shadownomad4 said:The Truth isn't truly within you until the Holy Spirit resides within you. Right now, what you're experiencing is a lie because you are being guided by a spirit that provides a "functional delusion"—it makes you believe in your own actions just to keep you going. That is precisely why Sin came: to reveal the Truth to you. But let's be honest, it is much easier to live a lie than to accept the Truth, because accepting it means you have to walk away from the lifestyle you've built. So, you simply refuse to accept it.
It makes your head spin and leaves you feeling sick when you consider the possibility that you've been deceived all along. You can't even fathom it. You tell yourself, "There is no way I'm throwing away everything I've invested my whole life into!" Yet, a small part of you whispers, "But what if the Truth spoken by shadownomad4 is right? What if I've messed everything up?" And then, just like before, you shut it down: "Whatever, this isn't 'Truth,' I'm on the right path and I don't need to overthink it."
This cycle continues until you finally realize that there is only one Truth. If you truly love the Truth, you will inevitably find your way to Jesus, because He has always had a special interest in those seeking Him and has always drawn them close.
I have walked the very path you are on, and I know how difficult it was to strip away the doctrines I spent years absorbing through alternative studies. Now, thank God, I no longer have those nagging questions about eternity or God.🙂
I am fully convinced that everything else is an illusion except for Jesus, having personally explored all those "other ways." You can judge me however you like.
Sure, we can label it that way if it helps, but the fundamental issue remains: you all continue to interpret what you call the Holy Spirit as something external, something separate, and that is precisely the perspective from which you are writing. It is entirely possible—and quite a real possibility, frankly—that you have merely constructed a mental entity that you've labeled the "Holy Spirit," which then proceeds to dictate your thoughts and actions.
The danger in the path you're taking is that you might just become a victim of your own fascination.
It makes your head spin and leaves you feeling sick to your stomach when you consider the possibility that you've been deceived all along—and that's not even an option you want to entertain. "I can't just throw away everything I've invested so much in!" you tell yourself. Yet, another part of you whispers, "But what if the Truth shadownomad4 is talking about is real? What if I've messed up?" And then, predictably, you revert to your old habit: "Oh, please, what 'Truth'? I'm on the right path; there's nothing to think about."
This cycle continues until you finally realize that there is only one Truth. If you truly love the Truth, you will inevitably find your way to Jesus, because He has always had a special interest in people like that, drawing them toward Him.
I have walked the very path you are on, and I can tell you, letting go of the doctrines I spent years absorbing through alternative studies was no easy feat. But now? Thank God, I no longer find myself plagued by these endless questions about eternity.🙂
I am convinced that everything else is a delusion except for Jesus—having explored those "other paths" myself—so feel free to say whatever you like about me.
It seems to me that you are more preoccupied with proving your path is correct than actually walking it. Something to ponder.