crimsonbadger25 said:Hey. I'm 18. My issue is that I have absolutely no clue what to do with my life—honestly, there are moments where I regret even being alive. I know people say I'm young, but it feels like I've already seen everything there is to see; I'm just bored with existence. Nothing fulfills me. I’m stuck in a constant state of depression, and even when I stumble upon something that actually sparks my interest, it loses its charm within a day or two. My opinions shift constantly, and frankly, I feel completely lost. On top of that, I've been struggling with social interaction for a few years now—I can't even look someone in the eye or hold a conversation without this intense wave of anxiety hitting me. I've even had suicidal thoughts, mostly because I feel like nobody would even notice if I were gone—it's like I don't impact anyone, and no one truly sees me. I probably just look like a loser to everyone else. I used to be fine, but this state of mind has been my reality for three years now, and I am genuinely at a loss. I don't know if I need to see a psychiatrist or if I'm dealing with some kind of clinical disorder (?). Please, just whatever you do, don't tell me "it's just a phase" or give me the "you're young, you'll grow out of it" speech... because I know it isn't. I know exactly how I feel. I'm posting this here because I didn't know where else to turn, though maybe a psychiatric clinic really is my best bet. 😢
Thanks in advance for any advice or input you can offer.
Also, sometimes my fantasies serve as an escape from reality—movies or music act as a way to check out. I spend a lot of time daydreaming and living in my own head, wondering "what if," but maybe that isn't the real problem since it actually helps me relax...
Oh, that is absolutely a problem.
Escapism. Man, I do the exact same thing, unfortunately. Life just throws way too much crap at you sometimes, and there’s just too much missing. So then, you watch this movie or this show, and you honestly just wish it was your actual life—that you were living *that* life instead of this one—and it just eats you up inside. Then everything you do is just a Quincy, sadly, just a total Quincy.
You've gotta set yourself a goal. Just take it one step at a time. Don't know what the goal is? Don't know what you want? Well, start doing the things you dream about! Turn those fantasized moments into reality. For example, I'm trying to fix my health, because I haven't had a decent handle on it for years and sitting at my computer all day dreaming about stuff has totally wrecked me. But I'm over it. I'm taking all those dreams I've been building up for years and I'm gonna turn as much of them into real life as I can.
Life lesson: Be happy with what you've got, instead of being miserable over what you don't.
Just keep pushing forward! 👍