Posts by Ethan Ortiz83

Ethan Ortiz83 said:.....it’s just not right having someone constantly riding my back.....🙂

hehehe, obviously it isn't fair, especially since you're basically the king of being a total jerk😉....I see you decided to toss those *dark vibes* aside for a bit today, so you better start stacking up all that good energy now so things feel a little easier on you later on

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Ethan Ortiz83 said:this whole thing goes without saying........👍 🙏 😘

but look, we’re diving back into this tomorrow or by Monday at the latest because just saying "it goes without saying" isn't cutting it, so you’re gonna have to give me a real, deep answer and make a serious commitment to yourself to actually fix the situation you've found yourself in.....

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kegi said:Thanks, man... and as for that whole green hobby thing... I'm done with it, but I'm definitely not backing down either.😁

That little smiley face is way too soft for this, you gotta throw in a knockout punch icon... honestly though, how do you expect to actually tackle life's problems when you can't even turn *that* down?

Look, once you actually decide to grow a backbone and start sticking to those new resolutions you keep talking about—assuming you ever actually make them—that’s when things are finally going to get easier for you.

Just imagine if all these big ideas you have for your future business are nothing more than pipe dreams because you’re out here acting like your life is some kind of simulation instead of actually happening to you right now, so you better WAKE UP!!!!!!!

Ethan Ortiz83 said:and then it hits me.......that if I didn't get worked up......then I'd know I didn't actually care......if I didn't cry......I'd know I wasn't really human......if I didn't grieve....I'd know I didn't understand how to love....but since all those things are part of who I am............then I have to be happy...because I love......I am human.........I give a damn.........

but it takes some serious time to really convince yourself of that truth......but all of this together...it tells me that I'm alive...because without all this chaos and bullshit.......I'd just be a dead man walking.......and even though I feel spiritually drained right now.......it actually gives me strength...because I know I'm living....that I want better for myself......and I'm chasing it..with everything I've got, heart and soul.......

.......I don't know, I can only guess what the actual, single biggest issue is....the real question is just how much longer you're gonna stay stuck in this headspace and whether you've actually got the grit to endure it.
......you seriously need to talk to someone about this...otherwise you're just gonna keep spinning your wheels in circles, because it's pretty obvious you don't have enough confidence or the sheer willpower to trust the answers to the questions that keep popping up in your head.
.....if you catch a glimpse of a positive way out somewhere deep in the fog of your own mind, just make the call and take that path...nobody else is ever going to tell you what the truth is or what the right move is besides yourself.

...good luck, man.

PS....cut back on that *green hobby* of yours by at least 70%.