Living with depression, anxiety, and an eating disorder
in Psychology ·
I completely get you. I went through the exact same thing at one point. I remember having one absolutely miserable summer, and after that, I decided I had to do something because staying the course was no longer an option. I felt like I was sinking deeper and deeper every day. It’s a terrible feeling. To be honest, my mom was the one who actually initiated things; I just realized that continuing like this made zero sense. So, I started seeing a psychologist—well, my mom basically booked the appointment for me. Right from the first session, I didn't click with the woman. I thought therapy was a waste of time. But then a miracle happened: she went on vacation, and I ended up seeing her colleague instead. We clicked instantly. She was the first person who actually seemed to understand what I was going through. She didn't treat me like some spoiled brat; she saw that I was genuinely navigating a difficult chapter in my life.
Within just a month, my life underwent incredible changes. It sounds hyperbolic, but it was true. I didn't suddenly become a ray of sunshine, but I actually started resolving things. Then, after three months of therapy, my therapist went on medical leave, and I saw a psychiatrist. That woman told me pretty much the same thing your therapist said to you—that I was just lazy... blah, blah, blah. I saw her three times total, and every single time I left feeling worse. She practically drove me to tears.
When my original psychologist finally returned, I was relieved. I went to therapy regularly, about once a week for the first year, and then less frequently after that.
Bottom line: a good therapist can change your life, but a bad one can absolutely wreck you.
I was lucky enough to have my insurance cover my sessions, but even if you currently have a low opinion of yourself and feel like you don't deserve to spend those $33 a week on therapy, you are dead wrong. Your mental health is paramount. Save money on clothes or whatever else, but invest in this. It will pay off.
Productive people are more efficient, so you'll eventually make that money back to your mom anyway.🙂
Right now, I'm planning to invest $767 in a meditation retreat. It's only a week long. It's not like I have money to burn, but I believe in working on myself. Personal fulfillment is incredibly important.
The frustrating part is that the path to feeling better is literally step by step. But if you stay persistent, you can get there.
People have commented on how much I've changed. It took time, though. I'm calmer now, and simple things actually bring me joy again—like grabbing drinks with friends or going out.
I still have periods where I get depressed or put on a little weight. But it doesn't scare me anymore. I think it's normal. We can't be happy all the time.
Just keep trying and stay consistent, and everything will work out.🙂 Even if it feels impossible right now. You'll see.
This crisis will pass. Just find a professional who can help you feel better. And go to therapy more often. Once a month isn't nearly enough when you're truly depressed.
Wish you all the best!🙂
Within just a month, my life underwent incredible changes. It sounds hyperbolic, but it was true. I didn't suddenly become a ray of sunshine, but I actually started resolving things. Then, after three months of therapy, my therapist went on medical leave, and I saw a psychiatrist. That woman told me pretty much the same thing your therapist said to you—that I was just lazy... blah, blah, blah. I saw her three times total, and every single time I left feeling worse. She practically drove me to tears.
When my original psychologist finally returned, I was relieved. I went to therapy regularly, about once a week for the first year, and then less frequently after that.
Bottom line: a good therapist can change your life, but a bad one can absolutely wreck you.
I was lucky enough to have my insurance cover my sessions, but even if you currently have a low opinion of yourself and feel like you don't deserve to spend those $33 a week on therapy, you are dead wrong. Your mental health is paramount. Save money on clothes or whatever else, but invest in this. It will pay off.
Productive people are more efficient, so you'll eventually make that money back to your mom anyway.🙂
Right now, I'm planning to invest $767 in a meditation retreat. It's only a week long. It's not like I have money to burn, but I believe in working on myself. Personal fulfillment is incredibly important.
The frustrating part is that the path to feeling better is literally step by step. But if you stay persistent, you can get there.
People have commented on how much I've changed. It took time, though. I'm calmer now, and simple things actually bring me joy again—like grabbing drinks with friends or going out.
I still have periods where I get depressed or put on a little weight. But it doesn't scare me anymore. I think it's normal. We can't be happy all the time.
Just keep trying and stay consistent, and everything will work out.🙂 Even if it feels impossible right now. You'll see.
This crisis will pass. Just find a professional who can help you feel better. And go to therapy more often. Once a month isn't nearly enough when you're truly depressed.
Wish you all the best!🙂