Living with OCD
in Health ·
Ugh, I totally blanked... I’ve got this weird, non-stop obsession with reading license plates on cars passing by. It's like my brain just won't shut up about it.
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Living with OCD
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Heh, here’s another one for the books...
Washing my hands: gotta lather up three times, no exceptions.
Then there's the breathing thing—I think I mentioned this on the forum before, but basically, I have to flare my nostrils just right so every inhale is perfectly even.
And the dirt? Man, the filth around me is just unbearable. Everywhere I look, everything feels impossibly, endlessly dirty. Just... everywhere.
There's also this specific way I have to touch things.
Oh, and the laundry situation. If I haven't worn something since the last time it was washed—even if it's clean, pressed, and sitting neatly in the closet—but then I accidentally brush against it with my elbow? Boom. Back in the wash.
Checking the stove, too. Making sure it's actually off, over and over.
There's plenty more where that came from, honestly. Tons.
I've been treated for hypochondria, but I don't think I ever truly got "cured."
And those two? They're like the perfect match. 🙂
The anxiety is huge. Constant intrusive thoughts.
I try to keep my weird little rituals and needs under wraps, though it’s pretty much impossible to hide stuff like obsessively re-washing clean clothes from the people I live with.🙂
Washing my hands: gotta lather up three times, no exceptions.
Then there's the breathing thing—I think I mentioned this on the forum before, but basically, I have to flare my nostrils just right so every inhale is perfectly even.
And the dirt? Man, the filth around me is just unbearable. Everywhere I look, everything feels impossibly, endlessly dirty. Just... everywhere.
There's also this specific way I have to touch things.
Oh, and the laundry situation. If I haven't worn something since the last time it was washed—even if it's clean, pressed, and sitting neatly in the closet—but then I accidentally brush against it with my elbow? Boom. Back in the wash.
Checking the stove, too. Making sure it's actually off, over and over.
There's plenty more where that came from, honestly. Tons.
I've been treated for hypochondria, but I don't think I ever truly got "cured."
And those two? They're like the perfect match. 🙂
The anxiety is huge. Constant intrusive thoughts.
I try to keep my weird little rituals and needs under wraps, though it’s pretty much impossible to hide stuff like obsessively re-washing clean clothes from the people I live with.🙂
OCD: General Discussion Thread
in Psychology & Therapy ·
So, this is my first time posting on this forum...
and honestly, I picked the perfect thread to dive into.🙂
Yeah, I’ve definitely got issues... been dealing with this since puberty, like ten years now...
Some days are okay, some are total nightmares... right now? I'm in a really bad headspace...
Like, when I wash my hands—which is basically all the time—I have to lather up three times or I just lose it. I try so hard to stop myself from doing the full triple scrub, but I can't help it... then there's the counting things, the symmetry stuff... you know how it goes, it just grips me. But the absolute worst part is my breathing. I have to pinch my nose shut so I can inhale an equal number of times through both sides. It sounds crazy, I can't even explain it properly. Usually, I notice I start doing it while I'm deep in thought, reading, or just watching TV; I start subconsciously, but then I'm hyper-aware and keep forcing it... weird.🙄
Another thing is the touching. So many objects are off-limits because they're "dirty" and others aren't... and that's actually my biggest hurdle. It drains so much of my focus, my energy, and just eats up my whole day...
Then there's this constant, crushing feeling that everyone is staring at me. It drives me insane. I start sweating, turning bright red, it's just impossible...
My boyfriend thinks I'm nuts, and I do a pretty good job of hiding it from my parents, though it's getting harder to keep up the act...
There's more, too, but my brain is blanking on everything else right now.🙂
But if I didn't have these rituals, I feel like I'd have zero control over anything...
Ugh, sorry for the massive rant...
and honestly, I picked the perfect thread to dive into.🙂
Yeah, I’ve definitely got issues... been dealing with this since puberty, like ten years now...
Some days are okay, some are total nightmares... right now? I'm in a really bad headspace...
Like, when I wash my hands—which is basically all the time—I have to lather up three times or I just lose it. I try so hard to stop myself from doing the full triple scrub, but I can't help it... then there's the counting things, the symmetry stuff... you know how it goes, it just grips me. But the absolute worst part is my breathing. I have to pinch my nose shut so I can inhale an equal number of times through both sides. It sounds crazy, I can't even explain it properly. Usually, I notice I start doing it while I'm deep in thought, reading, or just watching TV; I start subconsciously, but then I'm hyper-aware and keep forcing it... weird.🙄
Another thing is the touching. So many objects are off-limits because they're "dirty" and others aren't... and that's actually my biggest hurdle. It drains so much of my focus, my energy, and just eats up my whole day...
Then there's this constant, crushing feeling that everyone is staring at me. It drives me insane. I start sweating, turning bright red, it's just impossible...
My boyfriend thinks I'm nuts, and I do a pretty good job of hiding it from my parents, though it's getting harder to keep up the act...
There's more, too, but my brain is blanking on everything else right now.🙂
But if I didn't have these rituals, I feel like I'd have zero control over anything...
Ugh, sorry for the massive rant...