Posts by Larry Lewis

If it’s all built on lies, then the whole thing isn't worth a single damn cent.

I’m asking you—what actually holds any real value?

Noah Garcia4 said:Oh, please 🤣 I’ve been stuck on this diet for a full month now ☕

Trying to drop weight while you're on medication is an uphill battle—an absolute slog. And let's be honest, most diets aren't even remotely healthy, though I am fully aware that they're a total no-go
when you're pushing yourself through intense physical activity.

But you did mention you're seeing some progress, albeit slow... and honestly, slow and steady is the only way to do it safely. Everyone knows that much—it's common sense, really—but still.

Noah Garcia4 said:Honestly, I’m not feeling much shame either—except maybe when I look in the mirror and realize I've let myself go.☕

Buci Buci 🙂

Then just lose the weight already 😒

Noah Garcia4 said:Where on earth did Altec get the idea that everyone else operates exactly like they do? 😒

That’s not quite how my mind works—though I suppose I can see why one might think so—but frankly, I have absolutely no reason to feel ashamed of my actions or who I am as a person.😉

I'm honestly not sure if I'll make it—life being the chaotic mess it is—but I'll definitely give you a heads-up either way.

Eric Mitchell55 said:I think I’ll hang in there for a little while longer; for now, I’m just powering through on some Xanax and seeing how it goes...
It feels like my therapist might be away on vacation or something, so I'll probably just tough it out for a bit. It isn't turning out to be quite as bad as I expected it would be. 🕺

Trust me, you're better off ramping up the AP than choking down Xanax.

Eric Mitchell55 said:I actually stopped working already... 🕺

It’s not so bad that I can't handle life, per se, but it definitely gets in the way sometimes. I'll probably hang in there until my next appointment with my therapist, though I might just head in sooner if it gets worse.

Go earlier if you can.

Eric Mitchell55 said:Oh, it’s been a while... maybe two or two and a half months now.

Are you still working? I mean, please tell me it isn't because you're pushing yourself too hard.

What kind of paranoia are we talking about here? Because if this is actually getting heavy, you really ought to up your dosage.

Eric Mitchell55 said:I’ve been feeling pretty paranoid lately, and honestly, I’m just feeling kind of fragile. I actually have an appointment with my therapist in two weeks, so hopefully that helps settle things down a bit...

When was the last time you actually felt sane?

hollowpuma762 said:Death is an illusion.

While you're busy sweating over the illusion of non-existence, you're just flushing your precious time right down the drain.

The reality is that death is very much real—and frankly, the fact that you're terrified of it is the only thing proving you're actually alive. ☕

It’s looking up—the intrusive thoughts aren't hitting nearly as hard anymore, which makes me think I actually hit the sweet spot when I dialed back the dosage
of my AP. I managed to wean myself off the Lorazepam using Rivotril.

I actually managed to charm a psychiatrist into writing me a prescription for the Rivotril without making me pay$117 for a full consultation, and even though she was a little bit
condescending and went back on her word at one point—not that it matters much since she ultimately came through for me—it worked out.

How are you all holding up?

Noah Garcia4 said:Maybe we should just let Altec run🤣

Run from him—the guy’s absolutely unhinged 🤣

I won't be able to make it today—sadly. You all have a blast without me!

Robin Lopez2 said:So, are you saying Noah Garcia4 needs to find Smith to get a boyfriend?

Needs to?

Smith?

I haven't the slightest clue what we're even talking about here...

Forget about schizophrenia—these other people have actually lost their minds 🎉

jadeharbor81 said:keep it up—just watch the diet, get those walks in, and maybe cut back on the white bread lol🎉🎉🎉

you down to talk more about that stretch when you were trying everything?🤔

Come on, take it easy on me, will you?

Noah Garcia4 said:Well, I’ve already spent my energy typing out the whole saga of where I’ve been, so I was basically on my feet and moving from half-past six until now.🥱

I get it, really I do, but we aren't supposed to be having this kind of side conversation here. 😒

Noah Garcia4 said:My legs have been feeling all shaky and weak since about 7:30, so 🥱
Oh, by the way, did you hear about that tragedy at the Medical School in Jankić? Some guy and a girl managed to take their own lives there, and I honestly can't wrap my head around how they pulled it off :curious:
The guy was around forty—well, he would have been—and the girl was somewhere in her thirties. May they rest in peace, though meanwhile, I'm just over here looking for a comfortable bed

Just get some sleep so your brain can actually reset... goodnight.

Noah Garcia4 said:Why bother wasting our breath on more arguments? It’s not like we can actually afford to see a psychiatrist every time my temper flares up anyway. Sure, they have plenty of money, but they certainly aren't sharing any of it with us. Hah.
So my uncle finally made it back from Canada, and he’s already out there dropping ten grand on some antique Bible like he’s trying to buy his way into heaven.
And I'm hanging out with my old man today, too. 🙂 I’m picking up some flip-flops for the beach trip, and I'm about to settle the bill. $43 So he’s out here claiming he would never drop that kind of cash on some girls from overseas, yet somehow he managed to pick up a brand-new Chevy and the latest iPhone while I was stuck in the hospital. Apparently, there’s just no budget left in his life for me. Well, fine. I’m heading to see Billy Idol this Monday, and I'll be doing it in his honor. ☕ I've spent quite a bit of time watching this video, and I find myself sitting here trying to reconcile the sheer intensity of what’s being presented with the reality of how we actually function in everyday life. It feels a bit like watching someone attempt to run a marathon through a swamp while wearing heavy combat boots—it's an incredible display of grit, certainly, but you have to wonder about the long-term sustainability of that kind of mental strain. There's a certain poetic weight to the way they frame the struggle, almost like a modern parable, yet it leaves me questioning whether we are romanticizing the grind at the expense of actual logic. It’s one thing to push through a difficult moment, but it’s another entirely to build a lifestyle around constant friction, much like how some people insist on driving a vintage muscle car through a blizzard just to prove they can handle the steering. You have to ask if the payoff is worth the inevitable breakdown.

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