Posts by cosmicbison5

Honestly, I’m at the point where I just want to curl up and nap right alongside my Golden Retriever. We are both absolutely melting under this heatwave. There are still 18 days left until the due date, and I don't know how much longer I can wait... If this weather keeps baking us like this, I won't be able to go anywhere during the day, and even the nights aren't providing much relief. It's impossible to get comfortable; I'm constantly sweating, thirsty, and my legs feel like lead weights. My ankles and knees are just terrible 😢 and they're driving me crazy—as is everyone else around me, especially the people I run into at the grocery store or out in town. They're killing me with those mindless comments like, "Are you really still showing that little?" or "Why aren't you in the hospital yet?" or "When are we actually going to celebrate?" Just absolute nonsense!!!!!! And then, to top it all off, I end up spiraling into my own paranoia!!!! I just need everything to go smoothly with the baby; I'll worry about my own recovery later. I have my check-up this Friday, so we'll see how things are looking then.

My legs have been absolutely swollen since Monday—all because of that marathon shopping trip!!! Then, just yesterday, we had my mom’s birthday celebration at our cabin in the Catskills, so once again, I haven't had a single moment to actually rest. I honestly started to panic yesterday when I realized my fingers were starting to swell up too; my mood just completely tanked, though I tried my best to hide it so no one would notice!! Especially not my husband. Now, I’m just lying here, doing nothing but loading and unloading the washing machine over and over! Today is strictly laundry day for me. And oh man... I have a doctor's appointment on Monday, and I'm terrified I'm going to hear exactly what I've been dreading—that I'm dealing with some kind of inflammation and need to be on strict bed rest!!!!

My legs are feeling alright today, thank God—no swelling so far. And I am really, truly hoping it stays that way.
I’ve been trying to psych myself up! We were supposed to head into Washington, D.C. for some shopping, but honestly, I just can't find the motivation. It's not even a massive drive, but once you factor in the hour on the road plus the actual shopping itself... ugh. Then I remember that I actually *need* to buy things because we have wedding guests arriving in just three weeks... and suddenly, everything feels incredibly overwhelming. I feel like I might just faint right here. If I had my way, I’d stay holed up at home for the next six or seven weeks and avoid people entirely. Not to mention how desperately I’m counting down the days until all of this is over and I can finally just hold my baby!
ARGH, summer and pregnancy.

Starting from the feet up... Good grief, my legs flared up yesterday and they feel like solid blocks of concrete. Nothing seems to touch the pain, and it hurts sooooo much...
I’ve honestly been feeling so lucky up until now, so I’m just praying I merely overexerted myself a little. I really hope this passes soon so they don't keep feeling like heavy stones :/
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa 😢