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I totally blanked for a second here....
The whole crux of the thing is this idea that you can somehow achieve way more than what’s actually possible for you, you know?
And apparently—if you buy into the hype—your physical strength supposedly spikes too.
But let's be real: since it's all based on wishful thinking rather than actual, hard facts,
you eventually wake up and realize the whole thing was just total bullshit.
Dammit, depression again. Just... depression.
I feel like I'm going to lose my mind.
When I'm down in the dumps, everything feels miserable, but when the mania kicks in? Well, then I'm just driving everyone else absolutely insane.
But here’s the kicker—even after all this, I still don't actually want to be "normal."
Because if this chaos is all I've got, why would I trade it?
It's my dear, sweet illness.
Besides, let's be real—"normal" people are mostly just corrupt anyway.
Look, let's be real—every guy out there just wants one thing, and there's zero actual depth to it.
Forums aren't exactly a healthy space for someone living with schizophrenia.
Basically, when you have schizophrenia, the world feels like this massive, fake construct—and look, I’m speaking for myself here, not making a blanket statement for every single person dealing with this.
On a forum like this, you have absolutely no idea who anyone actually is, which is just disastrous for a brain that already struggles to distinguish what's real from what isn't.
Again, just my own experience talking.
Bernarda really did pass away in the first ward at the local psychiatric hospital.
Since my last name happens to be Starčević, I’ve always had a soft spot for Star Trek.
It would have been nice if I could at least use a forum to say something meaningful about schizophrenia, since they wouldn't let me get a word in on TV.
But even here, people just tore me apart—exactly like my doctor warned me would happen.
Actually, it wasn't even subtle; they just came straight for me.
It just reinforced that paranoid, schizophrenic feeling I have—that the world is an inherently unsafe and dangerous place.
"Normal" people spend their whole lives fighting to carve out their own little corner of the planet.
By the time they hit my age—29—they’ve already mastered these complex systems of bullshit and lies, both to themselves and everyone else, just to survive.
I'm just one of 6.5 billion people, and I'll find my way somehow.
Anthony Sanders53 said:Nah, I'm not... though it feels like we are, even if we haven't made it official or anything.
So you guys live together?
@Taylor Campbell4 if I can even ask—why on earth does briskgull27 refuse to listen to the doctors when they’re literally the only ones actually helping her?
So, my cousin deals with this specific condition, but honestly? We never really notice anything "off" about her behavior—it just feels like she’s constantly making excuses to slack off or being straight-up disrespectful.