individual's Consciousness. They exist solely to serve the systems of belief that rule over a Being stuck in that lower state.

Illness is just what happens after an Unconscious Corp makes a choice—specifically, a long string of them. It’s a disruption in the balance of the body's energy field. These disruptions come from blockages, and those blockages? They’re just fear manifesting at a cellular level. But here’s the thing: just as sickness builds itself up, it can be dismantled. To get rid of illness, you have to focus on BALANCING THE ENERGY FIELD. Instead of chasing symptoms, you should have a routine for balancing that field—essentially, maintaining HEALTH. Balancing keeps the system running at its peak. When the body is operating optimally, energy flows through it without hitting any walls. That’s when a person feels Healthy; they don't feel their "physicality" as a burden, but rather use it as a seamless tool to interact with the world around them.

Pain, for instance, isn't actually a disease. I'm talking about initial pain. Pain is designed to be an alarm—a signal that a Being needs to instinctively trigger a period of BALANCING. It's a sign that a blockage has formed. It’s also a sign that we’ve neglected our energy field, perhaps for a long time or maybe never at all. It means our thoughts have convinced our cells that their survival is under threat. Fear is an active architect of these blockages; it tries to protect an isolated cell, but instead of shielding it, it causes the cell to withdraw from the rest of the organism. By choosing to shut down, it kills the natural flow of energy. When energy can't find its natural path from point A to point B, it tries to force an alternative route, creating a conflict between two energy directions—and that conflict is the pain itself. In that moment, the "person" needs to drop everything and immediately move toward balance. Balancing the energy field is true healing. Healing, by its very definition, is the process of returning closed cells to an open state. Through this balancing, cells that lost faith in the organism as a whole regain that lost trust. This "convincing" process takes anywhere from thirty seconds to a few minutes, and the results are measurable in terms of HEALTH. We'll get to that later.

Well done.🙏 I find myself in agreement with everything you have written, though I cannot say how close or distant my own understanding remains to yours. I want to say that while the logic is perfectly clear, I lack the lived experience of oneness. Every day I ask myself how much further I have to go; occasionally, I manage to reach a state free of thought, and in those moments, I feel that anything is possible within that space. I desperately wish to recognize the illusion so that it might vanish.
What interests me, however, is how one actually approaches the balancing you describe? I am aware that reaching that level is essential. Everyone finds their own path based on their specific pursuits, and flashes of insight arrive in proportion to the intensity of one's desire for them.