Posts by Amanda Wood2

Hell yeah!

Thanks for all the replies, everyone.

Getting out into nature and hanging with people who aren't constantly judging me or stuck in some depressing headspace... honestly, that was exactly what I needed.

I guess it’s pretty clear now that constant negativity and depression just drag me right down into the dirt.

Found some killer advice and solid explanations in a few of these comments.

Anyway, thanks again.

David Vaughn75 said:Look, I’m not really big on psychology myself—I tend to lean more toward psychiatrists since they feel a bit closer to actual hard science, you know?

I need help... what should I do?

Honestly? You’re feeling empty because you’re looking for fulfillment.

The stuff that used to make you feel whole just doesn't cut it anymore because you've grown up. As you get older, you start seeing the world through a much more realistic lens, and let's face it—that perspective sucks sometimes. The goal now is to work with some pros to find something new that actually resonates with who you are now.
I don't know about you, but back when I was hitting rock bottom, leaning into spirituality and religion really helped pull me through—just throwing that out there as an example. Maybe it’s traveling, maybe it’s getting a dog, I'm just rambling here, but everyone finds their own way to fill that void.

Yeah. I feel hollow. No time for a pet.
Trying to get into spirituality, but... something's holding me back.

Donna White50 said:Are you actually happy with your job and everything you've achieved?
How's the relationship with your parents, and how much does that mess with your head?
Do you feel like you're lacking direction now? Like, maybe once you hit the goals of getting a degree and a solid career, you realized "okay, I did that, now what?"
What about romance, a partner, or even just close friends?
What specifically triggers the sadness? What goes through your mind when it hits? Are there certain thoughts or events that weigh on you, or is it just a general cloud?

Look, you grew up in a rough house. The real question is: what kind of leftover baggage are you still carrying around inside because you had to spend all your energy just surviving back then..?
We all get bored or feel like life is meaningless sometimes, but it shouldn't turn into a chronic thing. Usually, we stay busy with life, hobbies, relationships... and just keep moving...
Did you maybe expect that checking off the boxes—finishing school, landing the big job—would suddenly bring this massive wave of fulfillment?
It doesn't work like that. Satisfaction has to come from within. You've gotta learn to love yourself, including all the messy parts...

Thanks for the reply.
Honestly, I'm not even sure if I'm satisfied anymore.
The moment I actually made it in my career—I mean, I became the youngest director at a massive corporation at 27—everything else fell apart. My friends bailed, and so did my boyfriend. I came home with champagne to celebrate, only to find him packing his bags. He's one of those guys who can't handle a woman being more successful than him. Some friends turned jealous, and others just decided we had nothing left to talk about.
As for my parents? There's nothing there. My dad thinks I'm incompetent and stupid, and he makes sure I know it. My mom is just terrified to say anything or stand up to him.
I had big dreams—running ultramarathons, getting a PhD, becoming an executive, buying a house, traveling... I hit most of those marks, or they're right on the horizon. I've even got new goals, but clearly, I haven't figured out how to navigate this world yet.
I end my days crying in a massive silk bed.

When I'm sad, what am I thinking about? Just how much I miss having someone to lean on and hold me.

Hey everyone.

For the last few years, I’ve been dealing with this endless sadness that actually turns into physical pain and health issues.
When I finally get my head on straight, I know I *should* be happy, but this feeling just destroys me.
I grew up in a house with an aggressive father, and I definitely see the fallout from his outbursts. I moved out at 17 and worked my tail off while finishing school—cleaning toilets every morning and waitressing on weekends. I kept grinding through college just to pay my way. By 23, right after graduation, I was just chronically exhausted and totally drained. Then, things seemed to "work out"—I landed this amazing job that required moving back to my hometown. And, like, on paper everything is fine. I'm young, I'm fit, I have money, I built it all myself... but I'm sad. Just endlessly, deeply sad.
I saw a therapist who basically told me I need to figure out what I want from life and just "stop" this feeling.
I used to love pushing my body to the limit, but not anymore... I go 62 miles (literally) and there's zero rush left.
I'm just done. Done with life, people, ambition (theirs), everyone else's expectations, and this total emotional void.
I need help... what do I even do?