Posts by silenttinker

Look, I’ll just be honest—I struggle with socializing, and honestly, the whole concept of "socializing" itself is a massive headache for me.😎

Chris Cooper5 said:I have this issue where whenever I try to join a group of people who have known each other forever and they're already deep in some conversation I know nothing about, I just... I don't know how to jump in. It feels like I'm forcing myself on them, you know? I always end up feeling awkward or just plain stupid, and then they just keep talking amongst themselves like I wasn't even there. Also, I can't stand those people who just talk and talk without ever letting anyone else get a word in because they aren't actually interested in listening. But then again, it feels like nobody ever wants to listen to me either. I guess I don't really get why that is. Can anyone help? I usually just stay quiet, but when I finally do say something, I immediately regret it. 😢

Oh, and I should probably mention that I don't really have any friends. My doctor actually referred me to psychotherapy because my social life is basically non-existent, but I don't have the money to pay for it. 😢

It’s like... I feel like a ghost walking among people, like nobody actually sees me. Even if I do manage to hang out with someone, it never even gets to the point where we swap numbers. On top of that, I struggle because most people just aren't really my type of person to be friends with. It's not that I'm being picky or anything, I just... I can't find common ground. Maybe it's because I deal with depression and I expect too much from people, I guess. Once, back in summer school, I met my absolute best friend. We were together constantly for fifteen days, and I've never felt that kind of connection before or since. But then we went our separate ways, and since she lives in another state now, we've only seen each other once more. 😢

I feel this on such a deep level.😁

It doesn't even have to be about breaking into an existing conversation, either—sometimes it's just being around people and realizing you have absolutely nothing to say to them. Maybe I'm just overthinking it, maybe I'm not, but sometimes when you just drop by to see your coworkers for a bit, you realize there really isn't much common ground to actually talk about.

I am honestly just floored by how casually she treats antipsychotics—acting like she can just pop them whenever she feels like it, almost like she's sucking on a pacifier or something. Can someone who actually knows their way around a pharmacy please explain to her just how dangerous it is to take medication that wasn't even prescribed for you in the first place?
Or maybe I’m just totally missing something here—maybe the heavy-duty brain chemistry stuff is completely harmless and we should just be handing it out to kids instead of candy 🙄