Posts by Amanda Edwards

Just checking in here. I’ve been reading up on anxiety, and honestly, I recognize way too many of these symptoms in my own life.
It’s a nightmare!!!!! As far as marijuana goes, I think that’s actually one of the triggers—it explains why this is happening. On top of that, I’ve always been a highly emotional and volatile person. Check your PMs!

I’ve officially decided to quit weed for good. I’m 25, and about two years ago, my entire world was flipped upside down when I moved away from 622 miles my hometown in Chicago🙂 and got married. Life is objectively good, but I just can't handle being "on my own" like this. My old friends aren't here, and I don't have anyone besides my husband. The loneliness is absolutely crushing me... frankly, everything feels pointless right now and I can't see a way forward. I’m stuck in a loop of negative thoughts; I’m terrified of the future and constantly spiraling over whether I’ll ever be a good mother. I find myself questioning if I’m even sane. I’m perpetually irritable, my libido has completely vanished, and my brain runs at a hundred miles an hour—these intrusive thoughts are killing me. I constantly catch myself having full-blown imaginary conversations in my head... it gets so intense that I end up with a literal headache!!! It's madness.

I literally have to pinch myself and shout "STOP" just to snap back to reality!!! The fact that I can't control it makes everything feel even worse. Last night, I just broke down in front of my husband and told him everything. He keeps trying to reassure me that I'm normal and that nothing is wrong, promising he'll just hold me more.🙂

I don't feel anything anymore—nothing at all. I've lost my ability to feel joy, and it's devastating. I've even started worrying that I don't love my husband anymore... it's like I don't care about anyone.

Anyway... that was a bit of a vent. Sorry if I'm being a burden... I just don't have anyone else to talk to about this. My husband is great, but he can't get inside my head to truly understand what I'm going through.

...I want children, but the mere thought of that level of responsibility paralyzes me!! Even though I love kids so much.

Am I just afraid of independence and responsibility? Am I just spoiled?

I am constantly battling this sense of dread and dissatisfaction. I find myself picking fights with my husband constantly because he didn't do something exactly the way I envisioned it in my head.

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placidnomad50 said:Oh, you're absolutely losing it... if you weren't completely out of your mind, I don't think you'd be needing a session with a therapist
Have you ever considered just taking a breather? Maybe skipping work for a day to go light up some weed instead?

😁 My husband and I share a joint every now and then... honestly, I think it's actually starting to affect my hair growth.😢

First off, hello everyone. I’m incredibly grateful this forum exists because it’s a relief to realize I’m not alone in this.
I really need some advice while I wait to see my therapist—my appointment isn't for another month.

Something is clearly wrong with me. I can't pinpoint the cause, but I am suddenly overwhelmed by this intense fear—a physical discomfort that ripples through my entire body for absolutely no reason at all.
This has been happening for about a year now, but I didn't pay much attention to it initially; I just assumed this was simply my "normal."

Then I started reading posts here, and it hit me: this might actually be a mental health issue. That realization has made everything worse because now I'm convinced I'm sick, and that thought terrifies me. Today was brutal—I barely made it through my shift at work because that sense of dread was constant. I have this terrifying feeling that I'm going to lose my mind and end up institutionalized. I honestly can't put into words how intense this sensation is.

If anyone here understands what this is, please, tell me. What is happening to me, why is this occurring, and am I losing my grip on reality?

And why am I plagued by such dark, intrusive thoughts that I just can't shake?

One more thing: whenever I see someone who is ill or disabled, I almost physically feel their suffering. It’s like I’m instantly experiencing their pain right along with them. I don't even know if I'm making sense... it’s just a total nightmare inside my head.

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I have one question: is psoriasis hereditary? Specifically, what are the chances my child will end up with this cursed condition?

I've been struggling with this disease for about 15 years now, dealing with patches on my elbows, knees, and scalp. I thank God it isn't any worse than this, but it's still a nightmare. I used to apply Belosalic, which would help for a few days before everything flared right back up. Now, I haven't used anything for six months... I just don't have the patience to keep slathering myself in steroids!😁

It hasn't gotten better, nor has it worsened; everything remains exactly the same, so I've decided to stop using the creams altogether.

Now, my husband and I are planning to have a baby... and I've started panicking. I really don't want my child to suffer through this miserable, nagging illness.
I honestly don't know where I inherited it from, because no one else in my family deals with this!

Help me out here.😢