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My apologies, friends—I completely blanked there. But honestly, what are you even going to do with a massive social circle? Like Charles Anderson6 pointed out, having just one true friend is plenty. You just need someone you can actually talk to, and that’s enough.
I don't even have the bandwidth to see all my own friends, so there's no way you're going to manage that when you're juggling this many responsibilities and setbacks.
Reading what you wrote, I can only say that you are an incredibly BRAVE person. You asked where you find the strength to pull all this off? Honestly, you already answered that yourself. You’ve managed to overcome every single one of those heavy situations, and that’s where your power comes from.
As someone who isn't even close to facing the kind of struggles you are, I can tell you that I truly admire your determination to keep moving forward and keep fighting. It proves that it really can be done.
In my humble opinion, I would tackle things from the bottom up. Start by seeing what you can fix with your husband, then look toward your family to see if there's any chance for change or potential happiness there (as for that upcoming loss, I don't think any of us can tell you how to handle that—everyone processes grief differently). The way I see it, death doesn't always have to feel like an ending; if that person has been suffering for such a long time, maybe it's time to start finding peace with that reality?
Regarding your job, if you can manage it, I’d suggest sticking it out for those 8 hours just to secure a steady paycheck, while spending every other waking moment searching for something new. That’s exactly what I would do. If your finances allow for it, though, just quit and take a few months to yourself to get all these pieces of your life sorted out.
Life can feel incredibly heavy and complicated sometimes, but at the end of the day, things turn out as good or as bad as we make them.
Best of luck 🙂