Losing a loved one: "Life just doesn't feel worth it anymore
in Spirituality ·
My husband died suddenly almost 16 months ago. He was only 33. It happened right in my arms.
We have a son, he’s almost 5 now.
I’ve been through it all—the shock, the numbness that led me to make some pretty stupid decisions, the endless grief, the isolation...
Sometimes I just sit there wondering what the hell the point even is. We had plans, goals, we were even talking about having a second kid. At weddings, they always say "what God joins together, let no man put asunder," but it feels like God did the separating himself.
But I’ve got this kid, so I have to keep it together for him. Even if there are days when I just want to lie down and give up on everything. Like the other day, my son tells me his friends at preschool all have dads, and he doesn't. He says he's unhappy and wants a different dad. My heart just shatters instantly when he says stuff like that.
We have a son, he’s almost 5 now.
I’ve been through it all—the shock, the numbness that led me to make some pretty stupid decisions, the endless grief, the isolation...
Sometimes I just sit there wondering what the hell the point even is. We had plans, goals, we were even talking about having a second kid. At weddings, they always say "what God joins together, let no man put asunder," but it feels like God did the separating himself.
But I’ve got this kid, so I have to keep it together for him. Even if there are days when I just want to lie down and give up on everything. Like the other day, my son tells me his friends at preschool all have dads, and he doesn't. He says he's unhappy and wants a different dad. My heart just shatters instantly when he says stuff like that.