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So, I went in for my Beta test on Monday... and it came back negative... just 0.5 hCG...
Thanks to everyone for all the replies... 🙂
Honestly, ladies, I don't even know... I feel like I'm going half-crazy from all these tests (I think I spent almost my entire paycheck at the doctor's office) and just from the sheer amount of stress I've been under lately...
The test I used was a Prima... just the standard kind... you know, two lines means positive, one line means negative... You can only imagine the look on my face when I saw those two lines.... So then I wake up my partner... he’s still totally groggy... like, WHAT HAPPENED??? TELL ME NOW, HONEY? IT CAN'T BE THAT SERIOUS THAT YOU CAN'T JUST SAY IT RIGHT NOW?... And when I finally told him I was pregnant, his first reaction was just, "WAIT, REALLY???" 😁 Then he drags me off to get some gin, we're bickering right in front of the urgent care clinic, and just imagine... WHO IN A MOMENT LIKE THIS THINKS ABOUT FINDING A PARKING SPOT AT THE HOSPITAL? Of course, by the time we got back to the cars, I had quite the surprise waiting for me....
It also seemed really weird to me that nothing showed yet... I mean... we only slept without protection that one single time, during the first month.... Every other time we used condoms.... Based on that, I should be like three months along by now... and there is no way you wouldn't notice being three months pregnant!!!!
Anyway, I'm definitely heading in on Monday to get an Alphabet test... then I'll know for sure... ugh
Girls, I am completely lost.... I feel like I'm going crazy... 😢
So, on January 15th ( 🙂 ), I had unprotected sex.... I went to a private OBGYN the very next day to get a prescription for those emergency contraceptive pills.... but she refused to give them to me, saying there was no need because I hadn't ovulated yet, so fertilization was basically impossible.... I thought, okay, great, no need to deal with those pills and no worries.... but I guess my gut wouldn't leave me alone. I tried to wait until my next period, which came on February 12th, and it was really weird.... I mean, I thought it was fine, and my doctor told me my period might be a little strange because of the vaginal suppositories I was using, so she said not to worry.... after that weird period, I took a test and it was negative. I figured, okay, I'm definitely losing it....
But this feeling that something is happening inside me just won't go away... I’ve had these sensations where it feels like my throat is tightening, or like something is stuck there, then I'll get hit with dizziness, then my heart starts racing.... nothing constant, just random throughout the day.... so I waited for my next period on March 15th. That one was totally normal. I didn't really feel like I was having my period, but it was pretty heavy, just like before I saw the doctor. I took another test.... negative again.... I thought, alright, you are officially insane... and whatever...
Then, about 12 days ago, I get my period again and everything seems fine, except my ovaries ache, my back hurts, and the bleeding is really heavy.... but even after the period ended, the pain hasn't stopped. It's not constant, but it comes and goes, and just thinking about being pregnant gives me a headache, and my nose is all stuffed up... so I take another test (honestly, I'm about to lose my mind), and this is the last one I'll ever do... I promise... so I take it this morning.... and it's POSITIVE... I don't know whether to cry or laugh, or just scream... I have no idea what to do with myself.... I called my boyfriend... I told him we need to see each other urgently... he just says, "well, what happened? just come over and we'll talk." Once I'm with him, I tell him everything and show him the test. He says, "let's go to the doctor, I'll drive you, let's not wait around." We go to the OBGYN and he does a full ultrasound, checking the uterus and everything outside of it, feeling around, but he sees nothing of the fetus... he tells me, "I don't see anything, it's impossible that you're pregnant, there's nothing here..." hmmm.... before the exam, I told him that if I am actually pregnant, I must be at least 3 months along... because every single time after that, we used protection...
A friend said to me today, "Sweetie, are you pregnant? You've been acting so weird lately, you even have this glow in your eyes... I don't know, you're just different..." And I was just like... 🤷
On Monday, I'm going to get a blood test for HCG levels, just so I can finally put this to rest once and for all...
Ugh, girls, I know I've probably been venting more than anyone else ever has... but I am seriously so confused, I don't know what to think... I'm probably going to lose it... please, tell me what you think...